Vibrator

"Andy?" I called for him. Everyone left by now and Alex was at a friends house. "Hm?" He responded, coming downstairs to the kitchen. "CC told me that you were in a relationship while I was away. Which is totally fine with me, but I thought you weren't." I said and I watched as he tensed up. "Oh uh yeah...there was one but it didn't last that long," he responded. "CC said that the relationship wasn't good. That you got really aggressive toward the girl. What happened?" I asked. He sighed and leaned against the counter. "She cheated on me a few times and I got angry at her. But I didn't drop her since I thought I was never gonna find someone." He said and I nodded. What else was he keeping from me?

Notes

TW Self harm, OD, Suicide, Depression, Anxiety, Eating Disorder
dear mom and dad.

I can honestly say I hate you. You have hurt me in so many ways. You've told me I don't have depression. You've forced me into situations thaf I can't do becuase of my anxiety. You've taken away the option of anti depressants which might me the only way of getting better. You've mentally and verbally abused me, along with physically hitting me. One of you have touched me innapropriatly many times even after I said to stop. Youve made me feel terrible about my weight and made me starve myself for a log period of time. You've made me feel bad for doing things that make me happy. At what measures do I need to go to to show you what im really feeling? Do I need to go to the ER for overdose or for going to deep? Do I need to almost die? When will you finally start caring??