Vibrator

I woke up to a loud wailing sound. Shit! We forgot to switch back to our bedroom. I groaned as I sat up, looking down at CC who was a deep sleeper. I got out of bed, still not dressed and made my way to the bedroom. I grabbed one of his shirts and put it on, walking over to the baby and picking him up.
“It’s ok...I’m here now,” I whispered to him, rocking him in my arms. Alex’s sobs came to a stop, staring at me with his blue eyes. I hated how they reminded me of Andy, and how they reminded me that I still had feelings for him.
I kissed his forehead, sitting down on the bed with him remaining in my arms. I could imagine Alex growing up to look like his father, and I had no clue how to feel about that.
His eyes closed and his breathing slowed, showing that he was asleep again. I stood up and placed him down in his crib, climbing into CC’s bed myself. I was so tired. I fell asleep so quickly that night.


“CC, I’m gonna be going out, could you watch the baby for an hour or two?” I asked CC as I grabbed my bag.
“Mhm. Just don’t take too long,” CC said and wrapped his arms around me, kissing my nose gently.
“I won’t,” I told him and pecked his lips before slipping out of his arms. I left the house and climbed into the car, buckling myself. I was going to see Andy. I felt bad after what happened yesterday. I shouldn’t have blown up at him like that even though he was being a dick.
Minutes later, I pulled up at the front of his house and parked, turning off the car and climbing out. I went up to the door, raising my fist and hesitating. I then knocked on it, waiting for him to come. I heard a shuffling sound and then the door opened. Andy looked down at me, smiling and pulling me in for a hug. I didn’t deny it and I wrapped my arms around him. He pulled me inside and closed the door.
“So, (NAME), why’d you come around here?” Andy asked me and I followed him into the living room. I sighed to myself, rubbing my eyes.
“I...I felt bad about what happened yesterday. And I think it was important that we talk things through a bit, without fighting,” I said, sitting down in a chair. He sat down across from me on the couch. He simply nodded.
“Where should we begin?” He asked me and I stared at him. I would tell him about CC and mines first kiss. But first he should tell me what he was doing with that girl. He saw how I was staring at him and I think he got the message.
“What were you doing?” I asked.
“I...I’ve been seeing that girl for a little bit the day you saw it, we aren’t together now, but that’s not the point. I was with her when I was seeing you. I...I don’t know why I dated her also. I loved you so much and I was stupid and ruined everything.” Andy said and I looked down.
“The day that I left you, CC and I kissed. And I didn’t know how to feel. But I thought that I loved him. And I do.” I admitted and Andy nodded.
“I know that you love him, but I still feel something so strong towards you. I don’t know what I want to get out of this, but I really wish you would give me a second chance, (NAME),” Andy said and I bit my inside cheek gently in thought.
“Andy, I still love you and it confuses me so much since I also love CC. But you...you were there for so long and helped me through everything. You helped me with Kevin and my Dad, and I can’t seem to get you out of my mind ever...but CC was there when you weren’t. While I was pregnant he helped me when you didn’t. And I can’t just drop him like that, Andy.”
“Please, (NAME). All I want is one more chance to show you how much I love you,” Andy said and I stared into his blue eyes that were filled with sadness and regret from the past. I didn’t know what I was doing. I stood up and walked over to him, sitting down in his lap and grabbing his face. I angled it up toward me and stared into his eyes again, slowly leaning down and kissing his lips. Andy’s lips were so different from CC’s. Andy’s hands grabbed my hips and he pulled me close, kissing me back. I have no clue what in me made me keep doing this, but his hands ran up my side, pulling up my shirt a bit at the same time. I knew where this would lead to and I wasn’t sure if I liked that idea or not. But I think I did or I would have stopped.
He pulled my shirt off and set me down on my back on the couch. He unzipped my jeans and pulled them off. He leaned over me and started to kiss me again, his one hand going into my panties and feeling around. He rubbed my clit in circles, causing me to let out soft moans into his mouth.
“And-Andy...more…” I moaned out and he smiled, chuckling against my lips. He slipped a finger in me, moving it in a out and pressing against my inner walls, his thumb rubbing at my clit. I bucked my hips up into him, my toes curling at the feeling. I forgot all about CC for this time. He added more fingers and my moans grew louder, both of my hands gripping onto his arm as he did so. My moans grew louder and I felt a knot grow in my stomach. He moved his fingers faster and that knot grew until I felt like I was going to explode. I opened my mouth wide, letting out a loud moan, my legs tensing up and I came onto his fingers. His fingers slowed and he pulled them out of me, licking them before drying his hands off.
I laid there, breathless with my eyes closed. What did we just do?! I opened my eyes, gathering my clothes quickly.
“This...This was a mistake, Andy,” I said, shaking my head to myself as I pulled back on my shirt and jeans. I zipped them, fixing my hair also. Andy stood up, looking confused as I scrambled around.
“What do you mean this was a mistake?” Andy asked me and I stopped moving, turning to look at him.
“We shouldn’t have done that!” I said.
“Don’t yell at me, you’re the one who kissed me first, right?” Andy asked and I made a sound that told him I was aggravated. My fingers curled at the thought of what I should do next.
“I need to go now,” I said, rushing over to him and grabbing his shirt collar, pulling him down to give me a kiss before I grabbed my purse and rushed out of the house. I went into the car and started it, driving away quickly. God dammit, what was wrong with me?

Notes

haha i think my computer might have a virus whoops