Vibrator

I jolted awake from my sleep, breathing heavily. I sat up, looking around the bedroom before bursting into tears. I held the blanket up to my mouth, trying to muffle my sobs but I couldn’t seem to stop. I know I wasn’t with Andy tonight but I was never able to calm myself down without someone helping me. I stood up, putting back on his shirt and leaving my bedroom. I walked down to his bedroom and raised a fist to knock, hesitating for a second before knocking.
“One second!” I heard CC grumble, the door opening seconds later.
“Yes?” CC asked me and I just looked up at him before hugging him tightly. I sobbed into his bare chest.
“Whoah…(NAME)? What’s the matter?” He asked me and I just shook my head, continuing to sob.
“Hey...it’s all ok, you are safe here...calm down…” CC told me and I clenched my eyes shut. I shook in his arms, whole body shaking. He began to walk us into his bedroom, turning on the lights and sitting me on his bed. He rubbed my back, telling me comforting things. I took a deep breath, breathing out slowly to calm myself down.
“What happened?” CC asked.
“I-I’m not even sure I had a terrible dream and I remembered everything he...did to me,” I said, wiping my eyes.
“I don’t feel like that is the whole thing, is there anything else?”
I nodded.
“I’m so stressed out about things and-and I don’t know if I’ll be able to raise this baby or if I’m going to be happy with him and I’m just so unsure about so many things!” I blurted out, staring at him. He looked down at me, moving closer and hugging me tightly.
“Everything will be ok, you just need to play it day by day. Don’t think too much ahead it will just confuse you, focus on today and tomorrow, and thats it,” CC told me softly, rocking me slowly in his arms. I nodded.
“You look really tired and should probably go back to sleep,” CC said.
“D...Do you think...I could sleep with you?” I asked him, biting down on my lip.
“(NAME) I don’t think thats a good-” CC began but I cut him off.
“Please...I...I want to make sure I don’t do anything stupid tonight,” I said to him. I know this would be a bad idea, but we were just friends and only friends. CC sighed.
“Ok, but this was your idea,” CC said and I gave him a small smile. He got up and I crawled under the covers as he turned off the lights. He came back over and got into the bed next to me, covering us both with the blankets. I felt his arm wrap around me and I moved closer to him. Why did I feel so much safer next to CC then Andy? Was it because Andy knew I would always come running back, or was it because of our fights? Either way, I didn’t like it.

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