Little Biersack

Okay, so this is totally out of no where, but I think i should say. In the last chapter note I talked about almost loosing some friends through suicide. It's not the best feeling in the world, probably more painful than anything in the world. And when I mean that I'm with you guys, and I'm here for you... I'm being serious. I'll give you a little story;
This year, around Feb, I met a dude online. He lives in England, let's call him Teo (lame) anyway, we talked and pretty much fell in liking. One day, he didn't answer me... Those days turned into months.. No word. When I was finally giving up on him, he texts me...
He tried to commit.
I couldn't cry... I told him I was there for him but he didn't take it for granted. The fact that his family was going to loose this great guy made me cringe and numb. I suffered from thoughts like these as well.
It sounds so peaceful, just dying right?
But I found out that even saying there was a chance I was moving school, my friends begged me to stay. This moved my thoughts...
I suffered for self harming, but with music and my love for writing for readers like you, I've been three months clean. I look at my scars in my wrists and legs, I wish I could never done them. I can't walk around my house in shorts without panicking my scars are showing.
When you almost or loose someone so dear in your life, you asks yourself why. Let me tell you something dear.
Don't.
Throw away the blade, put away the pills, throw the lighter, untie that noose.
It's not worth it.
Cry until you can cry no more, scream until you think you lost your voice...
Don't become a past that everybody around wishes they could change, be the past where they look back and say 'THEY MADE IT.'
Stay strong my beautifuls'.
I love you all, whether I can't tell you personally, I do.

With hugs, kisses and lots of love

-RisenDemon (Kenia.)

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