My Fallen Angel

It’s been about a week since that night out and me and Andy have started dating. Nothing too serious, just movies, food, parks, the usual stuff. We haven’t kissed yet, but god do I want to. I just don’t know when the right time is and I don’t want to freak him out by coming on too strong.

“You want some popcorn?” Andy asks me from his seat on the couch. We are watching the Star Wars movies over at his place

“Got any tea to go with?” I ask in return

“Do I got any tea?” He mimics “Come on, pause the movie, I’ll show you where the tea is”

I pause the movie and follow him into his small kitchen. He opens a drawer and I stand there in awe. He’s got tonnes of tea.

“Holy shit, this is like a tea sanctuary” I say

“Well, tea is better than coffee”

“Finally someone who agrees with me on that; coffee is crap”

He laughs “Well I wouldn’t say crap, just not as good”

I pick out an herbal tea flavour and hand it to him as he pours the hot water into my mug and drops the tea bag in. He takes the popcorn out of the microwave and puts it into a bowl and we head back into the living room where our movie waits

“You know, I’ve never seen Star Wars before” He says before I unpause the movie

“Really?! I thought everyone had seen these”

“Just wasn’t too popular where I lived”

“You’re joking. Star Wars isn’t popular in Cincy? But they have so many comic cons there”

“I don’t know, none of my friends were ever in to it and neither was I”

“Well now you’re watching them and you’re gonna love them because they’re the most amazing movies ever” I say and he laughs “Now shush” I say and unpause the movie

We sit and drink our tea and munch on our popcorn through the first four movies before I start getting tired

“Tired?” He laughs as I yawn

“Maybe a little”

“Wanna stay over?” He asks with hopeful eyes

I think about it for a second “Sure” I say

“Yay!” He sounds like a little kid “I’ll go get you a pair of night pants and a shirt to put on and we can go to sleep” He says as he gets up and runs into his room

“Here you go” He says, handing me a pair of batman fuzzy night pants and a Snow White’s Poison Bite tee-shirt

“Wow, you like SWPB?” I ask taking the clothes from him

“Duh, they’re only one of the best underrated bands out there” He says

“Definitely” I say and then walk to the bathroom to change

After I change, I walk back to his room to find him in a pair of batman fuzzy pants and no shirt.

“You sure do like Batman” I say and laugh at him

“Uhm, he’s only the greatest super hero ever” He says

“I don’t know, Raven’s pretty cool too”

“Ah a Teen Titans fan” He says as I climb into bed with him and he puts his arm around me

“And Robin is a much better hero than Batman, even if the Dick Grayson version did learn a lot from Batman”

“Seriously? You think a teenage super hero is better than the Batman?”

“Yup” I smirk at him and he returns the look “Let’s just go to bed, I’m tired” I say and snuggle down into the covers with him following suit

“Alright, goodnight” He says then kisses my head

I fall asleep soon after

The next thing I know I’m on top of him and he’s looking at me, scared and worried. He’s got a hold of my arms almost like he was trying to keep me from doing something.

Suddenly the realisation sets in

“What happened?” I ask, afraid of what the answer is

“You’re eyes, they were almost blood red and gold” He says and my eyes go wide. I didn’t. I couldn’t.

I get up off the bed and back towards the door slowly.

“Jess?” He says as he moves towards me

“No, stay back” I say putting my hands out in front of me

“Jessicka, I don’t care what you are, I love you” He says and I fall into a flashback

~“But- but I love you” I say, trying to hide my fear

“No, a monster like you can’t love anyone” He says~

“You can’t” I say quietly

“What?” He asks

“Nothing”

“Not ‘what’ as in I don’t know what you said, ‘what’ as in why would you say that”

I can feel the fear rise in me; this can’t happen to me, not again.

“Jess” He says in a soothing tone

“I’m a monster, I can’t love anyone” I say remembering that night with my ex, but keeping it vague

“What do you mean?”

“No, I’m not telling you!” I yell and then run

“Jessicka!” He screams, but I don’t turn back, I keep running, running to the one place where nothing matters

My home.

Well, not exactly my home, but it might as well be. Once my parents found out what I was, they disowned me and I had to live on my own for practically my whole life. I was only six. How could they just abandon their daughter like that?

It was a rundown old warehouse with holes in the roof and walls, but I didn’t care, it never bothered me, not when I was six, and not now that I’m twenty-six. It was the only home I had ever known. The only home I will ever know. And no one knows where this is. Except Nicholas. It’s out a long dirt road that has long since grown up and hidden in the trees and it rests right beside the drop-off of a cliff.

“I fall to my knees as another flashback takes over

~”Babe, please, please stop” I plead as he raises his fist over his head to deliver another punch, but it never comes~

I stay on my knees and start crying. I grip at my shoulders and my claws rip into my skin. Wait my claws. Oh, god, Jessicka, calm down, they can’t know. They can never know.

You’ll be on your own again

“I was never not on my own” I reply to the voice in my head and start crying again.

I stand up, shaking and wavering slightly as I stumble outside. I walk over to the cliff and look down. I close my eyes and fall.

Notes

So, does Andy know? Will he ever know? Or will Jessicka leave before he can found anything else out about her? What do you think will happen to Jessicka after falling off the cliff?

Thank you so much for reading, I love you all and remember to always stay strong