Perfect Weapon

Song: Immortal moments
Music by: Pilgrim
Lyrics by: Forever Jinxxed (BVBFAN1990)[me]
i am alright as long as i'm me.
i can not stay here now.
I am not well i am aware.
so stay away from me, please
I do not know how long it'll last
these immortal moments.
this is not what i want
nor how it should be
yet it is so i am
i am alright as long i'm me
i can not stay here now
i am not well i am aware
so stay away from me, please
how can i protect the ones
this one i love most
when i am in this state?
i don't want this to be the end
for as long i am
for as long as i am here
i am alright as long as i'm me
i can not stay here now
i am not well i am aware (i am alright as long i'm me)
so stay away from me ( i can not stay here now)
please i don't want to hurt you
as long as i am inside
The lyrics that Dream Andy is singing in chapter 8.

Notes

Author's Note:
As I had mentioned in my author notes within the chapter it's in: This song is entirely instrumental. I created the lyrics; because I was listening to the song on repeat while I was writing the chapter and I had wanted Andy singing a song. But I had wanted it to be original, so even though the song is not original; the lyrics are.

Dear Reader,
I want to take this time and say thank you to those who read and gave me feed back about the story. I am aware that I have been away from this story for some time. I apologize for this. but I would like share with you a little bit of how this story came to be... I was reading other stories by the same title on Wattpad some time back. I thought it'd be a cool idea to write a story using the song lyrics. So this is how it came to be, but the story and what had driven me, aside from music, to write this was depression. I had it so bad, that I had been hearing voices in my head telling me things that I really didn't want to hear. When Chapter 14 came up I had struggled with thoughts of wanting to start cutting, strangulation and other life-threatening ideas. So the fact that I had Andy (in his possessed state) was my interpretation of my struggle. I had Jinxx (whom is one of my favorite members of BVB) represent me fighting the thoughts. There were times where I truly had truly wanted to end my life, but I am still standing strong and I rarely have these thoughts now. I had Dream Andy sing the song that is above, to express just how frustrating it was for me to go through my hardships. I owe it all to my music, not just BVB, though they have helped in their own way. But as I said I owe it all to my music, because it was always there for me; when no one else was. I had discovered the song above a couple of years before I discovered BVB, the song is an instrumental song and one of my favorites to listen to. Anyway, now that I am somewhat over the depression; it had gotten hard for me to continue, but I will not forget to update this story. Please bare with me as I write this story. I would like to do my best to make it flow, since I think there are some chapters that didn't flow. If you're patient with me and my plan for this story, I bet that you will enjoy it as much as I do writing it. So again thank you for taking your time to read this story and I hope you'll enjoy the rest of the story. If you listen to the song and read the chapter titles, it'll match up. Anyway stay strong and positive...and as always enjoy reading.
<3
Forever Jinxxed (BVBFAN1990)
P.S. Stay Strong and Positive. =D