My actual adoption..

Jez's PoV~

i stood there frozen. Fuck he's here and i had a feeling he knew i'd be here. cc wrapped his arm around my waist. "are you ok?" he followed my gaze i felt his arm tighten around me. he pulled me away from the bar and i felt morg's gaze on me. ashley saw my face. "jez, you ok?" i shook my head i couldnt speak. cc quickly told ashley about what happened. ashley looked at the bar. "ill take care of him if you want jez." i nodded and ashley walked up to the bar and started yelling at morg. cc led me to a booth and i sat down just numbed. cc sat with me and i heard ashley yelling and punches landing. ashley came up and cc picked me up and we went back home "thanks ashley." i whispered as we walked in. "no problem. your jake's kid and any one of us would do anything to make sure your safe." i was shocked that any of the other guys would do that. i felt tears. "thanks. your the best." he smiled and i tried to smile back. jake was pissed "i think he knew jez would be at the bar tonight." that thought crossed my mind but i was scared to tell cc. "so hes stalking her and us?" cc was mad and ashley was still pissed. "yea he mustve." cc agreed. "i saw him backstage, and he was watching jez going outside to smoke." i was surprised. i never thought he'd be following me. "this is my fault. im sorry." i started crying. he held me and jake was trying to reassure me "its not your fault jez. we shouldve been looking out for him more." cc squeezed my waist.they were trying so hard to make me less upset. i struggled out of cc's grip and ran up to the bathroom. i grabbed the knife i kept hidden. i sliced my wrists. i felt tears running down my face. i went back into my room and threw on a long sleeve shirt and wrapped my wrists in gauze. i went back downstairs pulling down the sleeves to hide that gauze. cc was looking at my arms and i knew he could tell there was gauze under there. he stood up and held me i felt tears in my eyes. he ran his hand over my arms and wrists. he was upset i could tell. "i love you forever jezzy and i will do anything to protect you." he whispered. "i'll always love you too." i just clung to him scared my depression would pull me over the edge again. i dont wanna be in that dark abyss again its hard to get out of.

Notes

sorry for the sad chapter. just wanted to show jez's thoughts on morg following her. the next chapter or two will be in jez's pov.