When all else fails... fake a smile.

Andy's POV

Me and Ash were sitting on opposite side of Brooke, and she seemed...nerved up. I put my hand on her leg, "Hey you don't have to freak out any more. You're not going to jail." She chuckled, "I was never scared of going to jail, just thought acting like I was would work." I pulled my hand off of her, and stood up. "Ok so you have to talk to us, tell us what you're thinking. We aint mind readers." She let out a sigh, one I knew that she knew that shit was about to go down.

Brooke's POV

I finally decided on telling them, getting everything out. "Go get CC," I whispered. Andy went and woke him up. He sat down on one of the chairs. "Everything ok," he asked. I tried to smile, but it fell, "Ok here we go," I looked at CC first, and in his eyes, I could tell that he already knew, "Ok CC...yeah." I couldn't bring myself to say those words, those words that he has come to know so well. He looked sad. I stood up and went over to him. I picked his head up and kissed his cheek, "I still care about you." He smiled, "that's what everyone says." Damn more shittyness. I hugged him then turned to Ashley and Andy. They were not smiling but they had that "look" in their eyes. I heaved my chest. I hate this shit. I went to Ashley. "Go to my bunk and we will talk. Don't smile. I have to talk to Andy," I whispered in his ear. He nodded his head and walked off. I sat down again. I looked over at CC and nodded. He too left. Now it's just me and Andy. He walked over to me and sat down, "so?" I played with my hands. Daw grow up you big ass baby, my mind scolded. I turned and looked at him, "Ok so I do like you but.... I know you are no good for me. You are sexy, kind, and caring, but there is something inside of you that I don't understand. When you first saw me you seen my scars. I knew you mean well about asking, but that is a part of my life that I need to forget. I still care about you, it's just.... you.........scare me. With Ashley, it's different." I seen anger take over his eyes. He scooted closer to me, "And you Brooke scare me. And Ashley, he is no good either. To start he wanted to get in your pants. That's it! But you keep running to him! " He starts making my angry, "And you fucked everything up, that started THIS," I motioned my hands around the bus. "You have to face facts, that I chose Ashley, even if he is older, even if he is no good, just like you. I am a big girl and need to learn from my mistakes." I stood up and headed towards my bunk. I passed CC's and stuck my head in. He was sleeping again. "I am no good for you," I whispered. Even if he couldn't hear me, I needed to say it. I walked back to mine to find Ash laying there. He had a smile on his face. He new he won, and I was ok with it. I climbed in next to him, and curled up. He draped his arm around my and wrapped his body around mine. I snuggled closer, and held back tears of frustration and of fear. I had broken two hearts, one that didn't deserve it, and the other that refuses to accept it. I have a heart that is broken, but knows that being with Ashley is....a good idea. The right idea.

CC's POV

I was expecting to hear moans and grunts coming from Brooke's bunk, but didn't. I had faked that I was asleep, I just didn't want to talk to anyone. I heard Brooke say that she wasn't any good for me. I don't think she is, but I am not going to pull an Andy. I know that Brooke doesn't love me, so I wont force her in to doing it. I will simply be here for her. I can't lose her in any way.

Andy's POV

I sat down with my elbows on my knees and my head resting in my hands. How could I scare her?! You know she likes you Andy, my little devil said. No she simply wants to be left alone. You shouldn't push her to do anything, the angle said. I sighed. No amount of words can sum up what I fell right now. I just fell dull and tangled up.

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