When all else fails... fake a smile.

Andy's POV

So Brooke thinks Ashley "loves" her and doesn't want to use her...... well lets see what she thinks after she sees his journal. Everyone in the band knows that he vents by writing everything down. EVERYTHING. About what girl he has done, what he thinks, and what plans on doing..... even about Brooke. I know this because I have read it. I swear I am not a mean, heartless fucker,I am just... looking out for Brooke.

I walked back towards the restaurant. It was now 8:38. I was met half way to the door, by Ashley and Brooke walking out, holding hands. "Here," I said thrusting the note book to Brooke. She seemed confused, and Ashley seemed....scared. Jake came running up behind me. "That was a dick move," he muttered. Brooke looked at me, "What is this?" I smiled, "It is Ash's note book, a diary if you would call it that. Read the last page."

Brooke's POV

Andy handed me this note book, telling me to look at the last page. I was curious so I looked. The page was dated the night after I met Ashley.

"So I met this girl, really pretty. I sure as hell wouldn't mind having a one nighter with her;) Her name is Brooke. Man I can tell that she wants me, or probably any of use."

I felt Ashley grab my arm, "This was before I got to know you Brooke." I felt anger swelling up inside of me, along with pain. "Oh it gets better, look at the next page," Andy smirked. I knew I would regret this, but I had to see. It was dated the night he came to give me my phone.

"So I got to talk with Brooke. She is broken, everyone can tell. She has CC and Andy fighting for her, and she don't even know. They are stupid, they claim to love her, or at least care about her. I don't. I am unable to love, only to fuck. Every word they say about me is true. I am a man whore. I find the most insecure girl and use them to help me feel something, anything."

My throat was closing up. Tears were fighting to flow from my eyes, but I held them in. I pushed the book to Ashley's chest, stood tall, but on a fake smile and said, "How stupid of me to even think someone like you would even care about someone like me. Ha silly Brooke. You go and open up and just get stabbed in the heart." All the guys and Leah were looking at me. "What the hell do ya'll have to say," Leah demanded. CC came up next me. "Brooke..." he whispered. I Turned around and looked at him. I felt a tear roll down my cheek, "yeah...," I whispered, trying not to cry. He wrapped his arms around me. Andy looked shocked and happy. Ashley looked pissed and hurt. "YOU FUCKING PICE OF SHIT!!" Ashley yelled and went at Andy's throat. Andy quickly dodged it, popping back up behind Ashley. "What, don't like that Brooke now knows what you really think of her," Andy asked smugly. Momma Jinxx appeared, grabbing Ash by his shirt with on hand and pushing Andy over to Jake with the other. "That is enough," Jinxx said in a low scary voice. The boys stopped. "CC take Brooke and Leah to the bus. Jake sit that jack ass down. Ashley you do the same. I felt CC pick me up. I kept my head on his shoulder, silently letting tears run down my face and soak his shirt. I heard Leah yell. I looked up and seen her kick Ashley in the balls, making him tumble over. Andy laughed, and she walked over to him and punched him in the face. I giggled through the tears a tiny bit. "Damn it Leah," Jake muttered picking her up and throwing her over his shoulder. "NO they both HURT Brooke, and I will have my vengeance," she yelled. I heard and felt CC laugh, "I am guessing that she is only a tiny bit crazy compared to you when you're mad." I whipped away the tears, "Yeah."

We got on the bus and CC sat me down on the couch. Jake put Leah down next to me. She was still pissed. Her face changed when she seen my smeared makeup on my face. "Oh hunn it will be ok. I don't think any more jackasses like Ashley will be made, from how hard I kicked him in the balls, and Andy will have a pretty little bruise on his face.," she said as she hugged me. I laughed, "I just feel so stupid..." then the tears came back. Damn I hate this. CC squatted down in front of me, whipping my tears away. 'It ain't your fault. Ashley lied to you, and Andy did the right thing in a very wrong way by telling you like that. Andy just wanted you to run in to his arms. He is selfish like that."

Ashley's POV

I was still on the ground hurting. Damn Leah could kick. A couple of tears were cried. Andy was somewhere near me holding his left cheek. He had a few tears in his eyes too. "I hope you both are proud of what you have done," Jinxx said standing between us. I finally sat up, "Damn." Andy sat down and just pulled out a cigarette. He had it in his mouth and was about to light it when Jinxx snatched it from his mouth ripping it in two. Andy's mouth was open, shocked. "No smoking until I am done talking," Jinxx returned the glare he was now receiving. I sat there looking at my hands, "I'm sorry..." Jinxx laughed, "I am not the one to be apologizing to. That person is on the damn tour bus, probably crying." Guilt hit me hard. "You," Jinxx pointed to me, "should not have PLAYED with her feelings and her heart like that. She thought you actually cared about her." I looked up at him, "I do." This earned me a snort form him and Andy. "Well you have a very VERY fucking shitty way of showing it," Andy muttered. I snapped my head towards him, "Oh and your way is better, 'Oh here Brooke read Ash's personal things. I hope my plane works good, to where you run to me and leave Ash'. Yeah very fucking smart." I felt anger rising up inside me. I was ready to wrap my hand around his throat. A sigh broke me from my thoughts, "Ok look it is now 9:27. We need to be at the concert to set up by 10. Now can you two shit heads be good and not fight?" Jinxx was looking down at us. I shook my head 'Yes', and so did Andy, who now had a bruise on his cheek. "OK wait here," he said as he went to the bus. What the hell is wrong with me? I usually don't care about any one's feelings but mine.

Andy's POV

I was still pissed that my plane back fired. Brooke went to CC instead of me, and Jinxx broke my smoke. I pulled out another one, lighting it. Damn I usually don't fuck up this bad.

Brooke's POV

CC and Leah had finally helped me stop crying. Jinxx appeared at the door. "Um ok so wee need to leave in order to make it to the venue on time. If ya'll want, you can drive Brooke's car and fallow us there. I am going to have to finish talking to the fuck-tards on the way there." We all just shook are heads 'yes'. "Alright," Jinxx answered. He called Andy and Ashley on to the bus, they both looked down at the ground as they walked by. We then hopped of the bus, and got in my care. Jake was driving, Leah in the passenger seat, and my and CC in the back. Ok, I thought, lets try and have fun tonight.

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