It Just One Of Those Days.

I woke up with my phone vibrating like crazy. I checked the time... It wasn't early. I got it and looked at the notifications. Twitter:

@ccbvb : she makes me so happy, I can't even explain. #crushing
@ccbvb : I can't show her yet, but she's perfect. @ccbvb : one day, I'll make her mine.
@ccbvb : I will change her mind, and then her last name.


I smile, but then frown. Why am I getting so high hopes on this? Maybe he's talking about another girl. I checked my other social media, they were half the same. Instagram: *picture of a couple holding each other.

@MatthewI: this is my best friend and her little crush, will they make it official?! I roll my eyes and shake my head.
@k_hara: stop bein such a bully you dipshit, love me and feed me instead.

I scrolled lower, and I was tagged in something. But it was through direct messaging.

@ashleypurdy : do one shit wrong and the whole world is going to think you're only with CC for fame. I'm watching you Kenny.

And then there was a photo of me and CC, just hanging out.
My head was in his shoulder and his arm wrapped around me, this happened yesterday.

@k_hara: don't worry, I'll probably make it official first when it becomes official Ash. I got you covered on that.

I sent that and laid down. Why did he hate me so much? I've done absolutely nothing to him, and I'm already receiving more hate than Justin Bieber probably. Geez. I go on my twitter and smiled as I typed these 140 letters.

@K_Hara3: Maybe he can be for me, and maybe he has change my mind. But can I be in love with him? That's the question I must ask myself.

I close my social media and put on my music. Open Water by Blessthefall plays and I giggle at the irony. I close my eyes, wrap the blanket closer to me, and went back to sleep to Beau and Lights Bokan's voice.

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