My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)
Summary
Nikki Morgan isn't a normal girl. Life gave her enough shit for a lifetime but still she is surviving. Going to a BVB concert with her best friend Kaylie will change her life forever. Will it be in a good way or a bad way? Warning: strong language, self harm, suicidal themes and sex scenes..
Characters
Andy Biersack
23 years. Lead Singer of BVB. Sweet and caring. In a relationship with Juliet Simms until he finds out that she is cheating on him. Develops feelings for Nikki at some point but is torn because she seems more into Ashley and turns his attention to Kaylie.
Ashley Purdy
30 years. Bassist for BVB. Manwhore and a player. He likes Nikki and he is constantly trying to get in to her pants. Soon, he realizes that he doesn't want Nikki to be just a one night stand. He develops feelings for her but doesn't know how to show them.
Brad Stevens
26 years. One of Nikki's sex buddies. Has a night club in Ohio and likes Nikki a lot.
Chase Jensen
27 years. Nikki's ex boss. He cares a lot for her and Kaylie and is like a big brother to them. He develops feelings for Colleen soon after he meets her and doesn't care that she is carrying Ashley's child.
Christian CC Coma
29 years old. He is the drummer of BVB. Hyper and always there to give free hugs, he sees Nikki as his little sister. Also he has a crush on Kaylie, even though he knows her feelings for Andy.
Colleen Branson
22 years. Has a one night stand and ends up pregnant with Ashley. Becomes one of Nikki's and Kaylie's best friends and has feelings for Chase, Nikki's ex boss.
Damon Thompson
33 when he died. He was the first man who won Nikki's heart and broke all her walls. He dies the night he went to sign his divorce papers after he proposed to Nikki.(I know he is Ian Somerhalder but just look at him!!! *faints*)
Duncan Bates
25 years. Nikki's other sex buddy. Football player and a complete gentleman. He cares for Nikki deeply even though neither of them wants a relationship.
Ella Cole
25 years. She is Jake's fiancee and becomes good friends with Nikki and Kaylie.
Jake Pitts
29 year old. He is the lead guitarist of BVB. Engaged with Ella Cole he becomes one of Nikki's best friend because of their never ending love for pizza.
Jinxx
28 years. Rhythmic guitarist for BVB. Always the quiet and the smart one, he cares for both, Nikki and Kaylie as a father.
Juliet Simms
27 years. Andy's girlfriend. Their relationship ends after he finds out that she is cheating on him.
Kaylie Dawson
20 years. She is Nikki's best friend. She is a wild one, just like Nikki. She has a major crush on Andy but she knows that he will never feel the same. She also likes CC a lot, despite her feelings for Andy.
Nikki Morgan
20 years old. She is the lead singer and the bassist for the Risen Demons. She is been doing music all her life and knows how to play a lot of instruments. She loves her friends to death and would do anything for them. She likes Ashley a lot but she is afraid that he might hurt her. Also, she has a weird relationship with Andy after he breaks up with Juliet.
Ryan Anderson
23 years. Nikki's ex. Plays drums in Risen Demons. He is like a brother to her now but he still has feelings for her. He is an arrogant guy with a cocky attitude most of the time because he is afraid to show his weaknesses.
Troy Bennett
21 years. He is Nikki's and Kaylie's best friend. He is also gay and not afraid to admit that. He is sweet and always there to listen others problems. He plays rhythmic guitar in Risen Demons.
Chapters
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1. We are the Fallen Angels!
Getting ready for the concert
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2. To heal your scars, I will give you everything I can
Time of their lives
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3. Spent years in liquid harmony
short chapter... I am on my phone :(
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4. Your lips have buried me
Nikki might be taking "the worst decision ever"
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5. You're by yourself with me tonight
Vodka, whisky and pretty much everything that has alcohol in it!
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6. I'm taking what you give to me, never want it to stop
Ashley teases Nikki to the point where she wants to kill him
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7. Your crimson touch is going nowhere
Secrets revealed
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8. All the same in love and war
Meeting Troy and Ryan
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9. She won't sit and beg
Nikki doesn't give a shit
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10. We are young and we are strong
Risen Demons are faced with the chance of a lifetime
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11. No sorrow left inside of me
A look at Nikki's past
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12. I've lost all faith in this blurring light
Ashley's plan
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13. She gives me head
Two words: MAJOR SMUT
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14. I am the chosen, wretched and divine
Tension, tension and more tension
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15. You got me on my knees
Meet Duncan Bates.
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16. In the midnight hour
More smut....Finally! :D
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17. Sink your teeth into forever
Marks
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18. This pain it visits almost nightly
Nikki is confused
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19. I wonder how to move on, from all I have inside
Thoughts and questions
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20. I'll give you almost anything
A desire that can't be denied
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21. One last stand before the gates of hell
Confrontation
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22. A deadly grip on lies
The audition
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23. They taught me youth and whisky
Hapiness and more confusion fueled by alcohol
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24. I've lost my fucking mind
Yep! Nikki lost her fucking mind!
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25. I think of it every time I touch you
Reckless decisions
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26. You know I'm unholy
Nikki's happy !!
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27. I sing with dark devotion
Mistakes
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28. When your back's against the wall
Lies
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29. Everytime I hear his hame
The truth
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30. We'll bleed along the sand
Old habits
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31. I don't owe you anything
*giggles*
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32. There are no stars in the sky
Start over
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33. After the tears have fallen down like rain
Road to fame
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34. Tear down the walls that will surround
Tour
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35. Hope born in a time that's broken
Risen Demons!! Risen Demons!!
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36. You live without direction
England, Ella ....and Juliet!
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37. Treat me cruel
Angry sex *giggles*
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38. I will walk through hell
Stubborness
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39.When darkness is all you'll see
Surprise!
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40. In death we're all believers
Cheaters
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41. With every sin I still wanna be holy
Smut!! Big one! :D
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42. Living in pain
Shame
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43. Everyday feels like a war
Fighting
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44. I can't fight for a life I've never known
Decisions
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45. Wake up, wake up, wake up my darling
Filler chapter
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46. From your cradle to the grave
Thoughts
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47. I'll become all your blasphemy
Giving in....
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48. You love your comfort
Guilt....
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49. Like birds whose wings are broken
Kids!
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50. I'm not afraid to die
Drama starts
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51. Am I what you want or who I had to be?
Shit is going down...
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52. I build these walls to watch them crumbling down
Bad emotions
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53. No one to wish us well
Rage
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54. We'll fall like angels if we lose what matters
Trying something new...
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55. I'm the one you love to hate
She's "fine"!
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56. Kill all abandoned hope
Insanity
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57. Death could hear my shame
Stupidity
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58. This razor cuts the pain right out
Memories
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59. A heartless feeling of pain and regret
Despair
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60. Sleeping tight in your insanity
Promises
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61. Feel the blade of a broken promise
That lyric says it all....
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62. When your life feels lost...
WARNING! Might be triggering!
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63. Goodbye agony
Warning! Might be triggering...
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64. Let's live another night
Hope
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65. Ready, to heal our battle scars
Choices
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66. We can leave it all behind
Stuff xD
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67. It's time to wash away the sins
More stuff xD
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68. Then I lost it all
Drama! Again...
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69. When I hear your cries
Despair
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70. We'll brave this storm
Colleen
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71. But they still have hope so...
Nikki's birthday part 1
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72. I pray for morning
Nikki's birthday part 2
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73. No more, waiting for a change
Reminder
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74. So here's my song I wrote in time
Feelings
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75. The best things in life come with a price
Kaylie's birthday
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76. Who can save me now?
Loss
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77. Can we make it through?...
Fear
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78. Living a life of misery
Pain
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79. In yearn for what's missing
Reckless
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80. A passion crime to take what's mine
Mine!
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81. You kissed the lips of evil
Complications
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82. Thoughts of the yesterday
Wrong
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83. I will always be there
This is such an emotional crap!
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84. Bring this moment back to life
Fights
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85. We're bound until the end
Understanding... MIGHT BE TRIGGERING!
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86. Our hearts bear crosses
Truce
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87. I'll wash my hands of yesterday
More emotional crap! Ugh!
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88. I said I love you as I left you
Take it easy, dammit!! xD
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89. I have watched you fall
oh yeah.... they're screwed! xD
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90. I got a license for love
SMUT! xD
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91. They can't stop us from our freedom
Filler chapter...
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92. Fear won't steal what burns in you
Christmas with Purdys
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93. I'll never let my fucking walls down
Andy's birthday
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94. Partners in crime will leave their mark
Ashley's birthday
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It's ON!
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95. A wedding of the damned
Title says it all, right? :D
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96. Take your hand in mine
Surprise!
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97. Even if I start to fall....
Birth
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98. Nothing left to defend
Coma
Okay I can't hold back anymore! I just finished chapter 33 and I have to say that me and my best friend (she is 6 years older than me but fuck) also everytime we see each other or text or call we both go "HEY BITCH" or "I LOVE YOU BITCH" or "BYE BITCH" it's fucking hilarious lol this is awesome and btw I can't help but say that there should be just a little something between Nikki and Jake like even if it's just a kiss.
7/11/18