My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Ashley's POV:

"We're losing her!"

My mind collapsed. I heard the doctor but I couldn't understand what he said. Nikki's pale face and her closed eyes were like a nightmare to me at that point. My knees grew weak and my vision blurried.

I clung onto Nikki's cold fingers as suddenly, I felt myself going down.

Nikki's POV: This was weird. I was dreaming probably. This is probably why I felt so good after giving birth. To twins!

I opened my eyes and I saw the sky above me.
Wait, what?! Where was I?!
I hastily stood up and I looked around me. I think I was in a country field. I could see a two floors wood house a little further away from me.
Everything was green. And sunny. And so peaceful that I immediately hated it.
I wasn't supposed to be here. Where were my kids?! Where was Ashley?! Was I in a coma again?!

"How do you manage to get yourself in these situations?" A voice from behind me said raspy.

Damon.

I turned around and I saw the frown he always had whenever he was in difficulty. My face softened and I looked at him.

"Let me guess. I am in a coma again, right?" I sighed as Damon came closer to me.

"Yeah. You managed to give birth to the twins but you lost too much blood. They have you on machines again." He almost whispered diving his hands in his pockets.

I frowned. I remembered giving birth but I didn't remember so muchp blood. But it was a risky pregnancy anyway. I guess I should have seen it coming.

Thank God the little monsters were okay.

"Why did you bring me here? It's so.... sunny..." I groaned, enjoying the fact that I was seeing Damon once again.

"That was my parent's old house. After we were supposed to marry I wanted to bring you here. But I died before that." He smiled sadly.

My eyes widened as I looked around me. Indeed we were in a field. It was a nice gettaway to be honest and my heart warmed at the thought that Damon wanted to bring me here. He just died and we didn't even get to say goodbye.

"Thank you. Maybe sometimes I really need all this green-sunny shit." He laughed at my rudeness just like he always did.

His gray eyes met mine and my heart ached. I loved this man so much. I was sad that I lost him but now my life went forward. I loved Ashley more than I loved Damon and I had a life with him. I had two beautiful kids with him. I had everything with him.

No matter how much I enjoyed seeing and being able to talk to Damon, this wasn't right. I wasn't supposed to be here. I was supposed to be in the hospital, dressed in a typical, ugly, dotted hospital gown with my husband near me and my kids in my arms. That was my life.

"How long I was in a coma, Damon?" I asked softly.

"A few hours. Not much." He answered reaching for me.

I opened my mouth to say something but my words were cut off by his cold lips. One of his hands tangled in my hair and the other one supported the my waist. I was shocked at first, until I felt the bitter taste of saying goodbye.

I could feel him pouring his emotions into the kiss and my eyes became watery. I wrapped my hands around his neck as I kissed him back, letting my tears flow freely. This was the last time I am ever going to see him. I don't know how but I felt it. Maybe he will move on. He will finally go to heaven where he belongs.

The pain in my chest was unbearable and I pulled away from him, staring into his eyes. Two rivers of tears were streaming his beautiful features as he watched me sadly. He crushed me against his chest and I hugged him back, starting to sob loudly.

"What is this? Why does it hurt so much?" I wept as he stroked my hair.

"Because you have to go back to your life and I have to stop wandering like a lost soul. You are okay now." I looked at him, clutching his shirt tightly as he wiped away my tears.

"You are a succesful singer like you always wanted. You have a husband that loves you more than life itself. And now you have two beautiful kids that I really hope won't have their mother's stubborness." He continued and I chuckled.

He smiled at the sound and kissed my forehead.

"Your life is complete, Nikki. Go there and live it."

"But what about you? Where will you go?" I asked calming down.

"I can't tell you that. But I will be fine. Remembe that I will always love you, Nicole Katherine Purdy. Goodbye, my love. I will miss you."

His last words were like a whisper as his body turned to nothing in my hands. I smiled bitterly, knowing that if I will ever see him again it will be after I die. But at least he will be okay. That was what mattered.

The colors around me started to fade as I felt myself becoming conscious again. I opened my eyes and I stared at the white ceilling.

"Your head is just as heavy as always." I mumbled looking at Ashley's head on my hand.

He jerked and looked at me wide eyed. He was pale as fuck and I noticed the needle connected to his arm.

"Nikki are you-"

"What happened to you?" I cut him off trying to pull myself up.

"oh this? I fainted after you lost consciousness." He smiled tiredly.

I sighed and I chuckled. He must've got really scared.

"Are you okay? Do you feel any pain? I thought I lost you again and I-"

"Ash, I am okay. Nothing hurts. I swear. Where are the babies?" I asked yawning.

"Right here."

My eyes widened as Kaylie and Andy entered the room. My best friend was holding my son and my ex lover was holding my daughter. They came near me as Ashley stood up carefully, a proud smile gracing his lips.

Kaylie grinned as Andy placed my daughter in my arms and again, I started to cry. But this time from happiness. Kaylie sat on my bed, giving me full view of my little boy. Ashley took him from her and grinned when he opened his eyes.

I looked at my family as I silently cried, thanking God for everything I had. A rush entered in the room as the rest of mine and Ashley's bandmates came inside, all smiling widely.

"This is the future of rock'n roll, man." CC squeaked happily.

"Definitely. I will reserve the right to teach them the importance of classical music though." Jinxx said.

"I will make them love pizza." Jake joined.

"And both of them will love Batman." Andy concluded.

Ryan and Troy burst into laughter looking at my expression. I was looking at them like they were crazy. Which they were but that didn't matter anymore.
Ashley burst into laughter as he kissed the top of my head, switching the twins.

"I never thought this day will come." Kaylie said patting my leg.

"Me neither, K. I am married, mother of twins and surrounded by idiots." I laughed as I gently shook my son.

"You love these idiots that surround you." Ryan muttered grinning.

"Yeah, stop insulting us and stop getting into a coma, bitch." Troy said theatrically.

"Ha! You can never be sure of either of those." Ashley replied.

I burst into laughter along with everybody. This was it. My life.

I smiled once again as I looked at all of them.

Happiness did exist after all....

Notes

So sorry guys for the huge delay. This is not the last chapter. I have planned another two chapters if anyone is still interested in this story.

I am sorry once again

*NIKKI*