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My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

97. Even if I start to fall....

Nikki's pov (four months later):
"Argh.... it's killing me!!!" I screamed as another contraction shook my body.

Ashley immediately stood up and ran to me, a sad expression on his face. I clutched my oversized belly as he knelt in front of me, gently squeezing my hand. He placed his head on me as he started to sing softly.

"Alone at last, we can sin and fight, and I've lost all faith in this blurring light...."

The little monsters immediately calmed down like everytime they hear their father's voice. I exhaled relieved once they stopped moving as Ashley gave me a soft smile.

"Works everytime..." he laughed.

"Yeah, I can tell who's the favorite parent already." I muttered annoyed.

"Well, you know how incredibly lovable I am." Ashley winked.

"I do." I answered kissing him.

He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me back hungrily.

The past four months were like hell. Pregnancy it's not something I wanna experience again. My moods were killing me, the contractions were terrible and not to mention that I was huge. Everyone was excited about my pregnancy but honestly I just wanted to get the monsters out.

Everything was going well with the babies despite the fact that I was told that I'm going to have a difficult pregnancy. Last month, we learned that I'm gonna have a boy and a girl. It was pretty awesome, considering that I wanted a boy and Ashley wanted a girl.

Things were going good with my band. The sales for our second album were even better than we expected. I couldn't wait to finally go back on tour next month.

"Stop it...." I breathed as I pulled away from Ashley.

"Why?" he whispered playing with my nipple through my shirt.

"You know why." I said pissed smacking his chest

. "Jesus, Nikki. How long will you keep smacking me?" he laughed standing up.

"Till I die. And after that."

"But it's annoying." "

"You love it."

"No, it pisses me off."

I sighed as I looked at my husband. It was like he was pregnant too. He couldn't just shut up and let me blabber about random stuff. He had to join me and piss me off even more. That's why I always wanted to smack him.

What was worse was the fact that my hormones were on fire. I wanted Ashley so badly that it drove me crazy. I wasn't allowed to have sex because of the pregnancy and that was probably the worst thing. Of course Ashley would always help me in other ways but I craved only a certain part of his body. The fact that he always sleeps naked next to me wasn't helping me either but I prayed to God that soon all it'll be over.

"Can you bring me some water?" I asked tired.

"Sure thing, Tiger."

I stared at his ass as he left, cursing once again. I started to feel a little weird but I just shrugged, thinking that it was just nausea. The sound of shattered glass rang in my ears as I heard Ashley swearing. I slowly got up from the couch and went to the kitchen to see Ashley cleaning the shards of the floor.

"Clumsy these days, babe?" I smirked mischeviously

"Sorry. The image of your oversized breasts distracted me." He smirked handing me another glass of water.

"Geez... You really have a boob obsession." I laughed.

He narrowed his eyebrows at me as he pinched my cheek and kissed me again. His phone started to ring and he pulled away sighing as he left to answer it.

I hungrily chugged my water and placed the glass on the counter as the weird feeling intensified. I took a step back to the living room as a wave of nausea hit me.

Suddenly, a wave of cold rushed from between my legs and I stared mortified at the puddle of water that was at my feet.

'This couldn't be happening!!! It was too soon!!!' I thought in panic. Pain shot through my belly as I grabbed the counter to sustain myself, breathing heavily.

"ASHLEY!!!!"

I heard him running as my insides were burning. His smile faded and he dropped his phone on the tiles as he rushed to me.

"What's wrong? Why are-"

"Get me to the hospital!!" I managed to say without chocking.

"But what-"

"My.fucking water just broke, you son of a bitch!!! Your damn kids want out!!" I screamed as he already picked me up.

Great. A pissed mood was slowly coming over me as my belly burned in pain. Ashley practically ran outside and placed me near the Ferrari. He took some towels and placed them on thr passenger seat while I looked at him incredulously, clutching my belly.

"What?! That's leather." He said simply.

"I'm gonna fucking set it on fire when I get back." I roared as I barely got inside.

"No. You promised me that this is my car now." He said calmly as he sped off to the hospital.

He was trying to distract me from the pain but I didn't care. All I wanted to do was kill him. It was his fault!! He got me pregnant!! I didn't do anything!!

"This all your fault!!!!" I screamed tears spilling from my eyes.

"No, it's not." He answered stepping on the acceleration.

"ARGH!!! IT IS!!! I HATE YOU! AND YOUR KIDS! AND YOUR GRANDMOTHER'S COOKIES!!!"

I was crazy. I wasn't thinking straight and I knew it but I couldn't stop. The pain I was feeling combined with the angry mood turned me into a maniac. Ashley held back a laugh and that's when I got even more pissed as he parked harshly in front of the hospital.

"WHY ARE YOU LAUGHING, YOU MOTHERFUCKER?!! IS IT FUNNY!?? I'M ON THE VERGE OF DYING BECAUSE OF YOU!!"

He picked me up again as I trashed against him. We entered the hospital and immediately all the eyes were on us.

""My wife's water just broke!" he yelled and a wheel chair was brought in an instant by a nurse.

"YOUR WIFE?!!! WHY ARE YOU SO ARROGANT?! YOU FUCKED HALF OF THE WOMEN IN THIS GODDAMN CITY!!!" I screamed as the pain got worse.

Something was wrong. I could feel it. This was too much. I was scared as fuck as the nurse explained to Ashley that I was in shock. People were looking weirdly at us as I kept screaming profanities at him. I didn't care.

"GET THEM OUT OF MEEE!!!" I roared again as my back touched the well known hospital bed.

"Someone give her some morphine!" My doctor yelled as I looked at Ashley.

"YOU! I'M NEVER GONNA HAVE SEX WITH YOU AGAIN!! I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!!!"

He looked at me scared as I felt a pinch in my arm and my lower side of the body being undressed. I calmed down and I saw a flash of red as I realized in horror that I was bleeding.

"Oh God. Nikki, I need you to push when I say three, okay?" the doctor Evans's shaky voice said. I just nodded as someone wanted to get Ashley out.

"NO!!! LET THE FUCKER STAY!!!"

"Nicole!!! You need to calm down and listen to me!"

I let out a deep breath as Ashley was allowed near me. I angrily grabbed his hand as the Evans started to count.

When I pushed I felt like my insides were ripped out. This was the worst pain I've ever felt. I was a little dizzy from all the morphine they gave me but I was still conscious. "Again!" I screamed my lungs out as I pushed once again and I felt like something fell.

A loud crying sound filled the room as I opened my eyes and looked at Ashley. The doctor breathed relieved as he handed a bloody tiny, crying thing to a nurse. My eyes filled with tears once again as I watched her smiling.

"Okay, Nikki. Your daughter is screaming just as loud as you. Let's hear your son too." The doctor said calmly and started to count again.

Just a little bit more... only a little bit. It was almost over. In a few minutes I will see my kids. My two little monsters. My babies....

I felt myself growing tired as I kept pushing. The pain was almost making me numb. The grip I had on Ashley's hand loosened as Evans urged me to continue. I was tired. Ashley was crying beside me, looking scared. I didn't know why but I couldn't say anything anymore.

Another crying filled the silencr and I almost chocked relieved. My hand fell from Ashley's hand as I got even more dizzy. I saw my son being carried away just as I heard another scream and blackness fell over me.

"We're losing her!!!!!"

Notes

I am soooooo sorry!!!! i lost all my inspiration and my life went crazy in the last four months.
I am okay now and I am back!!!
So if this story is still interesting.... it's back again!!!
I love every single one of you and thank you for reading it.
It means the world to me!!!

*NIKKI*

Comments

Okay I can't hold back anymore! I just finished chapter 33 and I have to say that me and my best friend (she is 6 years older than me but fuck) also everytime we see each other or text or call we both go "HEY BITCH" or "I LOVE YOU BITCH" or "BYE BITCH" it's fucking hilarious lol this is awesome and btw I can't help but say that there should be just a little something between Nikki and Jake like even if it's just a kiss.

more please!!!!

kaz_bvbarmy kaz_bvbarmy
6/5/17

Mooooooore! Pretty pretty please!

Lucifer Lucifer
5/19/17

I loved it! So much! Brilliant. If you ever have time to finish the last two chapters i'd love to read them. xx

bvb-army bvb-army
5/17/17

Awesome chapter, I personally love some of the things you had her say, my favorite being AND YOUR GRANDMOTHER'S COOKIES!!!"
Haha great chapter can't wait for your update^.*