My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Nikki's Pov (two months and a half later):


"I fucking hate it!" I screamed as I got in the car.

Today was the day when we will finally hear our baby's heart. The last two months were awful for me. For some reason I was growing really fast and my moods were killing me. I couldn't eat, I couldn't think, I couldn't do practically anything. This baby was killing me!

"Calm down. We are finally going to see what's killing you so badly." Ashley said calmly as he drove to the doctor's office.

"Your kid! Your fucking kid is killing me!" I yelled pissed.

Ashley just chuckled as he kept driving. I was almost fifteen weeks pregnant. The recordings for the Risen Demons's new record were almost finished but I still felt like hell. I worked my ass off on this album but the fact that I had an human being inside of me practically ruined my mood. I had two of Colleen's songs on this album and the rest were written by me and Ryan.

Troy and Kaylie wrote a few songs but John decided that there were going to be an EP, that we were going to release before Christmas. Things were going great for our band and I was extatic about it. I couldn't wait to go on tour in September. Till then I will already be a mom and we already talked to Ashley's grandparents to take care of our little monster.

"Purdy?" The nurse asked as we entered the hallway.

Ashley nodded, grinning like an idiot, pissing me off even more. We entered the doctor's office and he layed me flat on my back, placing all sorts of cold gels over my belly. I flinched and Ashley squeezed my hand as another cramp shook my body.

''So, dr Evans, what is it?'' Ashley asked impatiently.

Evans listened to the stethoscope placed on my belly a few seconds more. A wild grin spread across his face as I looked at him in pure fear. He suddenly connected the stethoscope to a system and smiled widely at us.

What I heard wasn't normal. It was a steady rhythm but it wasn't the only sound. I could also hear something else. Something that it was like a backing vocal to say at least. Ash and I looked confused at each other until Evans broke the silence.

"Mrs. Purdy... You are pregnant with twins."

My voice got caught in my throat as I tried to process what the doctor just said. Ashley squeezed my hand but I couldn't focus on anything else except the two heartbeats that I was hearing.

''Aaa... I'm.... I'm sorry... But... WHAT?!"

"What you are hearing right now are the heartbeats of your children. However, I am afraid that this pregnancy it is going to be a difficult one."

Ashley stood up and I tensed imediately.

"What do you mean?'' He asked cautiously.

"Her body is way to small. I am not sure if mrs. Purdy can get the pregnancy to an end." Evans said.

My head started racing.
Okay, I was pregnant!
Worse, I was pregnant with twins!
Ashley wanted a kid!
I was pregnant with two!
What if I couldn't hold the pregnancy?
Mom had twins before me and she lost them.
But she was 26.
I am 21!
ASHLEY, YOU SON OF A BITCH!!

"Is there any treatment?" I asked cautiously.

"It is, but we have no guarantee that you will be able to take the pregnancy to its end. You are-"

"I'll take it! Whatever it is!" I said shutting him.

Evans nodded and Ashley looked at me worried. I knew it was dangerous. BUt something clicked inside of me when I heard that I was pregnant with twins. Maybe... The other kid I lost was being inside of me. It was a silly thing but what if it was true?

Ashley led me out of the hospital as I held everything that Evans gave me. He suddenly turned around and looked at me carefully.

"Nikki-"

"NO! I will be fine! I am small! I'll just start eating like an elephant and I'll be fine!" I said stubbornly.

"Tiger, I don't wanna lose you! If this-"

"Ash, I will be okay. These devils inside of me clearly want to be fine so I will be too. I'm momma bear." I said smiling.

Ash chuckled and helped me into the car. I sighed, realizing what just happened. I was pregnant with two kids. Not one but two!!

What the fuck am I going to do!!!??

Notes

This chapter suck, okay!? I know it!

Just bear with me! I promise that I will edit it or at least make the next better!
Please, don't hate me!
I'm writing this on my way to Ibiza and honestly, I can't think about pregnancies at the time!
I swear it will be better, just forgive me for this crappy chapter!

I still love you ( hope you still love me too :x)

*NIKKI*