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My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

72. I pray for morning

Nikki's Pov:

I practically jumped from my seat and I saw knowing looks on my friends faces. They all smiled at me as I excused myself and headed to my car. I was a little tipsy but I risked and drove home anyway.

I got inside and Jack started to bark scaring the shit out of me. I really needed to get used to it. I I switched on the lights as I picked him up and ran in the kitchen. I opened all the damn cabinets, looking for his food, cursing Kaylie in the process.

When I finally found it, I took two bowls and filled one with water and one with food. Jack was excited as fuck and kept jumping like crazy. I placed the bowls on the floor and kissed his little head. I exited the kitchen and I ran upstairs to find my room... Empty!

I saw a black box on the bed and I opened it impatiently. My eyes widened at the sight of the most beautiful dress I've ever seen. It was pitch black with little stars all over it. Two notes fell from it and I quickly ripped them open.

"This is a special occasion. I hope you like it. Happy birthday! -Colleen."

She made this?! This was awesome! It was breath taking. I didn't know she had this kind of talent. I was still smiling widely as I looked at the other note.

"Get dressed quickly! Someone will pick you up at 20:00. I love you! -Ash."

I checked my clock and groaned in frustration. It was 19:43. I had less than 20 minutes to get ready! I quickly got rid of my clothes and I changed my underwear again. I stepped into the dress and I looked at myself in the mirror.

It was amazing. It was long sleeved and had no back, exposing my Phoenix tattoo completely. It was cropped from the half of my thigh down to my ankle, ending just a few inches further. It was shining with every move I made.

I pulled my hair up in a high ponytail and I redid my makeup. I checked the clock again as I took my heels and sighed relieved. It was 19:59 but I was ready.

I ran downstairs, managing not to stumble on something as I grabbed my purse and turned the lights off. I opened the door and I saw a white, small limousine in front of the house. I took a deep breath and I got inside as I was greeted by an old British man.

"Good evening, miss Morgan! And happy birthday!"

"Thank you, mister..."

"Williams. But you can call me Ben." He said and I was mesmerized by his accent.

"Can you tell me where we're going?" I asked smiling.

"Mister Purdy gave me specific instructions not to."

"I'll give you 100$!" I said smirking.

"He already gave me 1000$ just to keep my mouth shut." He laughed.

I crossed my arms and I pouted pissed. Damn you, Ashley!

"Pleeeease!" I begged.

"He also warned me about that pouty face of yours. I have two daughters around your age. I'm immune." He said smiling.

"I hate him!" I spat sadly.

"But you love him more. We're here!" He said and I saw in front of us the hotel where Ashley and I had the first date.

Ben handed me an envelope and smiled at me widely.

"I hope you have a wonderful night, miss Morgan. Happy birthday once again."

"Thank you, Ben." I said as I exited the limo.

I opened the envelope and I became pissed at this mouse and cat game.

"I bet you tried to bribe him but I know it didn't work. Get inside and tell the receptionist when we first met and she will give you your next clue. Love ya! -Ash"

I sighed and I tried to remember wen we first met. At the concert! When was the concert? I thought about for a good five minutes and then I remembered. I walked inside, straight to the receptionist as she gave me a wide smile.

"1st of February."

Her smile became even wider as she gave me another envelope. I thanked her and I opened it quickly.

"That was a tricky one. Of course you remember the day you met and kissed your idol. Now, go to the elevator and remember what floor we had when we were here the first time. Your clue will be in the lemon tree. -Ash."

I rolled my eyes at his modesty (or the lack of it) and I realized I had no idea what floor we had. I stepped inside the elevator and I looked at the buttons. I was sure that it was somewhere between the 25th and the 30th floor.

I pressed the 25 button and I tapped my foot until I reached the floor. No sign of a lemon tree. 26th floor, still no sign. 27th, no sign of it. When I reached the 28th floor I was already mad.

The doors opened and in front of me was a motherfucking lemon tree. I quickly took the envelope and ripped it open.

"I have the feeling that you had a hard time finding the floor. Now you have to find the room. You're almost done. Love you! -Ash."

Screw you, Ashley! Couldn't he just wish me happy birthday and fuck me the whole night like any normal man?! No, the fucker had to be inventive and make me lose my goddamn mind! I walked to the left, remembering somehow the way to the room.

Although, I wasn't paying any attention since Ashley was ravishing me that night. I remembered that we had our room at the end of the corridor. I walked fast and I saw an envelope on the door that was on the left side.

"This is the last one, I promise. I think I pissed you off enough for today. The security system near the door frame will open the door if you know the code. Here is your clue: You are my..."

Your what, you son of a bitch?! I angrily looked at the security system and I knew that it could be open with a card too. I was tempted to go back to the receptionist and ask her for the card but I knew that Ashley probably paid her not to give me anything.

I sighed as I started to introduce random words. Apparently, I wasn't his love, life, soul, girl or everything. I groaned in frustration when I heard my phone signaling that I had a text from Ashley.

"Five fucking letters, Nikki!"

Okay, five letters. I'm his... Heart! It's gotta be heart right? I introduced the word and that fucking red light lit again. I let out a deep breath and I started to think. Five letters, he must've told me this before, that's why he expected me to remember it. I was his...

My eyes widened as I typed TIGER and to my relief the green light blinked opening the door. I stepped inside and I was hit by the smell of roses. Candles were everywhere just as the rose petals that were sprawled all around the room but that's not what stopped my breath.

Ashley was wearing a tux and he was leaning against the desk with his hands in his pockets. An amused expression was on his beautiful face as he walked towards me.

"Took you a while, Tiger!" He said and kissed me.

I forgot about everything as I wrapped my arms around his neck and I pulled him closer. His hands caressed my bare back and I moaned into the kiss.

"Not yet, Nikki. I'm not done with the surprises yet." He said as we pulled away.

"I hate you!" I spat pouting.

"And I love you too." He laughed and led me out of the room.

We went to the hotel's restaurant and I remembered the first time when we were here. Ashley held my hand and smiled widely at me as a waiter led us to the back.

We were in a special area and what caught my attention was the piano that was placed a few feet away from our table. I looked at Ashley questioningly but he didn't say anything. Instead he walked me to the table and poured some red wine in the glasses.

"Red wine? Was I that bad?" I said surprised and he laughed.

"No, but I thought that this being a special occasion-"

"It's not that special! I just became older!" I said sipping the red liquid.

"I wasn't thinking about that." He said seriously and I widened my eyes at him.

He stood up and walked towards the piano. He sat on the chair and gave me a heartbreaking smile as his fingers touched the claps and he started to sing.

(The song is All of me by John Legend :)

"What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding,
I can't pin you down...
What's going on in that beautiful mind?
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind...."

I felt my eyes filling with tears as he winked at me and kept singing.

"Cause all of me
Loves all of you,
Love your curves and all your edges,
All your perfect imperfections.
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning....
Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh...

I was crying. I was biting my lip and I just couldn't stop the tears that kept falling from my eyes.

"How many times do I have to tell you?
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down,
I'm around through every mood.
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues.
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you ...
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind....
Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh
Give me all of you."

i I stood up and I shakily walked towards him. His fingers were still touching the claps, making pure magic. I stopped in front of the piano and I stared at the man who stole my heart.

"Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard..."

I took a deep breath and I started to sing with him.

"Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you
I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh...."

I blinked back the tears as he stood up and circled the piano. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head.

"I love you, Nikki." He whispered and I just looked at him.

"Stop being romantic and get me out of here." I said and I didn't wait for an answer.

I crashed my lips against his and he kissed me back. I didn't care about anything right now. I just wanted to be with him. I dragged him out of the restaurant and I heard him chuckle when we reached the elevator.

"You didn't even eat!" He pouted.

"I don't wanna eat." I said wiping my tears.

My legs were shaking and he felt it. He picked me up bridal style and carried me to our room. Once we got inside, he set me back on my feet and our lips met again.

I started to undress him as he was ravishing me. I ripped the buttons of his shirt impatiently as he slowly slid the dress over my shoulders. I ran my hands all over his bare chest, kissing hungrily the sweet spot on his neck, enjoying the way his moans filled the silence.

"Nikki, I got ask you something." He breathed, unclasping my bra.

"It can wait." I whispered undoing his belt.

"No, it can't." He said and grabbed my shoulders.

I looked at him pissed as he led me to the bed. I sat on the edge as he knelt in front of me. He reached for his back pocket and pulled out a purple velvet box. My breath stopped as he opened it and took my left hand in his.

"Nikki, will you marry me?"

I was petrified. My mind was screaming yes but I couldn't form words. I just nodded and he smiled placing the ring on my finger. He wiped away my tears and pecked my lips while I was still too amazed to speak.

"Happy birthday, bitch!" He chuckled.

"I fucking hate you!" I snapped and he laughed.

"Show me how much you hate me." He said and pushed me on the bed, climbing on top of me.

My hands found their way to his belt and I managed to get him naked in seconds. I rolled on top of him and I rubbed myself against his hardened length, making him moan. His hands got rid of my underwear and we're now, running up and down my sides. I bit down his collarbone in a failed attempt to be mad. But I couldn't.

He switched our positions and looked at me lovingly. He took a few strands of hair out of my face and kissed me gently.

"I love you, tiger!" He whispered.

"I love you too."

He buried his face in the crook of my neck and he spread my legs. His thumb played with my clit before his hands gripped my hips roughly. My fingers found their way to his hair as our lips crashed again as he forcefully shoved himself inside of me.

My back arched and I thanked God that he wasn't teasing me. His thursts were more violently than before and I felt like I was being marked. I didn't care. I wanted it. I wanted to be only his.

My back was arched and my toes were curled as I gladly embraced all the pleasure he was giving me. All the thoughts disappeared from my head as my nails were digging in his back, probably drawing blood. His left hand cupped my breast and he stroked it roughly, still slamming himself inside of me. I couldn't help it and I bit his shoulder hard, tasting blood and enjoying the way his moan was at the border between pain and pleasure.

I loved him. I loved him with everything I had. I didn't care about anything. All the shit we've been through was unimportant right now. We were finally good and I swore to myself that no matter what the future brings, I will hold on to him. Till the end, till my last breath will be gone.

I felt a familiar sensation in my lower stomach just at as his length twitched. He screamed my name, riding out his orgasm as I followed him in seconds. He collapsed on top of me breathing hard and shaking. I caressed his hair, like I always do as my legs were trembling like crazy.

"Did I mention that I love you?" He asked a few minutes later, holding me in his arms.

"Not really." I said smirking.

"Well, I love you, Nicole Katherine Purdy. Damn, it sounds good!" He said excited.

"Morgan is such a better name." I answered grinning.

"Enjoy it while you still have time." He whispered deviously."Can you believe that I can't wait to marry you? Me?! Ashley Fucking Purdy!"

"I have that effect on people!" I said proudly, quoting Ronnie.

"I hope I'm the only one."

"You are. By the way, did you know that we were invited to Warped?" I said looking at him seriously.

"Who do I have to kill? Ronnie or Troy?" He answered sighing.

"Ronnie. And I'll take that as a yes. Why didn't you tell me, you son of a bitch?!" I spat smacking his chest.

"Ow! I wanted to tell you but not now. And stop smacking me! It hurts you know?"

"Oh, so you're not complaining about the fact that your back and your shoulder is bleeding? You're complaining about me smacking you?" I asked incredulously.

"Shut up! You're not complaining either when you wake up sore as fuck, covered in bruises! You're complaining about me being romantic!"

"It doesn't suits you! Don't do it again!" I screamed pissed.

"I will do it whenever the fuck I want! Look what it leads to!" He spat pointing at our naked bodies.

"I will smack you! I don't care how good is the sex! I will smack you every time I'll see a damn rose near me!"

"No! You're my wife and I forbid you to do that!"

I stared at him amazed and I blinked a few times. He was biting his lip, trying not to laugh as I kept thinking at how much I loved to hear him saying that. Not the 'I forbid you' part but the 'you're my wife' part.

"I'm not your wife!" I said snapping out of my daze and smacked him again.

"Ow! But you will be! And I swear to God I'll handcuff you if you smack me again!"

"You don't have any handcuffs!"

"That's not the point, Nikki!"

"Just shut the fuck up and kiss me!" I spat and he complied.

He chuckled and kissed my lips lightly. I felt the change in his mood and I looked at him worried.

"What's wrong?"

"How are we gonna deal with Colleen and..."

"Ashley, it's gonna be fine. I know it. I love you and I know you love me. We're gonna be okay." I said caressing his cheek.

"How can you be so sure? I mean, I felt like shit when I found out about your miscarriage." He asked sadly.

"Well, I felt like shit too. But she is a nice girl. I really like her. And you need to learn to deal with the consequences of your actions." I said seriously.

"But what if-"

"Hey, you trust her don't you? I mean you talked to her about the dress. You knew about it."

"I did. She asked if you wear dresses and I told her that you do. She said that she made one and she was wondering if she should sent it to you as a birthday gift. I didn't know she had that much talent." He said thoughtfully.

"See? She's a nice girl. She is not a manipulative psycho that only wants fame and money." I answered reassuringly.

"I just hope that everything won't fall apart again between us." He whispered.

"It won't. Not anymore." I said surely and I kissed him hard.

He kissed me back and smiled at me lovingly. We started round two as one thought kept racing in my head:

I'm gonna get married!!!

Notes

Well I think I kept the violence at a minimum and I filled the chapter with crappy romantic moments!

tell me whatcha think....

Love yaaa

Comments

Okay I can't hold back anymore! I just finished chapter 33 and I have to say that me and my best friend (she is 6 years older than me but fuck) also everytime we see each other or text or call we both go "HEY BITCH" or "I LOVE YOU BITCH" or "BYE BITCH" it's fucking hilarious lol this is awesome and btw I can't help but say that there should be just a little something between Nikki and Jake like even if it's just a kiss.

more please!!!!

kaz_bvbarmy kaz_bvbarmy
6/5/17

Mooooooore! Pretty pretty please!

Lucifer Lucifer
5/19/17

I loved it! So much! Brilliant. If you ever have time to finish the last two chapters i'd love to read them. xx

bvb-army bvb-army
5/17/17

Awesome chapter, I personally love some of the things you had her say, my favorite being AND YOUR GRANDMOTHER'S COOKIES!!!"
Haha great chapter can't wait for your update^.*