My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Nikki's Pov (two days later):

"Happy birthday!!!!" They all screamed and I groaned.

"It's my fucking birthday! Couldn't you let me sleep longer?" I spat as everyone jumped on my bed.

I was tackled from everywhere by Andy, Jinxx, Kaylie, Ryan, Troy, Jake, Ella and CC. They all kissed me and hugged me and I just wanted to kill them all.

"It's noon, Nikki!" Ella said hugging me.

"I don't care!" I said as I hugged her back.

I noticed that Ashley was missing and I gave them a questioning look.

"Where's Ashley?"

"He's out." Andy said simply.

"Oh..."

I found that odd. I thought that he will be the first to wish me happy birthday. But knowing Ashley, he must've planned something.

"C'mon sunshine! Today is gonna be the best day of your life!" Ryan said happily.

"I have eight fucking persons in my bed, Ryan! This day is gonna suck!" I answered and I fell from my bed, making everyone laugh.

"You see my point?!" I spat pissed as I stood up.

"Shut up, bitch! Get downstairs to open your presents and stop complaining." Kaylie said sassy.

"Jesus..." I groaned and I walked to the bathroom.

"He's not gonna help you!" I heard Jake yelling after me.

I took a shower and I wondered where was Ashley. I wasn't excited for this day. I just felt like it was an ordinary day. Maybe because of the images of Colleen that were still vividly in my mind. Maybe because I still felt betrayed by Ashley. I sighed and I exited the shower, hoping that the son of a bitch will make me feel better.

I got dressed in a pair of red jeans, an All Time Low t-shirt and my leather jacket. I quickly slid in my cowboy boots and I straightened my hair. I applied some eyeliner and some lipgloss just as my phone rang. I was still pissed and I didn't check the caller id.

"What?!"

"I'm sorry, is it a bad time?" Colleen said worried.

"Oh, hi Colleen. No, I'm just... Not a morning person..." I answered surprised.

"It's noon, Nikki."

"I just woke up, it's still morning for me." I said sighing, tired of people telling me that.

"I just called to wish you a happy birthday!" She said happily and I smiled.

"Thank you, Colleen! I really appreciate it."

"My present will arrive tonight. I hope you will like it. It's... For a special occasion."

"You shouldn't have bothered." I said confused.

"It wasn't bothering. It's just my way to say thank you for your kindness." She answered quietly.

"Well, thank you then. And you don't have to thank me for anything."

"Okay, I'll leave you now. Have fun and happy birthday once again!"

"Okay, thanks!"

She hung up and I stared at my phone like it was some sort of alien. Colleen's call surprised me but gave me a warm feeling. I knew I was right about her. I couldn't hate her like I wanted to. I couldn't blame her for being pregnant with the man I love. She was a victim like I was. I was sure that she wasn't in love with Ashley, she just wanted his support. I sighed once again and I went downstairs as I met eight pairs of excited eyes.

"I'm the first!" Ella yelled and handed me a silver package.

"Ella, you shouldn't-"

"I don't care! I wanted to. Shut up and open it!" She said jumping.

I ripped the package and I found a white box. Once I opened it my breath stopped. Inside it was a star necklace with my name in the middle. It was written in an elegant hand writing and the edges were smokey.

"Oh my God, Ella, I love it!" I said hugging her tight.

"I'm glad you like it. I knew you had an obsession with stars and I thought that this would be perfect."

"It is! Thank you so much!" I said happily as I placed the necklace around my neck.

"My turn!" CC shouted.

He handed me an envelope and he kissed my forehead. I opened the envelope and I screamed my lungs out!

"You got me tickets to see Metallica?!!"

"Yeah, I did!" He screamed back.

"I love you! I fucking love you! I just... I ....ugh!! Just hug me!!!"

I hugged the living shit out of him while I was grinning like an idiot.

"Nikki! Let him breathe! His eyes are already popping out of their sockets!" Jinxx said laughing.

"I'm okay!" CC answered choking.

I let go of him and I kissed both of his cheeks while he smiled at me widely. Jinxx took my hand and spun me around. He pulled me against his chest and kissed the top of my head. He gave me a wink and handed me a CD wrapped in a black package. My fingers were trembling as I read what was written on the CD:

"Happy birthday, Nikki! I hope I will get the chance to meet you in person! I wish you the best! Lindsey Stirling."

"My-my favorite..." I couldn't speak as I felt tears burning my eyes.

I've always admired Lindsey. I loved her since the first time I saw her on America's got talent. And Jinxx just gave me... This, and...

"I can't talk right now!" I said and he laughed.

"I love you, Nikki!" He said hugging me again.

"I love you too, Daddy Jinxx!" I answered clinging to his shirt.

This day was getting better and better. I was an emotional mess when I was wrapped in another pair of arms.

"You look like a whiny baby when you're crying, you know?"

"Shut up, Troy!" I spat but I hugged him too.

He chuckled and gave me a black package. I opened it and inside it was an album. A photograph album. The cover was our album cover and the pages were elegantly cropped. Photos from our childhood, from high school, from our first performance at Paul's bar, from our audition, our first concert live, everything was in this album.

Tears were rolling on my cheeks as everyone gathered around me as I was staring at a picture with us when we were 13. Sometimes, i really missed my old self. I guess all the hate I used to feel towards my parents and Damon really poisoned my life.

"Who's the blonde girl?" CC asked.

"That's Nikki." Ryan answered, squeezing my shoulder.

"Whoa... That explains a lot." He laughed and I looked at him confused.

"It was too weird that Ashley went for a black head." Jinxx explained and I laughed too.

I hugged Troy as I saw that his eyes were a little watery too.

"We really have been through every shit together." He said and I nodded.

"Always have, always will." I said and he hugged me once again.

"Why are the last pages empty?" I asked wiping my tears.

"Because our story is not over yet." He answered smiling.

"Okay, you're crying too much. Get outside." Ryan yelled picking me up and throwing me over his shoulder.

"Why the fuck are you telling me that if you're carrying me?" I spat and he laughed.

He set me back of my feet and spun me around. Andy caught me when my knees gave in at the sight I saw in my backyard.

"Is this..." I mumbled looking from an amused Andy to a grinning Ryan.

"An 1965 Harley Davidson. I know you always wanted a bike." Ryan answered.

I got out of Andy's hold and I walked towards that sacred monster. It was breath taking. It looked purely perfect. It was black and silver and I saw my name on the left side.

"But this is ... It's more than 100000 $ (I'm not sure about that so bear with me) Are you out of your mind?" I screamed as I jumped in his arms.

"And I'm a rich motherfucker. Did you forget that?" He said spinning me around.

"Thank you, thank you, thank you! I promise I'll never hit you again!" I said truthfully and everyone laughed.

"What about me?!" Troy pouted.

"And the rest of us, for that matter?" Jake joined.

"Uhm... Okay, I'll stop hitting everyone for a week." I said and they laughed once again.

"At least you got something." Andy commented.

Kaylie walked towards me, holding a big box. She placed it on the ground, in front of me and it moved. I looked at it scared while she chuckled.

"C'mon, open it." She said laughing.

"But it's moving!" I spat as I grabbed Ryan's arm.

"Fine, I'll do it." She sighed.

And she did. I fell on my knees as a grey and white ball of fur with blue eyes came running to me.

"It's a motherfucking husky!" I screamed as the dog started to bark and jump around me.

"Well, I knew you wanted one but you never got the guts to buy it."

"Oh my God, Kaylie! You're the best bitch in the world!" I said hugging her.

"Please... I know!" She answered proudly.

"How are you gonna name him?" Andy asked smiling.

"Hmmm... Jack!"

"So predictable! Even the fucking dog has the name of the whiskey." CC laughed.

"You should've seen it coming, Mora." Jake said.

"C'mon, Jack. Let's get inside." I said and I ran in the house followed by everyone.

Jack ran straight behind the couch on a small dogs bed. I smiled, knowing that Kaylie probably thought about everything.

"And now..." Jake began and held my hands. "This is very special for me. But I love you and that's why I want you to have it." He said and kissed my forehead.

He led me to the basement and I looked at him confused. Once he opened the door, I lost my breath. There, laying on my piano, was his guitar. The guitar he played on in Heart Of Fire and Goodbye Agony and in every show of the tour.

"Jake, I can't-"

"It's yours. A special gift for a special person. And you're my one and only pizza buddy!" He whispered as he hugged me.

"Thank you, Jake. It really means a lot to me." I said blinking back my tears.

"I love you, Nikki-pooh."

"I love you too, Jakey-pooh." I chuckled and we headed back upstairs.

Everyone was grinning and in that moment I was afraid. Andy was nuts and I knew it. I was sure that the motherfucker had something in his mind when he walked towards me with a huge smirk on his face.

"Now, we should get going." He said throwing an arm around my shoulder.

"Going where?" I asked scared looking at Kaylie.

"You'll see. My present is at Paul's bar." He answered and Kaylie gave me the evil grin.

We walked outside and I got in my car scared shitless. Ryan got in front and Ella and Jake were on the backseats. The rest of the guys were in the Corvette and I chuckled, knowing how uncomfortable they were right now.

"Care to tell me what is he talking about?" I asked as I drove to Paul's bar.

"Nope!" They all said and I sighed.

The road was silent and my head was pounding. I was nervous as fuck and I wished that Ashley would be here. At least, I knew how to get him to talk.

As soon as I parked my car, I saw Duncan outside. Behind him was Brad grinning like an idiot. Chase looked at me as I got out and chuckled at my startled expression.

"Happy birthday!" They screamed and hugged me at the same time.

"Jesus..."

"He's still not gonna help you." Jake laughed.

I glared at him as the three of them gave me three small presents. Duncan got me a star bracelet and I smiled widely knowing that it matched perfectly the necklace I got from Ella.

Brad gave me a black necklace with a shining cross. I was surprised that he was here but I smiled at the thought that he came all the way from Ohio just to wish me happy birthday. He was a great guy and I was glad that I kept him as a friend.

Chase smiled as I opened his present. It was a contract. He gave me half of the salon!! I was a co-owner! I looked at him dumfounded and he explained that he's not going to be in the business for to long and I was the only person he trusted with his salon. I hugged him, being honored by his trust as we entered inside.

Paul screamed when he saw me and hugged me. Or broke my bones actually. He gave me a black t-shirt that had 'I'm the number one bitch' written on it and I couldn't help but laugh. He was right, what can I say?

"Are you ready?" Andy asked from behind me.

"No!" I said looking at him.

"Oh, c'mon! Close your eyes. I promise you will love it." He answered reassuringly and I believed him.

I sighed and I closed my eyes. He placed his cold hands over them and everything went silent. I counted to 10 in my head and then I heard it.

"I heard a knock upon my door the other day..."

Andy's hands disappeared and my eyes snapped open. On the stage I practically grew up, was no other than Ronnie motherfucking Radke!

I looked at Andy who gave me a huge grin and I wrapped my arms around his neck. I heard him chuckle through the music and I turned my attention back to Ronnie.

He smiled widely and extended his hand to me. I felt my cheeks burning like crazy as I took his hand and climbed on stage. He gave me a mic and I somehow managed to sing without fangirling.

"I've lost myself, you try to reach me but you just can't help me..." He sung and I smiled.

"So long, goodbye, you try to save me, it won't work this time..." I followed and then we started to sing together.

"Cause now, I've lost my fucking mind
And there's no fucking time...
I can't believe I'm actually meant to be...
Here, trying to consume
The drug in me is you...
And I'm so high on misery
Can't you see?...."

The song ended and I was tackled by Ronnie. I congratulated myself for not screaming as I hugged him back.

"Happy birthday, Nikki! It's good to finally meet ya!" He said happily as we got off of the stage.

Everyone was clapping their hands and smiling at us as I was grinning like an idiot.

"Thanks, and yeah... I'm a little star struck right now... Don't mind me.." I said laughing.

"I have that effect on people." He said cocky.

"Your modesty kills me." I laughed and Andy joined us.

"So, whatcha think?" He asked proudly.

"I fucking love you!" I screamed as I hugged him again.

"I fucking love you too!" He laughed.

I let go of him and I asked for a whiskey glass. My head was spinning like crazy and I needed something to stop that.

"So Ronnie, where are the rest of the guys?" I asked as I downed the third glass.

"They couldn't be here. But no worries, you'll meet them at Warped."

"What?!" I screamed chocking.

I heard everyone slapping their foreheads and cursing Ronnie. He had a guilty look on his face and looked at me scared when he saw my expression.

"Dammit, man! I didn't tell her yet." Andy spat.

"Tell me what?!" I screamed and he sighed.

"Risen Demons were invited to perform at Warped in one month."

I downed another glass of whiskey and I looked at everyone. My eyes landed in Kaylie and I remembered how much we wanted to play at Warped. She was looking at me with tears in her eyes and I felt my own threatening to fall.

"We're going to Warped?" I whispered.

"Yep!" Ronnie said happy.

"Oh my fucking God! We're going to Warped!" I screamed like a mad woman.

I jumped out of my seat and I started to hug the living shit out of everyone. I sang with Ronnie a few more songs and I couldn't believe how quickly we got along. Andy really had me with this one.

He and Kaylie smiled at me widely while everyone was laughing at the dumbest girl they ever know. I was far beyond happy and I kept having fun until three hours later and when I got a text.

"You had your fun. Come home. Your birthday is not over yet. -Ash."

Notes

Finally! A free weekend! I'm tired as fuck but I pro I'll update at least three chapters this weekend!

love yaaa