My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Nikki's Pov (the next day):

"Will you please sit down? I'm starting to get dizzy." I said as Ashley kept walking back and forth through the parlor.

We flew back to Seattle this morning and somehow, we managed to avoid all the press. I talked to Colleen last night since Ashley was in shock and I told her we will meet her at the hospital. Ashley was going to take the DNA test. She was surprised that she talked to me but didn't mention it. She seemed like a nice girl, I could tell.

"I can't! What the hell am I supposed to tell her!? I didn't even remember her name!" Ashley said.

"Hey, it's gonna be fine!" I answered and I stood up. I placed my hands on his shoulders and I kissed him reassuringly.

He sighed and wrapped his arms around my waist, kissing me back.

"I can't believe you're so calm." He whispered when we pulled away.

"Well, someone has to be."

The door opened and a tall blonde walked in, followed by a doctor. She was wearing black skinny jeans, a large Asking Alexandria t-shirt, a leather jacket and black converses. Her blue eyes seemed tired as she walked awkwardly towards us. I was surprised.

She didn't seem like the fake breasted blonde sluts Ashley used to fuck. Her hair color was actually natural, just like my blonde hair, maybe a little darker shade. She wasn't slutty at all, in fact, her style was pretty similar to mine.

"Hi." She said shyly.

"Hi!" I said and I elbowed Ashley who was staring at her.

"Hi, Coleen!" He reluctantly said.

"So, since you're all here..." The doctor began."I'm doctor Connor. We already have the baby's DNA. Mister Purdy, I will collect some blood from you and in a week I will be able to tell if you're going to be a father or not."

"O-okay." Ashley said and looked at me before the doctor led him to a room.

Colleen and I sat down in the chairs and an awkward silence fell over us.

"I'm sorry I told the press. But I didn't know what else to do. I can't raise a kid by myself." She said looking at her hands.

"Are you sure it's his child?"

"Yeah. I was drunk that night and just got into a fight with my boyfriend. I went out and the next thing I remember is that he walked me to the bus."

"And?" I motioned for her to continue.

"I knew it was Ashley's baby because I didn't sleep with someone other than my boyfriend. And with him, we always used a condom. That's why he dumped me when he found out. I tried to tell him that it was his but he didn't believe me." She said sadly.

"I'm sorry."

"No, I'm the one who's sorry here. I thought about abortion or adoption but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. The feeling of something growing inside of you is just..."

"Amazing." I said knowing how I felt after the miscarriage.

"Yeah."

"How far are you?"

"Six weeks."

"Listen, Colleen. I'm not saying that you're lying, but once we will be sure that Ashley is the father, I want you to move to San Francisco with me." I said and my own words surprised me.

"What?! Why?!" She asked amazed.

"Because I wanna help you with everything you need."

"Why would you do that?!!"

"Because I love him. I lost him too many times. If he's the father, then you're carrying a part of him. I don't give a shit if he doesn't want a child. I won't let him walk away from it. I'll deal with everything that comes with him... " I said truthfully.

"Holy shit!! You mean Nikkley it's real?!" She asked happily.

"Yeah, it is!" I laughed.

"Oh my God! I knew it! When you said that the picture he posted on Twitter was fake I knew you were lying. You looked like you were telling the world you're gonna die!" She said fangirling.

"Am I that bad at acting?" I asked hurt.

"You're not bad. No offense, but you kinda suck!" She said truthfully and I couldn't help but laugh.

I just got owned! It was easy to talk to her. She wasn't some psycho or a crazy person. She wasn't afraid to say what she was thinking and I liked that about her. I guess I hoped she would be a bitch so that I won't have to pretend that I like her. But she wasn't. She was actually pretty nice.

"What did your parents say about this?" I asked and she looked away. I knew I hit a soft spot and I became worried.

"Colleen? Are you okay?" I said placing a hand over her shoulder.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I just-"

The tears started to roll on her cheeks and I pulled her in my arms as a sob erupted from her chest. Was she abused? Her parents abused her like my dad abused me?

"Colleen, what's wrong?" I asked looking at her.

"I can't talk about it." She choked.

"Are you abused by your parents?" I asked worried.

She said nothing and looked away again. I took that as a yes and I wrapped my arms again around her. I sighed knowing what she was going through.

"You know, my dad abused me for 6 years. I kinda know the feeling." I whispered and she looked at me shocked.

"But you seem so... Sane! You did something with your life! You seem like you had a perfect life! I feel like I'm losing my mind everyday!" She whispered.

"Colleen... My life was hell! I don't even know how I'm alive. I just struggled to get through it. I had my ups and downs. I wanted to kill myself so many times... But someone always saved me. Tell me. It always helps to let it out."I said and I felt tears burning my eyes.

"My dad died when I was 9. My mom got married again when I was 13 and that's when it started. Her new husband... Liked me... In a wrong way..." She said and looked down the whole time, probably ashamed of herself.

"He raped me when I was 14. He told me that if I will tell someone he will kill me and my mom. I was too scared and I kept my mouth shut. My mom was too in love with him to notice that my body was covered in bruises. He was very violent. I tried to run away but he found me. I tried to kill myself but I was too weak. He raped me every day until I turned 18. That's when I moved in with Chad." She said crying uncontrollably.

"What happened next?" I asked softly as my own tears rolled on my cheeks.

"Nothing. I got a job as a waitress, Chad was a plumber. Everything was fine until I got pregnant. Chad kicked me out and I live with my aunt until my cousin returns from college. I can't go back home."

My heart broke in my chest. Compared to hers, my life was heaven. I was never raped. And sometimes I really wished that my dad would ignore me like her mother. But he never did that. He always noticed every single mistake I did. And he always punished me for it. But he never raped me. He never thought about me like that.

"Colleen, I'm so sorry!" I said and I hugged her.

She clung to my arm as her tears broke my heart. How could someone do something like that?! How could someone be so cruel?!

"Why don't you turn him in?" I said and she looked at me scared.

"I can't! He will hurt my mom!"

"She never asked you why you left?"

"No. I actually think that she was happy I left." She said sadly.

"How long can you stay at your aunt's house?"

"A month or so..."

"Listen to me. If you're not pregnant with Ashley, I will still try to help you. Maybe I can talk to someone to give you a job and I'll try to find a cheap apartment for you. If you are pregnant with Ashley, you're moving in my house immediately, you heard me?!" I said seriously.

I couldn't leave her like like this. The poor girl was abused with cruelty. She just lost everything because of a mistake she didn't even realized she made. No, everyone deserves a second chance. She deserves hers. I can't let her alone. Even if she was lying about the pregnancy, she wasn't lying about her past. I was in the same position, I knew the feeling and I knew she wasn't acting.

"No, Nikki. I really appreciate your kindness but I can't do that!" She said wiping away her tears.

"It wasn't a question, Colleen."

"Why would you do that?! No one ever gave a shit about me except Chad who dumped me as soon as he got the chance! Why would you care about me?! You don't even know me!" She yelled.

"I told you. I was abused too. I don't like to see someone like that. And you might carry the child of the man I love. I'm willing to do whatever it takes." I said softly.

She sighed and looked at me with shock and a little bit of hope in her blue, watery eyes.

"I'm not talking bullshit here. I mean it!" I said and I grabbed her hand.

"I'm not lying about the pregnancy. It's his child." She whispered not looking at me.

Ashley walked out of the room, holding a tissue over his arm. He looked at us worried and I just shrugged and motioned for him to keep his mouth shut.

"I will tell you the result in a week." The doctor said and we all nodded.

We got out of the hospital and I held Colleen's arm. Ashley kept looking at us but didn't say anything.

"I'll call you in a week, okay?" I said as we led her to the cab.

"Okay."

I hugged her tight and to my surprise, she hugged me back. She looked at me thankfully as she got in the cab and threw a weak smile in Ashley's direction as she left.

"Care to tell me what the hell happened?" Ashley said as soon as the cab disappeared from our view.

"She was abused by her step dad. Not like I was. She was raped." I said and he looked at me shocked.

"What did you tell her?"

"I told her that I'm gonna help her no matter what. I just can't leave her like this. Her boyfriend kicked her out when he found out about the pregnancy and she can't go home." I said as we walked to another cab.

"But maybe she lied to you! Just like she's lying about the pregnancy!" Ashley said pissed.

I looked at him sadly. He was in denial. I already knew the truth. Colleen wasn't lying. She really was pregnant with Ashley. I no longer hoped that she was a lying bitch because she wasn't. She was going to have a child with the man I love. That broke my heart and filled me with doubt and fear.

"She's not lying, Ash... I'm sure of it." I said as we got in the cab.

He said nothing as I looked at the radio. 23 July. Wow! My birthday was in two days.

'What a wonderful birthday I'm gonna have!' I thought bitterly to myself.

Notes

Guys, I'm really sorry! The work is killing me!!! I'll try to update as often as I can but I can't make any promises!

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