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My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

7. Your crimson touch is going nowhere

Ashley's POV

I walked out of her room, probably grinning like an idiot. This Nikki girl... Well, she was something. I didn't even know why was I attracted to her. She wasn't one of the blonde chicks that I usually go for. But it was something about her. Maybe it was her sassy behaviour, or the way her eyes brightened when she was pissed. Or maybe the fact that she was so vulnerable under that shell she built around her.

I really had no intention to break her heart. I saw a female version of myself in her. I didn't know anything about her but I could tell that she dealt with enough shit. That's why I didn't actually have sex with her. She was still suspicious about me. But I gotta say... Man, when I heard her moans, all I wanted to do was burry myself inside her. I wanted to fuck her so bad that she wouldn't be able to sit or walk for a week. I wanted to make her scream my name so loud that the whole street would've heard her.

But somehow I managed to control myself. I didn't know why was I trying so hard. I mean, she is just another chick. But she caught my attention in a way or another. I knew for sure that I pissed her off. I think she wants to kill me right now. I smiled to myself. This girl wasn't just another chick. She had a fire. She was different.

"What took you so long?" Andy asked me angry.

'What the fuck was up with him these days?!' I thought to myself.

"I was at the bathroom, man." I answered as I poured myself another whisky.

"Where's Nikki?" Jake asked .

"Didn't she say that she went to get changed?" I answered casually.

Just then, Kaylie cam with a few t-shirts and some shorts. She handed us a pair of shorts and a shirt.

"Thought you would be more comfortable in these clothes" she said shyly.

CC smiled at her. He had a thing for her. I knew that look. I was pretty happy. Kaylie really seemed like a nice girl. If CC' s weirdness won't scare her, they would be perfect for each other.

A door opened and then was followed by a slam.

'Here she goes' I thought to myself smirking as I downed my glass.

Back to Nikki's POV

That son of a bitch! Fucking bastard! First, he tries to bed me and when he finally has me where he wanted, he leaves me undone?! I'll make the fucking idiot pay for that. He really doesn't have any idea who's he messing with. I quickly changed and got out of my room slamming the door shut.

I walked downstairs and poured myself a vodka ignoring everyone as I downed the glass in one gulp.

"Whoa... Why are you so pissed?" Jinxx asked sipping from his glass.

"I'm not. I'm just hungry" I lied, glaring at Ashley who just smirked.

"Pizza time?" Jake asked happily.

"Indeed my friend" I said in a fake British accent which made everyone laugh.

I grabbed the pizza flyers and went through them.

"Jerry's, pizza Hut, American, Stars..." I said.

"Wait, didn't Mike worked for Pizza Hut?" Kaylie asked.

"Mike?" I said confused.

"That blonde dude you brought home Tuesday" I was still confused so she continued "The one that made breakfast the second day?"

"Ohhh... That Mike" I frowned. That breakfast was the only good thing he made." I don't know, he said he was working for Pizza Hut?"

"Yeah. Jesus, there's Any guy who you actually remember sleeping with?"

"Yep! Brad and Duncan!" I said proud that I remembered those two, even though Brad kinda sucked in bed.

"What's this about?" CC asked.

"Nikki can't remember her one night stands names" Kaylie said bluntly.

"You're having one night stands?" Andy asked surprised.

"Yeah, I'm not really into relationships" I said like it was no big deal.

"Damn! I think we found the female version of Ashley Purdy" Jake said laughing.

That pissed me off even though I knew that he was right.

"Well, if you have a guy at Pizza Hut, order from there" Jinxx said.

"Yeah. What you guys want?"

They told me what they wanted and I ordered. I called Mike and asked him if he was at work and he said he was. So he will bring the order and told me that it was free for me. I laughed hard at how silly he was.

"It'll be here in 20 minutes" I said as I placed myself on the soft carpet. I poured myself another vodka, grabbed an ashtray and I lit a cigarette.

"Thank God, I thought I would have to smoke outside" Andy said litting a cigarette as well.

"You should've asked" I responded smiling.

"So Nikki, how did your parents let you live alone?" Jinxx asked.

I almost chocked with vodka but I regained my composure quickly. Kaylie was tensed and CC noticed.

"They didn't. They died two years ago" I said simply.

Everybody looked at me but Ashley was the first to talk.

"I'm sorry, I know the feeling." He said seriously.

I couldn't help it and I let out a bitter laugh.

"No offense, Ash, but you don't."

I hoped he would drop the subject but unfortunately, he didn't.

"What do you mean?"

I knew that his parents were dead too, but he missed them. He probably never hated them like I did. I sighed and I answered him as simply as I could.

"Do you regret your parents deaths?" I asked.

"Of course I do " He said like it was something obvious.

"Well, I don't!" I snapped. "I am actually so fucking happy that they're dead!"

"Why would you say that?" He asked calmly.

"Let's just say that my life with them wasn't exactly Wonderland."

"Guys, let's just change the subject. I don't wanna make Nikki upset" Andy demanded.

I looked at him surprised and send him a thankful glance. He just smiled back.

"I'm sorry, Nikki. I didn't mean to bring bad memories back." Jinxx said truthfully.

" It's OK Daddy Jinxx. I know you didn't mean to." I said smiling, finishing my cigarette.

He smiled back and I could tell that he really enjoyed being called Daddy Jinxx.

Just then the doorbell rang. I got up and walked to the door then opened it.

"Hey Nikki" Mike said checking me out.

"Hi Mike" I said taking the 6 boxes of pizza he was carrying. I turned around and bumped into Ashley.

'What the fuck is he doing here?!' I thought to myself.

Just like he was reading my thoughts he said quickly:

"I thought you would need help" he said but his eyes were locked to Mike.

I pushed the boxes against his chest and he finally looked at me.

"I do. Take this to the kitchen" I said a little pissed.

He reluctantly took the boxes and headed to the kitchen before taking one last look at Mike.

I turned to Mike and stepped outside and closed the door behind me.

"What was that?" Mike asked.

"I have no idea." I said honestly. "How you've been?" I asked him.

"Nothing new" he said shrugging.

"Yeah, me neither"

"Wanna go out to lunch with me tomorrow?" He asked hopefully.

I was taken aback. That meant a date and I don't date anymore. But he was a sweet guy, so maybe... Ahhh, fuck, why not?

"Uhm, OK" I said unsure.

"We can go as friends don't worry. I know that you don't date" he said happily.

That calmed me down and I smiled at him.

"I'll call you tomorrow, OK?" He asked.

"Sure"

He pecked my lips and headed for his car. The peck was short, letting me know that he wasn't pushing me. I really appreciated the gesture.

"Bye Nikki" he yelled storming off.

"Bye Mike" I whispered more to myself.

I didn't know what I was thinking when I said yes. It could never be more between me and Mike. Hell, even the sex with him sucked. I just shrugged and headed back in the house. Ashley was in the hallway looking at me weird.

"What?" I asked pissed.

"I thought that you don't date" he whispered.

"Don't you know it's rude to eavesdrop?"

"I overheard"

"I don't date, Ashley. We're going out as friends. And why do you care anyway?!" I asked getting more and more pissed.

"I don't!" He said quickly.

"Then fuck off!" I said and I tried to move past him.

He grabbed me by my arm and slammed me on the wall. His right hand was just above my shoulder and his left one was holding my right hip in place.

"What the fuck do you want, Ashley?" I spat.

"You really don't want me to answer that question" he said, his hot breath hitting my lips.

His eyes darkened shining with lust. God, I wanted him so badly. I was so dumb!!!! I couldn't take it anymore. I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulled him closer and kissed him roughly. He was surprised at first but started kissing me back just as rough. His hands found their way to my butt lifting me up and I, once again wrapped my legs around his waist.

"Guys!!! The pizza is getting cold" Andy yelled sounding a little pissed.

Ashley groaned and let me down. My cheeks were flushed and my lips hurt.

"When?" I asked him breathless.

"Not yet." He said giving me a soft kiss and walking towards the living room.

I quickly followed him and took my seat back on the carpet. I ate 2 slices of pizza and let Kaylie eat the rest. After we finished I collected all the boxes and threw them in a garbage bag. I was washing my hands when Andy came in to the kitchen. He was now wearing one of Troy's shorts and Ryan's t-shirt.

"Thanks for the clothes, Nikki" he said as he sat down on one of the chairs.

"No problem, Biersack. I know how much it sucks to be all sweaty after a show" I said and imediately regret it.

"How so?" He asked with his eyes widened.

"Uhm, nevermind." I said quickly and wanted to get out of the kitchen but he grabbed my left arm turning me around.

He noticed my scars but didn't say anything which I appreciated very much.

"Tell me." He said softly.

We sat down at the table and he looked at me pacient.

"Well, me, Kaylie, a guy Troy, and my ex boyfriend Ryan have a band called Risen Demons and we play in local bars."

"What do you play?" He asked smiling.

"Uhm, I am the lead vocalist and I play bass."

"Can you sing something for me?"

"Maybe another time, Andy" I said blushing.

"Why are you embarassed?"

"Because we covered most of your songs."

Damn!!! I think I am drunk because I just can't shut my mouth!!!

"You do screamo?" He asked amazed.

"Yeah..."

"OK, now I definetly wanna hear you." He said excited.

"Another time, I promise." I said smiling.

"How about tomorrow? We have a three weeks break from the tour and I don't really have any other stuff to do."

"OK, I'll play for you tomorrow... But hey, why don't you go to see Juliet?" I asked.

He frowned and I could tell something was wrong.

"Are you OK?" I asked placing my hand on his.

He looked at me and sighed.

"I'm fine. Juliet and I are not exactly on good terms right now" he said sadly.

"I'm sorry, Andy. I didn't mean to upset you." I said squeezing his hand.

"It's OK" he answered squeezing my hand back.

"What's going on?" Ashley asked, his eyes on our holding hands.

He changed as well but he didn't have a shirt on, I mean why would he? He's Ashley Purdy !!!!

"Dude! Nikki has her own band and she does screamo and plays bass" Andy said letting go of my hand and turning his face to Ashley.

"Really?" He asked amazed.

"Yeah..." I said blushing.

"Can you play for us?"

"I'll play tomorrow."

"Cool."

We walked back to the living room. After a few hours of drinking, telling hilarious stuff and just goofing around, I was shitface.

Fortunately, I wasn't the only one. Jake was fast asleep on one of the sofas. Jinxx was wasted on the loveseat hugging some pillows. CC and Kaylie were cuddled on the other sofa asleep as well. Andy was sleeping on a pillow in my lap lightly snoring. I was on the couch and Ashley was pouring me whisky since the vodka was long gone and I was too lazy to open the bar and get a new one. And I couldn't move without waking Andy.

"Thanks" I said as he handed me the glass.

"No problem." He said placing himself near me and wrapping an arm around my shoulder.

"Why won't you have sex with me?" I asked bluntly.

Right now I was drunk as fuck and I didn't care anymore.

"Because I don't want you to regret it" he said kissing the top of my head.

"Why would I regret it?"

"I can tell that you were hurt before. And for some reason I don't wanna hurt you. I usually don't care about this stuff. I want the girl, I get her, do my stuff and then we say goodbye. But I just can't be like this with you"

"Why?" I asked surprised.

"I don't know. You give me a weird feeling. And honestly this feeling scares the shit out of me" he said seriously.

My head snapped and I looked at him babbling.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to-..." He cut me off kissing me.

"It's not your fault. Don't be sorry for something that is not your fault" he said looking in my eyes.

I just nodded.

I rested my head on his chest again.

"Ashley?"

"Hmm?"

"I wanna have sex with you tomorrow."

He sighed and then after felt like forever he answered:

"That depends on how well you will sing tomorrow"

With that I smiled and drifted into a peaceful sleep with Andy Biersack sleeping on my lap and Ashley Purdy half hugging me...

Yep!!! I am definetly drunk!!

Notes

Crazy long chapter!!

Don't forget to rate, vote and comment. That stuff makes me happy :3

love ya guys xxxx

Comments

Okay I can't hold back anymore! I just finished chapter 33 and I have to say that me and my best friend (she is 6 years older than me but fuck) also everytime we see each other or text or call we both go "HEY BITCH" or "I LOVE YOU BITCH" or "BYE BITCH" it's fucking hilarious lol this is awesome and btw I can't help but say that there should be just a little something between Nikki and Jake like even if it's just a kiss.

more please!!!!

kaz_bvbarmy kaz_bvbarmy
6/5/17

Mooooooore! Pretty pretty please!

Lucifer Lucifer
5/19/17

I loved it! So much! Brilliant. If you ever have time to finish the last two chapters i'd love to read them. xx

bvb-army bvb-army
5/17/17

Awesome chapter, I personally love some of the things you had her say, my favorite being AND YOUR GRANDMOTHER'S COOKIES!!!"
Haha great chapter can't wait for your update^.*