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My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

68. Then I lost it all

Nikki's Pov (three days later):

"Ugh! I wanna go back." I said as we entered San Francisco.

"Then let's go back!" Ashley agreed.

"We were three days without our phones. If we stay longer they're gonna think we're dead." I sighed deeply.

He nodded sadly and changed his position. I heard him hiss and I couldn't help but laugh.

"I swear to God, I'm gonna cut your nails someday." He said grinning.

"That's not gonna happen, Purdy. I'm gonna cut your hair if you even try to touch them." I said winking at him.

"Hey! Everything but my hair! You almost ripped my skin off, woman !"

"Oh shut up! You know you liked it!" I said and placed my right hand on his thigh.

He tensed up but then gave me his famous smirk.

"Behave, Tiger! I'm not the one who's driving this time!" He said and moved towards me.

He pulled my hair away and licked my jaw line and my neck while I almost hit a tree. My heart beat was fast and my breath quickened as I grabbed the wheel hard. I pushed Ashley back on his seat as he started laughing.

"Payback is a bitch, doesn't it?"

"At least I finished what I started." I spat glaring at him.

"Oh, so you want me to finish?" He said caressing my thigh.

"No, I'm fine!" I answered quickly and he laughed again.

I smiled to myself as he intertwined our fingers. God, I love him so much!! The last three days were exactly what I needed to feel better. He thought about everything. From clothes to food, movies and music. He cooked for me for God's sake!!

In the first night night, he led me outside and we had dinner on the shore. I was mesmerized by the moonlight that was shining on the lake, by the classical music that was playing softly, by Ashley who waltzed with me, whispering to me how much he loves me. He made everything perfect.

The second day, we watched crappy romantic movies and I cried my soul out on Titanic. However, he knew how to get my mind off of it when he led me to the bedroom. To say that I was sore was an understatement.

Last night, I finally took off my bandages. Ugly scars were covering my arms, showing how desperate and weak I was in the moment I made them. Ashley kissed my arms and told me that every single one of them was a reminder. A reminder of how fragile life can be. I told him about what I dreamt when I was in a coma and I saw how his eyes filled with tears. I told him everything about my parents and about Damon.

By the time I finished, I realized that all the hate I felt towards them was gone. After all, everybody makes mistakes. Everyone deserves a second chance. It was too late now but at least, now I felt closure. I felt like a burden was lifted from my shoulders.

"I wanna get some tattoos." I suddenly said.

"Some?" Ashley asked surprised.

"Yeah. Like a reminder." He smiled as I parked my brand new Lamborghini in front of Chase's salon.

I smiled remembering how much I loved to work here. Ashley took my hand as we entered and I told him that my story wasn't over yet.

"Well, well, well! Look who's here!" Chase yelled as soon as he saw us.

"Hey boss!" I said as I hugged him tight.

"Little star! I see that you didn't forget about me." He answered crushing my bones.

"Never! Chase, this Ashley, my boyfriend." I said proudly.

"Nice to meet you." Ashley said shaking his hand.

"Ah, you're that guy that she was obsessed about for almost three years." Chase laughed and I blushed.

"Shut up, Chase!"

"You were obsessed with me?" Ashley asked grinning.

"I want some tattoos!" I yelled ignoring him.

They laughed as Chase led us to his desk. I remembered the first time when he let me do my sketches and I smiled to myself.

"Whatcha have in mind?" Chase asked.

"Well, I want a cupcake and a ladybug, my engagement ring and a lyric." I answered smiling.

"What?! Cupcake?! Ladybug?! You mean... "

"I'm ready!" I said and Chase was shocked.

"Wow! I'm really happy, little star. I told you you would forgave them someday."

I nodded as I gave Chase the sketch of my engagement ring. I threw it in the lake after Damon's death but I still remembered the design. I just needed to remember them. The cupcake represents my father and the ladybug was my mother. Also, the lyric I wanted was 'I'm not afraid to die' right under my scars. I looked at Ashley and he seemed upset.

"Hey, what's wrong?" I asked placing a hand on his shoulder.

"Why do you want your engagement ring?"

"It was a part of my life. I don't wanna forget it. But that doesn't mean I don't love you, you know that right?"

"I know but... I just can't understand how you could forgive him so easily..."

"It wasn't easy, Ashley. It took me almost two years." I answered sadly.

He nodded and Chase told us that he finished.

"You're going to do them?" I asked and he looked at me like I was nuts.

"I thought I told you that if someone ever lays a drop of ink on your body I will personally make sure that the person won't be able to use his hands anymore. I did all of your tattoos, I'm not gonna stop now." He said smiling as I placed myself on the chair.

"You did all of her tattoos?" Ashley asked amazed as Chase started my ring tattoo.

"Yeah. She and Kaylie were the first ones who entered this salon. Imagine my surprise when two 13 year old came inside wanting to get marked for life." He laughed.

"He tried to kick us out but we wouldn't have it. He gave in in the end." I said smiling.

"They say it's bad luck when you decline your first customers."

"And you tattooed them?" Ashley asked.

"Yeah. They wanted something to represent their friendship. That's what those two stars on their wrists mean. Nikki is the full star, you know, because she's Nikki, duh!! And Kaylie is the shaped one because she's the one who actually has a brain!" Chase looked at me.

"Not gonna argue with that!"

Ashley laughed and I looked at my finished tattoo. I smiled widely and Chase chuckled.

"I swear to God, I love you more with every tattoo that you're making!" I said happy.

"Where do you want your next one?"

"Uhm... On my left wrist... But... You have to promise me you won't yell at me." I answered biting my lip.

"What did you do now?!"

"Promise me!!"

"Fine! I promise!"

I rolled my sleeve up and his eyes widened in horror. He clenched his teeth and he glared at Ashley.

"Don't-"

"Is this because of you?!" Chase screamed.

"No! It was because I was dumb and weak!" I spat getting in front of Ashley.

He grabbed my arm and looked at me reassuringly.

"It was my fault! I hurt her many times until I realized that I couldn't live without her." He said and squeezed my arm.

"I'm fine now, Chase!"

"Bullshit! These are fresh, Nikki!"

"But I'm fine now! I love him, Chase! I don't care how much he hurt me! You know me! I hurt him even more!" I screamed and I almost crushed Ashley's hand.

He sighed and threw one last glare at Ashley. I sat back in the chair as Chase angrily grabbed my arm. He started to tattoo the ladybug and the cupcake as an awkward silence fell over us.

"C'mon Chase! Don't be like this!" I said softly.

"Shut up, Nikki!" I sighed and I looked at Ashley who smiled sadly.

Chase was more than my boss. He was my friend. He was always there for me. Not in a comforting way but still... He always yelled at me and somehow it helped me a lot. I hated him sometimes but the knew that he only meant good.

"I'm sorry, Chase..."

"You shouldn't apologize to me. I just want you to fucking promise me that you won't do it again! And you, dickhead, you have to promise me that you won't hurt her again because of you do, I will personally make sure that you won't breathe anymore!" He spat.

"I promise!!!" Both, Ashley and I said at the same time.

He chuckled and nodded. He finished my second tattoo and sighed when he started to draw the lyric under my cuts. It was a painful area and I clenched my teeth to keep me from screaming.

"I remember when I let you do your first tattoo." He said suddenly.

"I think Kaylie still hates me for it!" I answered laughing.

"Why?" Ashley asked.

"Kaylie has a dragon on her back. Next to it, it's written 'I'll never let you down'. That was the first tattoo I've ever made and I did it when she turned 18. She still hates me for it because I was so careful and I held her 8 hours on the table." I said laughing.

"Wow!"

"Yeah, you should've seen her. 'I'm gonna beat the living shit out of you when my back will stop hurting like bitch!'" Chase mocked Kaylie and I laughed hard.

He soon finished the tattoo and bandaged all of them. I wanted to pay but when I saw Chase's glare I changed my mind.

"Take care of you, little star." He said hugging me.

"I will, boss! Thanks a lot!" I answered and I hugged him back.

"And you take care of her!" He said glaring at Ashley.

"I will!"

Ashley wrapped an arm around my waist as we exited the salon. Now, it was time to go home. I sighed as we entered the car and I sped off to my house.

"What's wrong with you?" I asked Ashley seeing an upset look on his face.

"I just wished that you would be afraid to die..."

"Well, I am now. Because if I die, I would lose you." I said and I grabbed his hand as I parked in front of my house.

"I love you!" He answered kissing me.

"I love you too!"

We got inside and we were face with worried looks. Andy and Kaylie were nervous. Jake and Jinxx looked pissed, Ella was pale as a ghost and CC looked terrified.

"Wow! You missed us that much?" Ashley said sarcastically.

"Who the hell died?" I joined him.

"Guys, I think you should sit down." Troy said and led us to the couch.

A bad feeling rushed through me as I placed myself on the couch. Ashley felt it and squeezed my hand as Ryan walked in front of us.

"Something... Happened..." He said biting his lip.

"What the fuck happened? And why do you all look like it's the end of the world?!" I snapped pissed.

Kaylie walked to me and handed me my phone. I unlocked the keypad looking at her questioningly and what I saw broke my heart in my chest.

"ASHLEY PURDY GETS A FAN GIRL PREGNANT!!!"

Notes

Yeah! More drama happens :)

i wanna thank everyone who commented on this story so far. I love reading them and even if I don't answer you I want you to know that it means a lot to me!

Love yaaaa

Comments

Okay I can't hold back anymore! I just finished chapter 33 and I have to say that me and my best friend (she is 6 years older than me but fuck) also everytime we see each other or text or call we both go "HEY BITCH" or "I LOVE YOU BITCH" or "BYE BITCH" it's fucking hilarious lol this is awesome and btw I can't help but say that there should be just a little something between Nikki and Jake like even if it's just a kiss.

more please!!!!

kaz_bvbarmy kaz_bvbarmy
6/5/17

Mooooooore! Pretty pretty please!

Lucifer Lucifer
5/19/17

I loved it! So much! Brilliant. If you ever have time to finish the last two chapters i'd love to read them. xx

bvb-army bvb-army
5/17/17

Awesome chapter, I personally love some of the things you had her say, my favorite being AND YOUR GRANDMOTHER'S COOKIES!!!"
Haha great chapter can't wait for your update^.*