My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Nikki's Pov:

The rest of the day went like shit. That goddamn doctor wanted to send me to see a psychiatrist and I barely managed to convince him not to. I was fine now. Everything was finally perfect. Or so I thought.

When Jinxx came into my room, I knew that I was screwed. He was deeply disappointed by what I did. He felt hurt because I didn't talk to him. He said that he thought that we had a deeper connection. That I will talk to him no matter what. That I will trust him and discuss my problems with him. In the end, he told me that he was happy that I was alive but that he wouldn't let me get away with it.

Then Jake came, followed by Ella. In those 10 minutes they were inside, Jake probably cursed me more than half of them. He was furious at me for giving up. Ella told me that she didn't expect that either. Before they left, they kissed my forehead and I noticed that Jake had tears in his eyes. He told me that the next time I will try to kill myself, he will beat the living shit out of me.

CC told me pretty much the same thing. But he was more softer than Jake and he burst into tears while he was screaming at me. He told me that he was crazy worried about me and said that he was here for me. Unlike Jake, CC promised that he will beat the living shit out of Ashley if he messes up again. I calmed him down, telling him that it wasn't necessary until Ryan walked in.

I think he would actually beat the living shit out of me if I wasn't in a hospital bed. He yelled at me for breaking my promise and then cried with me. I apologized for every time I hurt him and I promised him that I was finally okay now.

Troy was crying hard when he walked in and he kept screaming things I couldn't quite understand. I took his hand in mine and I swore to him that I was fine. He nodded and then cried more until I got tired and I threatened that I will cut his guitar strings if he won't shut up. He smiled widely at me and kissed my cheek, muttering 'the bitch is back' on his way out.

Kaylie walked inside with Andy behind her and burst into sobs as soon as she saw me. When I managed to calm her down, she became pissed. She told me that the next time I'll try to kill myself she won't be there to give me blood. I laughed, knowing how afraid she was by needles and I promised her that it wouldn't be necessary. She threatened me with a serious girl talk after I get out of here and then let Andy and I alone.

It was awkward because I didn't know what to say. He told me that he loved me just before I passed out. And I admitted that I love him too. He quickly wiped away all of my suspicions when he told me that he indeed loves me, but he was falling for my best friend. I smiled and I apologized one more time to him as soon as I saw the disappointed look on his face. He just shrugged and told me that he wished I would live by the words I had on my thigh. 'Never give in, never back down'...

When Ashley came back, after everyone left I sighed deeply and I motioned to him to get in the bed near me. I moved to my left side so that he would have space and he sat next to me, holding my hand.

"I should've warned you." He apologized.

"It's okay. I expected that." I whispered and he rested on his elbow.

He kissed my forehead and I noticed that he changed his clothes. He wasn't that pale as he was this morning and I figured out that he finally ate something. However, he still had dark shadows under his eyes and he looked tired. I pulled his face and captured his lips in a long peck.

"Go get some sleep." I said after we pulled apart.

"I'm okay." He whispered against my lips.

"You look like shit, Ashley!" I said pissed.

"You don't look to good yourself. And I'm not leaving. Anyway, tomorrow we will go on a trip."

"Why?"

"I think you need some time away, far from everyone. Except me, of course." He said grinning.

"Where are you taking me?" I asked surprised.

"Not far." He answered shrugging.

"Okay. As long as you promise me we won't get out of the bed to much." I said seriously.

His eyes lit up like a Christmas tree and he got closer to my lips.

"We won't get out of the bed at all. And if we do, we can find... Other places." He whispered and I couldn't help the desire that rushed through me.

I pulled his face and collided my lips forcefully with his own. He kissed me back hungrily and supported the back of my neck with his left hand while the other one was caressing my breasts through the hospital robe.

I moaned as I moved my right hand lower and slipped it under his shirt. I ran my hand all over his abs as he kept ravishing my lips. His hand found its way down and lifted my robe.

I thanked God it was late and probably, no one won't be checking up on me anytime soon. He moved to my neck, biting it softly as he pulled the blanket over us. His hand was now on my bare thigh and I was breathing hard.

"Ashley..." I said realizing that if someone will catch us, we would be screwed.

"I can't help it. I know that we're in a goddamn hospital bed but I just can't help it." He whispered in my ear.

"Take your clothes off!" I said and he chuckled.

"I'm to dressed and it would be worse if we would be both naked. What if someone walks in?" He whispered and his thumb was already circling my clit.

"You're not helping me right now." I spat as he inserted two fingers in me.

"I didn't plan to. Now, be quiet."

He crashed his lips on mine as he was pumping his fingers inside me in an agonizingly slow pace. I moaned loudly, entangling my fingers in his hair. He took the hint and sped up his pace, making me moan even louder.

"I thought I told you to be quiet." He said looking at me deviously.

"I can't!!" I spat and he thursted harder, hitting my spot every time.

He chuckled and he changed his position, so now he was almost on top of me. He was looking in my eyes while I was panting hard, digging my nails in his neck.

"Scream!" He demanded as he sped up his pace even more.

"No!" I said fearing that I will wake up the whole hospital.

"I don't care who hears it! I just need to know that you're still mine!" He answered, touching our foreheads.

"I'm yours. I'll always be only yours!" I screamed as he scissored his fingers inside me.

He crashed his lips on mine, muffling my screams as I came hard. He slowed his pace as he pulled back and licked his fingers with a mischievous smirk on his face. I was still breathing hard and I wasn't able to move.

"I think you should sleep now." He said and kissed my forehead."Tomorrow's gonna be a long day."

"Stay with me." I whispered as my breath slowed down.

"I'm not going anywhere. Not anymore." He said and adjusted his position.

I rested my head on his chest and I breathed in his scent. A wave of pure happiness rushed through me and I couldn't help but grin like an idiot.

"I love you, Ashley." I whispered.

"I love you too, Tiger." He answered and kissed the top of my head.

Notes

Hey! I'm sorry, I know it's a little short.

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