My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Andy's Pov:

Something's wrong! I couldn't help but feel like something was wrong with Nikki. She just handed Kaylie her Corvette! She wouldn't do that! She loved that car more than her own life!

I was feeling excited because I knew that in less than two hours, Ashley will be here. Kaylie already left to pick him up. I talked to him almost every day since we got here. He didn't talk to Nikki because he needed some time to figure his feelings out. And this morning, he did. He told me that he couldn't live without her. He wasn't himself without her. Trying to stay away from we was the worst decision that he ever made.

He was coming back but he didn't want us to tell her. He wanted to surprise her. To see the pure happiness on her face when he will tell her that he was here to stay. I was happy. I was truly happy. I knew that they were meant to be and it took me a while to accept it.

Even though, I still loved Nikki, I was falling for Kaylie. She healed my broken heart in a way that I couldn't even imagine. She understood me and took things slowly. She was more than I could ask for. Even though, I felt bad about Nikki.

Since the last time she talked to Ashley she was a mess. She didn't even got out of the house. She kept drinking and writing until she fell asleep. We were worried about her but we knew that all this fucking pain will end today.

I sighed and I decided that I should check Nikki. She was in the bathroom for more than an hour. I walked upstairs and the door to her room was open. I stepped inside and I heard her singing from the bathroom.

She was singing We Stitch These Wounds and her voice was cracking. She was crying! I knocked on the door but she kept singing.

I opened the door and I saw her naked form sitting on the edge of the tub. She had her back towards me and I had a perfect view over her Phoenix tattoo. She had her earbuds in and the music was blasting, making me hear my own voice along with hers.

"The tears we cried, this love has died..." She sang crying.

She kept moving her arms and I couldn't see what she was doing. My heart ached seeing her like this and I didn't know what to do. I stood there until I decide that I should leave and wait for Ashley and Kaylie to get back. Then Nikki will be more than fine.

I sighed and I wanted to close the door when I heard a metallic object hitting the tiles. I looked back and I froze in shock. A razor and drops of blood were staining the white tiles.

"Liar! Liar! Liar, say goodbye!" Nikki mumbled and I saw her body falling backwards.

I managed to move and I caught her body just before she hit the floor. The sight of her paralyzed me. She had both of her arms covered in fresh cuts and blood was dripping violently from them.

The water in the tub was a light red, stained by the blood. I snapped out of my horror as I grabbed the towels from the rack and I tried to wrap her arms in them. I cursed myself for letting my phone in the living room and I cursed Nikki too because the battery was dead.

"Nikki!!! Nikki, open your eyes!" I screamed as I started to tremble and tears were burning my eyes.

A soft moan escaped her lips and her eyelids lifted a little. She was pale as a ghost and her lips were purple, making her look already dead.

"Andy?" She whispered.

"Yeah, it's me! Stay awake Nikki! Don't close your eyes!" I said as I picked up her naked form and went downstairs.

"I'm sorry, Andy. I was to weak." She mumbled as I called 911.

I hysterically gave the lady the address and demanded an ambulance to be here in less than 5 minutes. Nikki's head was in my lap while I was placing my jacket over her body.

"You're okay, Nikki! Just stay awake!" I said tears spilling from my eyes.

"I can't. I'm so tired..." She whispered and her eyes closed again.

"No! Nikki no!!! Open your eyes! Don't you fucking dare to die on me now!!" I screamed as she opened her eyes again.

"It's for the best..."

"No, it's not! Stay with me, Nikki! The ambulance is gonna be here soon and you'll be fine." I said desperately as the towels around her hands started to drop blood.

"No, I'm gonna die..." She said stubbornly and closed her eyes again.

"Nikki, I swear to God, if you die, I'll go straight to hell and I'll drag you back myself! Just keep your damn eyes open!" I yelled at her as my tears fell on her cheeks.

A weak smile crossed her face as she slowly opened her eyes.

"Maybe I'll go to heaven!"

"You won't be allowed there." I whispered kissing her forehead, glad that she was still awake.

"Why do you hold on so tight to me?" She said in a hoarse whisper as her eyes closed again.

"Because I love you! I fucking love you, Nikki! Open your goddamn eyes!" I screamed and she obliged.

"I've never said that.. but I love you too, Andy. I'm so happy that you and Kaylie are finally... Together..." Her voice cracked and her eyes closed.

I shook her body screaming at her until she opened them again.

"Andy... Please tell Ashley that I'm sorry.... And that I love him..."

"You're gonna tell him yourself! He's on his way back, Nikki! That's why he didn't call you this week! He wanted to surprise you!" I said and I saw that her eyes were now fully open.

"He's coming back?"

"Yeah, he said he couldn't live without you. He's back for good, Nikki." She sighed and a bitter smile crossed her face.


"I'm not gonna be here when he arrives.... Such a fucked up life... I'm dying while he's coming back..." Her bitter voice rang in my ears as she closed her eyes again.

"Nikki, look at me!!! You're not gonna die!! You're gonna get to the hospital and you're gonna be fine!! You heard me?!" I screamed terrified that that fucking ambulance wasn't here!

She half opened her eyes and looked at me. Tears escaped from her eyes as she lifted a bloody hand to caress my cheek. She couldn't reach my face, to weakened by the blood loss and her hand fell limp back on the floor.

"I'm not gonna be fine. My time is over... I'm so sorry... I hope you will forgive me one day... If not.... I will see you in hell, Batman...." She said and her eyes closed, her face falling to a side, as her body became numb in my arms.

Notes

I'm so sorry guys for the last chapters! And also I migh not be able to update in the next days... I'm going to my grandma and there's no internet!

im sorry once again and thank you to everyone who commented on the last chapter! I can't even scream how much I love you!! Xxxxx