My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Andy's Pov:

I left the hospital, ignoring all the press. They kept asking questions but I just shrugged and got in the cab as it sped off to the hotel. Mom called me after she found out about Nikki and asked me if I was okay. I told her everything and she just sighed deeply and told me that everything will be fine. I wanted desperately to believe her. She invited me to lunch tomorrow and I reluctantly agreed.

I payed the cab that dropped me off in front of the hotel but I didn't get inside. Instead, I walked to the closest bar and bought a bottle of Jack. I bought another pack of cigarettes because I was running out and then I went in the hotel's backyard.

It was quiet and there was no one in sight. I threw myself on the grass and opened the bottle, taking a huge gulp. I was feeling like shit. I didn't even tell Nikki that I love her. I was afraid that she will went crazy and I didn't want to mess with her head anymore. Ashley pissed me off because for some reason, now he has doubts about his feelings for Nikki. I sighed deeply and I lit a cigarette.

I took another gulp of whiskey and I heard a muffled sound. I looked around me but I saw nothing. I stood up, took the bottle in my hand and walked a little through the backyard. I heard the sound again but now it was clear: it was a sob. I tried to figure out where it was coming from as I saw a large oak tree.

I walked towards it and the sobs became louder. As I reached the back of the tree, I saw Kaylie, hugging her knees, crying with a half of bottle of vodka near her. She lifted her gaze when she heard me and I saw her blue eyes were filled with tears even in the dim light.

"What happened to you?" I asked as I placed myself near her and wrapped an arm around her shoulders.

"CC just broke up with me." She said wiping away her tears.

"What?! Why?!" I asked shocked.

"He said that he has feelings for that other girl. And he said he was tired of..." She stopped and I looked at her questioningly.

"Of what?" I asked as I lit another cigarette.

"Never mind." She shrugged drinking a few gulps of vodka.

I laughed when she almost choked and she glared at me playfully. She took my pack of cigarettes and pulled one out. I handed her the lighter and she lit it, inhaling deeply.

"I didn't know you smoke too." I said looking at the sky.

"I don't. I quit two years ago. I smoke only when I feel like shit." She said and rested her back and her head on the grass.

I smiled seeing her. Her red hair was sprawled all over the grass and her eyes were shining in the dim light. She was wearing a shirt that revealed her stomach and some blue ripped jeans. She had countless bracelets on her arms and she had some batman converses.

"What you're looking at?" She asked snapping me out of my thoughts.

"I like your converses." I said as I placed myself next to her.

The sky was so dark that it almost scared me. No stars, just a full moon.

"Thanks." She whispered.

"Why did you stop earlier?" I asked taking another gulp of whiskey.

"I don't wanna talk about it." She said finishing the bottle of vodka.

"Is it about me?"

She didn't say anything and I took that as a yes. I sighed deeply. Kaylie still had feelings for me. Just like Nikki still had feelings for Ashley. I thought about Kaylie and I realized that indirectly, I hurt her just like Nikki hurt me. I felt bad about it and I wondered how would it be like to be with her. She wanted me. That's why her relationship with CC didn't work. She tried to fall for CC just like Nikki tried to fall for me. With no use.

I turned my head to my left and I looked at her. She was stunning. She was so different from Nikki. When I look at Nikki I see wildness, rebellion and recklessness. But with Kaylie was a whole other thing. I saw loyalty, care and stubbornness. And I was sure that she loved me. Could it work out between us? Was I able to fall for her? After Nikki? After Juliet?

"What's wrong?" Kaylie asked and her eyes met mine.

I gulped hard when her blue eyes burned into mine. They were still a little puffy, making her look so innocent, so flawless. I took another gulp of whiskey and I stood up, trying to get rid of the sudden desire that I felt towards Kaylie.

"Andy? Are you okay?" She asked and placed a hand on my shoulder.

I took a deep breath and my eyes met her shining ones. I turned around and I crashed my lips on hers, pushing her back on the grass. She parted her lips and she kissed me sweetly. I had my left hand on the back of her neck and my right one was caressing her exposed hips.

She entangled her fingers in my hair and started to kiss me hungrily. I kissed her back, remembering how good I felt with her the last time. How she changed in an instant, from the innocent girl to the sexy, confident woman.

I climbed on top of her, in between her legs, spreading them. I roughly kissed her neck and she arched her back, moaning.

"Andy, stop..." She breathed.

I looked in her lustful eyes and I realized how hard it was for her to say those words.

"Why?" I said, my lips touching hers.

"You love her."

"But you love me." I whispered and she looked away.

I turned her chin and she looked back in my eyes.

"That's why your relationship with CC didn't work out, right?"

She nodded and her eyes filled with tears again. She bit her lip and I was feeling miserable that I didn't notice it sooner.

"I wanna try this, Kaylie. I wanna try to be with you." I whispered and I knew I meant it.

"What about Nikki?"

"Nikki was never mine. She was always Ashley's. She never loved me, not like you do." I said and her hot breath hit my lips when she spoke.

"But you don't love me..."

"Then make me..."

She pulled my neck back in a lustful kiss which I returned gladly. I really wanted to do this. I had a connection with her, but I was to mesmerized by Nikki to notice it. Maybe it could work out. Maybe she will make me forget about Nikki and she'll make me fall for her.

I felt myself getting harder in my pants as she pushed her hips up, rubbing herself against me. I groaned when she bit my lip, pulling my hair as she kissed me heavily. I ran my hands under her shirt, tugging the straps of her bra, trying to get access to as much skin as I could get.

She moaned when I managed to unclasp her bra and I started to massage her left breast roughly. I moved down her neck and I bit hard her sweet spot.

"Andy..."

Her breathless voice send shivers of pleasure through me and I wanted to rip her clothes off and fuck her on this goddamn grass, but I was afraid that someone might see us. I stood up and I picked her bridal style as she grabbed the bottle of Jack and my cigarettes.

She chuckled when she noticed that I was practically running towards the back door of the hotel. As soon as we reached the elevator, I started to kiss her bare shoulder, still carrying her.

She groaned when we reached the 16th floor and she searched my jeans pockets for the key. My breath hitched when I felt her hand so close to my hardened length and she shot me a grin. I finally set her back down on her feet and she opened the door quickly.

She threw her converses as I got rid of my boots. She managed to set the bottle and the cigarettes on the table before I picked her up again and she wrapped her long legs around my waist. I kissed her forcefully as I stumbled to the bed, throwing her on it.

She took off her shirt and her already unclasped bra and I felt even more impatient. I undid her belt as she threw my shirt on the floor and started kissing my chest. She rolled on top of me as I was caressing her bare breasts and she started her way down, leaving a hot trail of kisses down my stomach.

She expertly got rid of my jeans as her lips met mine again. She was rubbing herself against me and I got frustrated because she still had her jeans on. I took them off with her underwear too and I looked at her perfect body. I rolled back on top of her, feeling a sudden urge to posses her.

She tugged the waistband of my jeans and I let her take them off before I pinned her hands above her head. She shot me a pissed off look as I started to leave rough kisses all over her breasts. She moaned loudly making me growl, feeling how much she wanted me.

I released her hands and she immediately entangled her fingers in my hair as I kissed my way down to her private area. My right hand was already parting her folds and I was amazed at how ready she was.

"Jesus, Kaylie... You're dripping wet..." I said biting her hip.

"Are you complaining?" She said glaring playfully at me.

"Not at all." I answered and I buried my face between her legs.

She screamed when I sucked her clit, biting it hard. I held her legs in place as she arched her back, gripping the sheets hard. I licked up and down her slit as her loud moans almost made me flip. I inserted a finger inside of her and she screamed again. I had to bit down my lip to stop me from shoving myself inside of her.

"Stop teasing me!" She spat and I was surprised that she was able to talk.

"I'm not teasing you." I said and I inserted another finger inside of her, making her threw her head back.

"Please, Andy!" She said as she was panting heavily.

"What do you want Kaylie?!"

In that moment, she flipped. She managed to stand up and grabbed me by my shoulders, removing my hand and pinned me under her. I was shocked but I snapped out of it quickly when she attacked my lips. My hands found her ass and I gripped it hard as she moaned into the kiss. Her left hand found its way down to my length as she positioned herself.

She looked at me grinning as she slammed her hips down hard and I filled her up completely.

"Kaylie-"

"I'm on birth control!"

I grabbed the back of her neck and rolled back on top of her. I started to thurst violently inside of her as she wrapped her legs around my waist. She bit hard my shoulder and I growled, enjoying the feeling. I was holding one of her hips in place as my other hand was massaging her breast.

"Andy!" She screamed again when I bit her nipple, drawing blood.

I looked at her beautiful features, loving the way her eyes looked when they were filled with desire. And love. A love that she held only for me.

"Say that you love me!"I said as I felt my release close.

"What?!" She asked pissed as I was still thursting in and out of her like a mad man.

"Say it!" I demanded.

"I love you! I fucking love you, Andy!" She spat and she came hard screaming my name.

I followed her soon when I heard those words leaving her lips. It was unbelievable. I felt like I was in heaven. I didn't know why, but it made me grin like an idiot to hear her say it. She loved me. This beautiful, sexy bitch loved me. What the fuck was wrong with me?! Why was I so happy?!

"It might sound lame but I kinda missed that." I said against her neck.

"Mhmmm." She mumbled breathing hard.

I looked at her. I looked in her beautiful blue eyes and I pecked her lips. I really wanted to try this. I was sure if it.

"I like you Kaylie, I really do. And I wanna be with you." I said and she caressed my cheek.

"Okay. Let's see what happens." She answered and I nodded.

I rolled off of her and I pulled her against my chest, smelling her vanilla shampoo and wrapping my arms around her tiny body. She sighed and buried her face in the crook of my neck and kissed the spot softly.

"I love you, Andy..." She whispered.

"I know, K. And I can't believe how lucky I am." I said and I kissed the top of her head, falling into a deep sleep afterwards.

Notes

This chapter is dedicated to Jacob because... Oh you know why xD ...

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