My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Nikki's Pov:

We met with Ryan, Kaylie, Troy and CC in front of the airport. They looked pissed so I figured out that we were late.

"Finally!" Troy exclaimed

. "What took you so long?" Ryan asked.

"We're here for-" Kaylie started but I cut her off.

"You three shut the fuck up and don't talk to me again!" I screamed as everyone else's jaws dropped.

I was still mad at them for telling the guys about my life. Right now, I didn't trust any of them. I knew that Troy had a big mouth so I kinda expected that. Maybe Ryan spoke because he cared about me and didn't want me to get hurt again. But Kaylie? The bitch had no excuse. She knew even more than Troy and Ryan. She saved my life for fuck's sake!! She knew how much I wanted to forget about what happened. I was even more angry because she was distant with me after Andy and I got together. Why is she distant with me? She is with CC!! She shouldn't care about what Andy's doing!

Good job, Nikki! You're the right person to talk about it! I'm the one who almost flipped when I saw Kina's name in Ashley's phone! And I'm with Andy!

"Nikki? Are you okay?" CC asked as he hugged me.

"I'm fine, CC-bear. I just found out that these fuckers told you almost my entire life two fucking days after we met. I'm perfect." I said sarcastically but I returned his hug.

"Nikki, they-" Ashley started but I didn't let him speak.

"Yeah, yeah... They meant good blah blah blah... Don't bother. Jinxx already gave me the speech." I said pissed.

Ryan and Troy looked down guilty and Kaylie could've killed me with the look she was giving me. Why was she hating me so much?

I ignored her as we got in the airplane. Andy squeezed my hand all the time, kissing my forehead every now and then. What was wrong with Kaylie? Why was she like that?

"What are you thinking?" Andy whispered.

"Kaylie. She hates me and I don't know why." I said truthfully.

"She doesn't hate you. She is like that to everyone. She and CC aren't on good terms right now."

"What?!" I whisper yelled.

"Jake told me that after we left to your house, they went to a party. Kaylie was feeling bad so she stayed at CC's apartment. He got drunk and got laid at that party. The girl he slept with sent Kaylie pictures, if you know what I mean and she is like that ever since. And to be honest, I think CC is tired of her moods." Andy said and I gasped in shock.

"He messed up! Why the hell is he tired?" I asked angry.

"He was sorry. Jake said he was destroyed the next day. People do things they don't mean to when they're drunk, Nikki."

"Why the fuck didn't you tell me?" I spat and I smacked his arm hard.

"Ouch! Because I thought Kaylie did! She is your best friend for God's sake!" He said rubbing his arm.

"She didn't!!"

"And how is this my fault??!!!" He said pissed.

I sighed and I turned my gaze to the window. It wasn't his fault. But why Kaylie didn't tell me? Because I was with Andy? And also, what Andy said about doing wrong things when you're drunk kinda messed my head. Ashley was drunk when he slept with Kina. I was drunk when I slept with Andy.

"You know, we were drunk too when we had sex the first time." I said thoughtfully.

"Yeah, but we wanted it for a while." He answered smiling.

I couldn't argue. He was right. I wanted him even when I was with Ashley. The fact that we were drunk didn't matter at all.

"Do you regret it?" He asked not looking at me.

"No." I said and I looked on the window.

His hand left mine and he sighed. I couldn't bring myself to grab it back so I just crossed my arms. Soon, the plane landed and I walked fast past everyone. I felt sick again and my head was spinning. I saw Jake and a cute girl waiting for us. At the sight of him I couldn't hold it back.

"Jakey-pooh!" I screamed running towards him. I heard everyone laughing as I practically tackled him.

"Nikki-pooh!" He yelled, crushing my bones.

"I missed you so much!" I said against his chest.

"I missed you too. How about grabbing a pizza to celebrate?" He answered excited.

"Okaaaay!"

I looked at the cute girl. Jinxx was now kissing her and I smiled widely. They pulled away and her eyes met mine. She blushed as I let go of Jake and walked to her.

"You must be Nikki. I'm Alice." She said and shook my hand.

"You must be my new mommy!" I sad excited and hugged her.

"Nikki, don't scare her." Jinxx warned.

"I think I can handle it, Daddy Jinxx." Alice mocked him and I loved her in an instant."So how many kids do I have?" She asked as we were walking to our cabs.

"Just me and Nikki. But you never know ..." Kaylie answered smiling.

I smiled at her and for a second I saw a glimpse of my best friend. She smiled back as I grabbed her hand.

"We need to talk." I whispered.

"I know." She answered sighing.

"The hotel?" I asked her.

"Yeah."

I let go of her hand as we entered in our cabs. Today was Friday and we will spend the entire weekend in Cincinnati. After that, the tour bus will pick us up and we will head to Texas. I sighed deeply as I exited the cab and some employees carried our luggage to our rooms.

I told Andy that I wanted to talk to Kaylie and he didn't argue. He quickly got changed and left as he said that they will all be at the hotel's cafe and that we should head to the venue in a couple of hours. I nodded as he kissed my forehead and exited the room, leaving me and my best friend alone. I got to the minibar and poured myself a whiskey as Kaylie sat down on the couch.

"Want some?" I asked her, waving the bottle of Jack.

"Yeah."

I chuckled at her expression and poured her a glass as well. I handed it to her as I sat on the other couch in front of her. It wasn't easy and I didn't even know what to say or how should I start.

"So, how you've been?" She asked awkwardly.

"Fine, I guess. You?" I said as I lit a cigarette.

"I'm okay."

"Kaylie, I know about CC. Why didn't you call me?" I said downing my glass and pouring myself another one.

She looked down and her expression changed. Her eyes filled with pain and anger as she sipped her whiskey.

"You were already in your own drama. It wasn't necessary for me to start another one." She answered bluntly.

"How can you say that?! You're my best friend, Kaylie! I need to know about every shit you're going through." I said as I stood up and placed myself near her.

"I didn't... I was too ashamed..." She whispered and tears started to fall from her eyes.

I wrapped my arms around her and rested my chin on her head as she cried her soul out. Halfway, I started to cry too. She was my other half and seeing her like this tore me apart.

"I can't even look at him." She sobbed."And I'm still with him."

"Why?" I asked as I stroked her red hair.

"Because he was the only one who showed ME attention. He was the only one who noticed me. While everyone was mesmerized by you, he saw something in me. He didn't even care about the fact that I slept with Andy. And Andy didn't care about that either."

The double meaning of her words hit me like a hammer in the head. She wasn't blaming me for what happened with CC. She was blaming me for being with Andy!

"Kaylie? Do you still have feelings for Andy?" I asked as I looked in her eyes.

She tried to turn her gaze away but I grabbed her chin and held it in place. I had to know. I had to know how many people suffered in these three weeks because of me. Because I was so undecided. Jinxx was right! I have an amazing talent at toying with people's hearts.

"Tell me, K." I whispered softly.

"It wouldn't matter anyway. He is-" "I wanna break up with him." I cut her off and her eyes widened.

"What?! Why?!"

"I don't love him, K. Not like I love Ashley, anyway." I said and her eyes filled with anger once again.

"So why did you messed up with his head for the last three weeks?!" She spat.

"I thought that he was the key to forget about Ashley." I answered truthfully."But he wasn't. Nothing is."

Tears started falling from my eyes as I thought about Andy. How sweet ad kind he was with me. How he refused to leave me even when I asked him to. My heart broke knowing that I hurt him so much. I was afraid about tonight. I decided that after the show I will break up with him. I will let him be. I hoped that he won't hate me because I couldn't even think about losing him. He was way to important for me. I looked at Kaylie and I knew that she was debating if she should try to save her relationship with CC or if she should go for Andy. I knew that Andy won't be ready for another relationship anytime soon, but I hoped that maybe he will resume that connection he once had with my best friend. I didn't want her to stay with CC if she wasn't happy with him anymore. I couldn't believe that after all this time, she still had feelings for Andy and didn't tell me about it. Why the fuck life has to be so complicated?!

"Think about your feelings, K. Make a choice before it's too late. Don't make the same mistakes I did." I said quietly.

"I don't know what to do, Nikki." She whispered desperately.

"Think. Think and consider every choice. But do it before it's too late. I don't give a flying fuck about them but I don't want you to end up hurt." I spat angry and she smiled.

"I missed you, you know?" She said and wiped away her tears.

"I missed you too, bitch!" I answered and I hugged her tight.

I started to cry again. I was so happy that she was back in my arms. My little bitch. My sister. My saviour. She did so many things for me, she stood by me no matter what. I could never thank her enough for what she did. But at least I could try.

"Let's get out of here!" I said and she nodded.

We got changed as we did our vocal exercises. We exited the room and headed downstairs only to find everyone in the lobby, waiting for us. Everyone smiled widely as they saw our holding hands. I felt invincible. If I had Kaylie with me I was stronger. She was my strength. I wasn't so afraid about breaking up with Andy. I felt right, actually. I was so deep in my thoughts that I didn't even realized when we got to the venue.

We got on stage and we performed but everything was a blur for me. I was still thinking about random stuff when Ashley wrapped an arm around my shoulders and kissed my cheek. Their performance just ended and he was sweaty and he was breathing hard.

"What's wrong with you?" He asked as everyone high-fived everyone.

"Just thinking." I said shrugging.

A few minutes later, the theater was empty. For some reason, I got back on stage and walked for a bit. This stage was awesome. It had a weird shape, like an unpolished diamond. It was very weird and I liked it. I heard footsteps behind me and I turned on my heels. Ashley, Andy, Ryan, CC and Kaylie were looking at me like I was crazy.

"What?" I asked smiling

"Did you finally lost your mind?" Ryan said playfully.

"Dickhead!" I mumbled but he heard me.

Kaylie and Andy chuckled as Ashley and CC elbowed each other.

"What did you just say?" Ryan asked stepping towards me.

"I said DICKHEAD!!" I shouted laughing.

"You BITCH!" He screamed smiling as he wanted to tackle me.

"Kaylie!!!!"

She lunged forward and she smacked Ryan so hard that it almost hurt me. CC held his stomach from all the laughter as Andy grabbed Kaylie's hands behind her back. Ryan took advantage of it and ruffled my hair, pissing me off. Ashley set Kaylie free, earning a glare from Andy as she went for Ryan again. He let out a girly scream as I laughed hard.

Somehow, my eyes wandered up and then I saw it. A glimpse of blonde hair. The light was dim and I couldn't see her to clear. All I could see was her grin. She was grinning like a mad woman and that sent freezing shivers down my spine. She was holding something with her hands. I narrowed my eyes, trying to figure out what it was.

"Nikki?"

Her position shifted a little and a ray of light hit the object she was holding. It was a gun! Fear paralyzed all my body as I realized that it was pointed to Ashley!

"Get out of here!" I managed to scream as I lunged towards him.

Everything happened so slow. Ashley looked at me questioningly as I ran to him. He was only five feet away from me so I got in front of him from two jumps. I heard the gun shot and I felt a crushing pain in my stomach just before I managed to get Ashley out of her sight.

I looked down and I saw all the blood that was covering my shirt. Different screams erupted from everyone as my vision became blurry. Suddenly, I felt so exhausted. I saw Kina's grin just as my body started to fall. I heard another gun shot before my head hit the edge of the stage and everything went black.

Notes

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