My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Still in Asley's POV:

”What the fuck are you doing here?!” I snapped at her.

”Don't be dumb, Ashy. I wanted to know how you've been” she said and stepped over the shattered glass, making her way inside my house.

”Kina, get the fuck out of my house!”

She turned around and smiled at me. She caressed my cheek and winked at me.

”Why are you so angry? What happened?” she asked worried.

”It's none of your goddamn business! Now-”

”Don't be like this. Give me a drink and talk to me. You know I'm sorry.” she said and I remembered what she told me right after I broke up with her.

She said she was sorry. She said that the guy who was with her that night drugged her and she didn't know what she was doing. At the moment, I was to hurt to listen, but after a few weeks it turned out that she wasn't lying. She really was drugged that night when I caught her under a guy. I looked at her and I saw that she was serious. Ahhh what the fuck??! Nikki won't be home anytime soon, anyway. I sighed and I took Tokyo and Killer and locked them in the kitchen. For some reason, they never liked Kina.

”Why now?” I asked as I handed her a glass of whiskey.

”Well, I tried to reach you but you were on tour. And I saw that picture you posted this morning.” she said as she sat on the couch.

”Yeah...” I said sighing and sipped my whiskey.

”Are you happy?” she asked.

”I don't know. I love her but she keeps doing things over my head.” I said and I sat next to Kina on the couch.

”What do you mean?”

I took the calendar and handed it to her. She flopped the pages and her eyes widened.

”I don't get it. You were ok with this stuff when we were together. What changed?”

”I don't want people to compare her to you.”

”But this is for charity.”

”I know what it is, Kina! But I told her not to do these pictures and she did them anyway!” I snapped refilling my glass. I was starting to get tipsy now.

Kina shrugged and placed a hand on my back. She looked at me with pity and I glared at her. She grinned and she pinched my arm, making me laugh.

”Don't glare at me, Purdy! You know I hate it.” she said playfully.

”I forgot.” I answered smiling.

”So fast?! Dammit Ashley.” She tried to slap my arm but I caught her palm and dragged her so she ended in my lap. She giggled and I almost felt sick at that sound.

”Will you tell me why are you really here?” I asked and I refilled my glass again.

”I kinda missed you.” she said and looked down.

I lifted her chin up and stared in her eyes. Something told me that she wasn't lying. That, or I was drunk. Before I knew it, she leaned in and kissed me softly. It felt wrong. I didn't feel those sparks that I always feel when Nikki kisses me. She bit my lip softly and I opened my mouth. Our tongues danced together but I wasn't even able to close my eyes. However, Kina still remembered how to turn me on. She rubbed herself against me as she placed the glasses on the table.

She changed her position, so now she was straddling me. She wrapped her hands around my neck and her lips found mine again. Suddenly, I became pissed. I grabbed her bare thighs and I started to kiss her back roughly. I was mad at Nikki and I was mad at Kina for walking in my life again. I was confused by Kina and hurt by Nikki. I didn't know what the fuck I was doing and right now I didn't care. I threw Kina's shirt somewhere in the living room as she undid my belt. I stopped for a second, thinking again at what I was about to do.

”C'mon Ash, you still want me.” she breathed against my lips.

”I don't want you anymore. But you're lucky that I'm pissed and I need a release.” I said in a deadly tone.

She stared dumbfounded at me for a second before she crashed her lips against mine. I picked her up and I managed to carry her to my bedroom without stumbling. I knew that what I was doing was wrong but I was drunk and I was pissed. Hopefully, I'll get rid of her before Nikki returns home.

Nikki's POV:

I was driving for about 15 minutes and I still didn't know where I was going. I finally pulled over and I rested my head on the wheel. Why is he so dumb?!! Why didn't he understand? I thought to myself. I checked my phone and I saw that I had lots and lots of comments at the picture Ashley took this morning. I wasn't in the mood to read them so I threw my phone on the board. What the fuck am I supposed to do now? I was in the middle of nowhere and I was still pissed at him. He didn't even call me so I assumed that he was still pissed too.

Why does it have to be so hard? Right now, I kinda regretted that I did the pictures, because I hate to fight with Ashley. Wait, what?! No, I'm not!! I'm happy that I did the pictures! Now, some kids will get the help that they really need. Screw Ashley and his stupid jealousy!!!

Yeah, sure! I wasn't even believing myself. I wanted to go back. I wanted to be in his arms again and nuzzle my face in his chest. I wanted to kiss him and forget about everything. I just wanted him to ruffle my hair or kiss my temple and make me shiver. I had to go back. I started the engine and I drove back home. I was desperately needing him. It was like my heart ached for him. Sometimes, I hated that I loved him so much. What a cliche!! I hate that I love you! How twisted is this stupid love! A wave of anger rushed through me, making me want him even more.

I parked the car, grabbed my phone and entered in the house quietly. I frowned at the shattered glass that was everywhere near the doorway. What the fuck?! I heard Tokyo and Killer barking from the kitchen and I frowned even more. I opened the door and let them out. They greeted me happily and I patted their little heads. I turned around and my heart stopped.

In the living room, on the table were two glasses of whiskey. But that's not what worried me. On the armchair was a shirt. A feminine shirt. And sure as fuck it wasn't mine beacuse I don't wear pink! I heard laughing as I lifted my gaze and saw Ashley coming out of the bedroom followed by....Kina! I was frozen. I couldn't move and I felt the tears blurring my vision. Son of a bitch!!

His face turned white in an instant and Kina grinned. My heart dropped in my stomach as my phone started ringing. I regained my composure and I exited the house. Ashley yelled after me and I heard him rushing downstairs. I was about to enter my car before he grabbed my left arm. I didn't think and I forcefully slapped his cheek with my right hand. Tears spilled from my eyes as he engulfed me in a hug, not caring that I just hit him. I struggled to get away from his grip feeling only repulsion for him in this moment.

”Nikki, listen to me! I'm sorry!I was drunk and she came and I was pissed and I didn't-” he tried to explain but I cut him off.

”Save it!! I don't give a fuck! You haven't change at all! Don't ever talk to me again! IT'S OVER!” I yelled.

I saw tears forming in his eyes and I almost wanted to take it back. We stared at each other. Both crying. Both angry. Both betrayed. No!! What am I doing? I'm not the one to blame here! He cheated on me with that slut! I just did some pictures for a good fucking cause!! He lifted his hand, trying to caress my cheek and I almost leaned in before my phone started ringing again.

I snapped out of it and I got in the car. He yelled after me but I ignored him as I sped off. I was crying uncontrollably by now. My phone kept ringing and at some point I pulled over and I checked the caller ID. It was Andy.

”What?!” I said pissed wipping my tears.

”Nikki?” he said and his voice cracked worrying me in an instant.

”Andy? Are you ok?”

”No, I... I” his voice cracked again and he started to sob.

”Andy, what is wrong with you? Where are you?” I asked panicked.

”I'm home. She...She did it again.... N-Nikki...” he said between sobs.

”Hold on, Andy! I'm on my way!” I said and I hung up.

That bitch!!! I knew she would do it again!! I clenched my teeth as tears were still streaming down my face. I gripped the wheel hard, my knuckles tuning white. I drove as fast as I could, not caring about anything. What a damn coincindence!! Me and Andy got cheated in the same day!

'Fuck you, karma!' I thought to myself as I was spotting Andy's house in the distance.

Notes

I think I'm possed! I can't stop writing lol

I might post another chapter later! Till then vote, comment and make me happy!!

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