My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

'Why the fuck am I so dumb?!' I mentally screamed at myself as I was probably crushing Ashley's hand.

We were walking back to the cab station after I took my house keys. I was thinking that something was wrong with me. I wanted Ashley since the first time I laid my eyes on him.
But right now I was kinda... Scared.... Why was I scared? Fear is something that I didn't felt in a loooong time, so why now? What was I supposed to do? He knew that I wanted him and I did but I couldn't have sex with him. I mean, he was my idol. I've always loved his music and the way he rocked his bass. Plus the fact that he was a complete manwhore. I've had my heart broken before, that's the reason that I don't date anymore.

One day I will, but that definitely won't happen with Ashley. I couldn't sleep with him. Even though I wanted it badly. I might get emotionally attached to him and that was the last thing I wanted.

"What are you thinking about?" Ashley asked snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Nothing" I said as I took a glance at him. His hair was a mess and he had lipstick on his lips.

"Wait a minute" I said as we stopped and I reached to fix his hair. He stared at me the whole time and I could feel that stupid heat rushing in my cheeks again.

I moved to his lips and wiped the lipstick off of them as he was still looking at me.

"What?" I asked as we continued our way to the others. He grabbed my hand again, a shiver running down my spine.

"I like your eyes. I've never seen such a bright green." He answered.

"Yeah, I know. I have weird eyes." I said as we aproached the guys and Kaylie.

"Well, I think they're beautiful" he stated looking at me smiling. A genuine Smile. That type of smile that can melt your heart. Arghhhh!!!! I blush too fucking much!!

"Thanks" I whispered.

"What took you so long?" Kaylie asked me smirking as soon as we got near them.

Andy was talking with someone on the phone and he was a little away from the group.

"Ashley signed some stuff for fans" I answered casually.

"How much did he hit on you?" CC asked crossing his arms.

"I bet she is already scared" Jake said laughing.

"I just hope that if you two decide to do something you will keep it down" Jinxx stated bluntly.

"Jesus!!! Guys!! I'm gonna die alone if I'll stick around you" Ashley said annoyed.

I laughed as Andy ended his call and came to us.

"Why are your lips swollen?" He asked looking at me.

"Are not" I said blushing again.

Ashley smirked and I wanted to smack him so badly but I managed to control myself.

"Yes they are. Ashley, you couldn't keep your hands off, didn't you?" Andy continued.

Ashley just shook his head and opened the back door of the cab.

"Why don't we take this awkward conversation at Nikki's house?" He said looking at Andy who just shrugged and went for the other cab.

Ashley motioned to me to get in the cab as he held the door for me. I got in , while Kaylie placed herself in the front seat. Ashley sat next to me and closed the door. The other guys were in the other cab. I told the driver the adress and I rested my head against the window, closing my eyes.

My eyes snapped open when Ashley started carresing my thigh. I looked at him and I could see that his eyes darkened, lust filling them. My breath quickened just seeing his desire. His hand grabbed my right thigh pulling me closer to him, his hot breath tickling my lips.
He leaned in to kiss me but I turned my head. I couldn't do this so I crossed my legs. He pouted and crossed his arms like a ten year old. I couldn't help and I giggled a little.

"Why are you giggling?" Kaylie asked not turning around.

"Ashley is showing his pouty face"

"What did you do to make him pout?" She said knowingly.

"She won't let me kiss her" Ashley answered.

Kaylie turned around fast and started laughing, seeing Ashley's face.

"WOW, you two are moving faster than I thought you would" Ashley flashed his famous grin and rested his hand on my thigh again.

"We're not moving anywhere, Kaylie" I said pissed.

"Whatever, bitch" she dropped the subject and turned her attention to her phone.

I huffed and I tried to avoid Ashley's gaze so I turned my head and I looked out the window.

I almost screamed when I felt Ashley's tongue on my neck, but I didn't move. Because I couldn't fucking move ... I was numb. His right hand reached for my left hip gently squeezing it.

"Why are you so nervous?" He whispered bitting my earlobe. I took a deep breath and I tried to find my words.

"Because you make me feel weird." I whispered back.

"In a good way?" He continued kissing my neck.

I tilted my head to the side allowing him better acces. He found my sweet spot and I let out a light moan. He smirked and bit down on it. I slammed my hand on my mouth, trying to hold my moans back.

"I don't know. I just don't wanna be another one night stand" I said bluntly.

He stopped and looked at me. I imediately missed his touch.

"So, you are the commitement type?" He asked me with a tone I couldn't quite place.

"No. I don't like commitments!"

"Then what's the problem?" He was confused now.

I didn't know the answer. I was confused as fuck and it pissed me off. My mind was racing but he interrupted my thoughts:

"You're afraid that you might start to feel something and I would break your heart." he stated bluntly.

I looked at him with my eyes widened. He just echoed my thoughts.

"Yeah, I think so" I whispered and looked down at my hands. He lifted my chin up with his thumb and smiled at me.

"What if I promise you I won't do that?"

"Why would you?"

"Because there is something.... Intriguing.... About you... I have no intention to break your heart... But I can't hold back the attraction that I feel towards you..." His hot breath hit my lips again and the only thing I wanted to do was crash my lips on his.

"I... I don't-..."

"You want me too. And you don't want a commitment either. So what's holding us back?"

"Nothing...."

"I'm not gonna force you into anything. If you don't want to do this I won't push you" he stated and started taking his hands off me.

I grabbed his right hand which was still on my left thigh. He glanced for a moment at our holding hands and then looked in my eyes.

"I... I can't deny that... I want you..." I managed to say.

"I won't hurt you, Nikki." he said leaning closer.

He kissed me. It was a slow, soft kiss. Not hungry and rough like the one we shared at my car. It melted my insides as I clung to his side, wrapping my arms around his neck. He smirked into the kiss as his hands found their way under my shirt. I shivered at his cold touch and a moan escaped my lips.

"Will you two wait till we get home?" Kaylie asked, her eyes still glued to her phone.

Ashley groaned and pulled away.

"Later" I whispered smirking.

He smirked back and threw his arm around my shoulders and I rested my head on his chest.

'This could be the worst decision ever' I thought to myself....

Notes

So my phone wasn't a bitch and let me update... Yayyy!
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Also, I wanna thank Hannah for making my day xxx

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