My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

Still in Ashley's POV:

I was pretty wasted and I got here only three hours ago. Kaylie dropped me off at some bar where she said the bartender was a friend of hers. I shrugged and just got in. I drank whiskey and then I got bored. I drank vodka and the same thing happened. Tequilla saved me from my boredom and finally decided to make my head spin a little.

”So, you're friends with Kaylie?” the bartender, whose name I think was Barry, asked.

”Yeah, I'm her best friend's boyfriend.... Scratch that.... Used to be!” I said and downed another glass of tequilla.

”Oh, you dated Nikki.... Now, I understand....” Barry said as he filled my glass once again.

”What do you mean?” I asked confused.

”Somehow, Nikki always manages to hurt people. I don't think she is doing it on purpose, but the girl has some issues. I know that she had some troubles in her past but that's not a reason to be a complete whore and a bitch to everybody that cares about you.” Barry said.

I suddenly got pissed. I grabbed Barry by his collar and held him tight.

”I don't care how much you know about Nikki, but insult her one more time and I swear to God that would be the last thing you do.” I threatened.

”Ok man. No need to be violent” he said raising his hands in surrender.

I let go of his collar and downed the glass once again. He quickly filled it up and went to take care of other clients. I thought about Nikki. I was still upset about what she did but I kinda felt sorry that I yelled at her. The sight of her tears streaming down her face still haunted me. But it wasn't my fault. I didn't cheat on her, she cheated on me and on top of it she did it with my best friend. I still didn't understand why I felt so heartbroken. I mean, we were together for less than three weeks and I didn't even ask her out. And when she said that she really feels something for me, my heart melted. I wanted to kiss her until she couldn't breath anymore, because I knew that I felt something for her too. But the truth comes out only in the worst moments of our lives.

”Hey, you're Ashley Purdy.” a blonde said as she sat next to me, snapping me out of my thoughts.

”The one and only, darling!” I answered after I checked her body.

She looked pretty hot and the fact that her shirt revealed some cleavege was exactly what I needed right now.

”I've been to your concert. I didn't know you stayed here.” she said and twisted a strand of hair between her fingers.

”I don't. I just had some business. Now, what's a pretty girl like you doing alone in a bar?” I asked her, flashing my famous grin.

”Looking for some fun. I should ask you the same thing.”

”Well, maybe I look for some fun too. What would you say about that?” I said and caressed her bare thigh.

She smirked at me and I liked her confidence. I was tired of those girls who were too starstruck to answer when I asked their names.

”I would say that I live two blocks away. What would you say about that?”

”I would ask for your name.”

”Diana.”

”Well, Diana what are we waiting for?” I said and grabbed her hand.

I payed for what I drank, throwing one last glare at Barry, and I exited the bar dragging Diana after me. Hell yeah, I'm back, motherfuckers!!!

Nikki's POV:

As soon as Kaylie entered back in the house I asked her where Ashley was. Andy was still trying to calm me but it was useless. Jinxx yelled at him to leave me alone and fortunately, he did. I thanked him and he just gave me a bear hug and told me that everything will be ok. CC kept making funny faces at me, trying to make me stop crying. He didn't succeed. Kaylie told me that she dropped Ashley at Wesley's, the bar where her ex boyfriend worked. I changed myself and I wanted to take my car keys but Kaylie didn't let me. She said that she will drive. I was pissed but too tired to argue with her.

We drove to the bar and as soon as we got in I saw Ashley talking to a blonde at the bar. My heart dropped in my stomach as Kaylie was trying to get me out of the bar, noticing that I saw them. We exited the bar just as Ashley was caressing her thigh. I started crying again as Kaylie drove back home.

”Just stop crying, Nikki! You did a mistake but at least you had the guts to admit it! He is the one who stormed off like a bitch to go fuck some blonde slut!” Kaylie said pissed as she killed the engine.

”That doesn't change anything, Kaylie. I lost him. He will never forgive me. He already forgot me for fuck's sake.” I yelled angry as I got out of the car and slammed the door.

”Fuck him! We're going on tour, bitch! You will have hundreds of guys who will die just to shake your hand. Screw Ashley Purdy!” Kaylie said as we entered in the house.

”I have feelings for him, Kaylie! Why the fuck don't you understand that?!”

We got to the living room and Jinxx and CC were staring at us.

”You loved Damon. And you still dealt with his death! What's the difference?”

In that moment I saw red before my eyes. I lunged for Kaylie and slapped her hard. The sound of it echoed through the entire house. CC and Jinxx imediately stood up. CC grabbed Kaylie throwing me a dead glare and Jinxx grabbed both of my arms behind my back.

”Don't you fucking dare compare Ashley to Damon. EVER!” I spat tears still spilling from my eyes.

”Why not? Damon had a fucking wife and Ashley is screwing some bimbo blonde as we speak! You can't even pick a right guy for your own good!” Kaylie screamed as she started crying too.

”Shut up, Kaylie or I swear to God I'll make you.” I said struggling to get out of Jinxx's grip.

”Nikki, calm down right in this second.” Jinxx yelled turning me to face him. CC took a crying Kaylie out of the living room as I broke down once again.

Jinxx hugged me as I stained his shirt with my tears.

”Shhh... It'll be fine. Kaylie was upset too. She didn't mean what she said. And Ashley will come around. He cares for you, Nikki.” he said reassuringly.

”Kaylie was right, Jinxx. He is probably screwing somebody else right now. I saw him”

He sighed and he continued to stroke my back. After I calmed a little I told him that I was fine. He nodded and headed back to his room. I looked around me at the now, empty living room and I sighed deeply.

I walked to the kitchen and I found Andy smoking and drinking whiskey. His eyes met mine and I felt like crying again. Damn! I cry too much these days! He gave me a weak smile which to my surprise, I returned. He really was there. When Ashley left me, he was there. Even though I still hated him I had to appreciate him.

I sat on the chair in front of him and I looked at my hands.

”I'm sorry, Nikki.” he whispered.

”I know. And I'm sorry too for hitting you.” I said blinking away my tears.

”It's Ok. But by the way, that hurt.” he said seriously and I couldn't help but chuckle.

We smiled at each other and we talked for a while. He was truly sorry about what he did but he didn't think that I would actually tell Ashley. He also addmited that the desire he had for me was still present. Just as those words left his mouth I knew that I will try my best to stay away from him. I will try to fix my relationship with Ashley no matter what. The truth is that I was denying my attraction towards Andy with everything I had. I didn't know why. But I knew one thing: right now, I wanted Ashley, not Andy.

”Wanna share?” I said pointing to the bottle of Jack.

”Suit yourself. It's yours, anyway.”

We finished that bottle. And then the second one. At the half of the third bottle I lost track of everything. I felt Andy carrying me somewhere but I didn't know where. I felt him wrapping me in his arms and I slowly drifted to sleep.

”I'm not leaving, Nikki. No matter what you do or how hard you try to push me away, I'm not leaving.....”

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