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My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

24. I've lost my fucking mind

Andy's POV:

I was pissed. Like really pissed.I walked to the room Nikki gave me and got changed. I was experiencing so many feelings right now. I was mad, I was angry and above all, I was sad. I sat on the bed and thought about this shit. She chose Ashley, and somehow I knew that he wouldn't change, not so fast. I checked my clock, it was 14:07, damn I stayed here thinking for 45 minutes.... I walked downstairs and grabbed my phone. Ashley gave me a questioning look.

"I hope you're happy. Just don't mess this up like you usually do." I snapped at him.

"What the fuck is your problem, Andy?" He yelled and stood up.

"I don't have any fucking problem, Ashley." I yelled back.

"Dude! What the hell?" CC asked and stood up as well.

"What happened? Where is Nikki?" Ryan asked.

"She is still in her room I think." I said simply.

Ryan and Troy exchanged glances and rushed upstairs. I wondered what was that about.

"Kaylie, do you mind dropping me at that bar you played last night?" I asked her.

"Yeah, sure.... But why?" she answered concerned.

"I need to cool off."

She nodded and went in her room, probably to get changed.

"What the fuck is going on between you two?" Jinxx asked crossing his arms.

"He likes her. And he fucking kissed her right after she had sex with me!! And now he is pissed that she chose me!" Ashley spat.

"Wait, what? What do you mean she chose you? You were competing for her or what?" Jake said angry.

"Man, you told me last night to go for it. And I did. But at the same time, Andy did the same thing!" Ashley continued.

"Andy, you shouldn't have kissed her. You knew it wasn't right." CC said.

"You just messed with her head now" Jinxx shouted.

"Will you shut the fuck up?! I kissed her because I felt like it! And she kissed me back, for the record! So stop blaming me." I said pissed.

"Andy-"

"No, I don't wanna hear it! I'm out." I said as Kaylie walked out of her room.

I grabbed her hand as she took the keys from the Corvette. We exited the house not looking back. Once we exited the house she snatched her hand from mine and stopped on the porch. I looked at her surprised.

"What the fuck do you wanna do, Andy?" she spat.

I sighed and looked at her. Her blue eyes were full with a mixture of rage and despair.

"I just wanna get away from all this drama stuff." I said truthfully.

She took a deep breath and frowned.

"Can I join? I can't really deal with her right now."

"Sure!" I said and I smiled at her.

We got in the car and she explained that we will go to a different bar because Paul gave her the day off. I nodded and turned the CD player on. Stolen Omen started playing and I turned it off imediately.

"What's wrong?" Kaylie asked.

"Sometimes I'm tired of my own music." I said and she laughed.

I looked at her. She was cute. She had a fire inside her I could tell. But she always kept it hidden. It mus've been hard for her to be there everytime Nikki was down.

"You're staring at me" she said as she parked the car.

"Sorry. I was thinking about how you had to help Nikki through all of her shit." I answered.

"Don't, Andy. I'm not drunk enough to have this conversation." she said as we exited the car.

I chuckled and she smiled as we entered the bar.


Nikki's POV:

I collapsed on my knees just thinking about what happened. Did I made a mistake? Did I choose the wrong guy? Will Ashley break my heart? No.... He promised me we will talk about everything. If we ever have issues he promised we will sort it out.... And he will keep his promise...Right?....

I stood up and went to my desk. I pulled the drawer out and opened the secret compartment. There it was my old life. Five razors and a small bag of cocaine. I took the bag and poured some on a book. I swored I would never do it again but I was too torn right now.

I made a thin line and grabbed a straw. I inhaled deeply, feeling the familiar pain in my nose. I put everything back and threw the straw in the bin. I felt a sweet dizziness taking over me and I smiled to myself. I lit a cigarette from the pack that Kaylie bought me this morning and I enjoyed breathing the smoke. I threw myself on the bed giggling.

I was thinking clear now. that's what I always tell myself. It wasn't my fault that Andy felt like this. No. I'm with Ashley. I'm not going to think about Andy anymore. I will trust that Ashley won't break my heart and maybe he won't. And Andy....

"Nikki are you Ok?" I heard a concerned Ryan barging in my room.

"Yep. I'm fine." I said smiling.

"Oh my God.... Nikki, what did you do?" Troy asked coming near my bed.

"I did nothing. What do you mean?"I answered innocently.

"Don't give us shit, Nikki! You did it again." Ryan spat.

"And I have more. Wanna a taste? " I said and I put the cigarette in the ashtray.

"NO! C'mon!" he said and picked me up bridal style and carried me to the bathroom.

I knew what he was going to do and I tried to get out of his grip!

"Let me go, Ryan, I'm fine!"

"No you're not!" Troy yelled at me.

Ryan turned the cold water on and he pushed my head in the sink. I took a deep breath just before my face connected to the freezing water. He kept me there for 5 seconds, and pulled me up.

"Look in the mirror, Nikki." he whispered still holding the back of my neck.

I looked in the mirror and I saw a thin line of blood coming from my nose.

"I haven't done it in a long time. That's why-"

"And why you had to do it?" Troy asked holding my wrist.

"I had to think clear."

"Bullshit." Ryan spat as he pushed my head back in the sink.

I held my breath and I felt the dizziness leaving my head. He kept me in the water for 15 seconds and then pulled me out.

"I'm fine now!" I said taking a deep breath.

"No you're not."

This time, Troy pushed me and my face sank in the cold water again. He pulled me out after 30 seconds and I choked with water.

"Get changed and dry your hair." Ryan said coldly and they left the bathroom. Troy brought me some clothes as I turned the hairdryer on.

I dryed my hair and I wipped the blood from my nose. I got changed and I stepped into my room.

Ryan was there looking disappointed.

"We made a promise, Nikki." he said hurt.

"I know, but I felt like I just couldn't think anymore." I said truthfully.

He took me in a bear hug and stroked my back.

"I know that you are confused. But from what I heard, you are with Ashley now. Don't let Andy mess with your head anymore."

"I won't." I said and kissed his cheek.

"Good. Now let's go before your boyfriend gets jealous."

I chuckled at the mention of Ashley being my boyfriend as we exited my room.



Notes

Another one up! Sorry about the drug part but I had no idea and I didn't want Nikki to cut again.

Also, the next chapter will contain a smut with Andy.

Wait to find out what's gonna happen when he gets back to Nikki's house... *evil grin*

Rate and comment xxxx

Love yaaaaaaaa

Comments

Okay I can't hold back anymore! I just finished chapter 33 and I have to say that me and my best friend (she is 6 years older than me but fuck) also everytime we see each other or text or call we both go "HEY BITCH" or "I LOVE YOU BITCH" or "BYE BITCH" it's fucking hilarious lol this is awesome and btw I can't help but say that there should be just a little something between Nikki and Jake like even if it's just a kiss.

more please!!!!

kaz_bvbarmy kaz_bvbarmy
6/5/17

Mooooooore! Pretty pretty please!

Lucifer Lucifer
5/19/17

I loved it! So much! Brilliant. If you ever have time to finish the last two chapters i'd love to read them. xx

bvb-army bvb-army
5/17/17

Awesome chapter, I personally love some of the things you had her say, my favorite being AND YOUR GRANDMOTHER'S COOKIES!!!"
Haha great chapter can't wait for your update^.*