My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

My jaw drooped and I couldn't move. He stood up quickly and turned his back at me.

"Nikki, I'm sorry. I knocked but you didn't answer so I thought I would stay and wait for you.... But I swear I didn't know you will walk out.... naked...." He babbled.

I wrapped the towel around my waist and took a deep breath.

"Why are you here, Andy?" I asked calmly.

"I just talked to John. He will be here in an hour or so." he said simply.

"What?!" I shrieked running towards him.

He stared at me. my head was spinning. Their manager would be here. We had to perform in front of him. I was nervous as hell. And I was only in a towel in front of Andy Fucking Biersack!!!

"You Ok?!" he asked me concerned.

"No, I'm not Ok! Your manager will be here in any minute and I'm not even ready, I don't know what to sing, I don't know if I will be able to sing, my head is spinning, I have a hangover-"

"You'll be fine. John will be here in an hour. He will tell you what to sing, you will be able to sing, I don't know why your head is spinning and drink some coffee to ease your hangover. Did I answered everything?" he asked smiling and I just nodded.

He rechead to my face and his hand caressed my cheek. He looked at me and gave me a genuine smile. My knees were weak when he hugged me but he felt it because he supported my weight wrapping his arms around my waist.

"It will be OK, Nikki. I'll be there.... The whole time." he whispered.

I could hear my heart in my ears as I wrapped my arms around his neck. He will be there. Memories of how many times I listened those lyrics came, flooding in my head. Actually hearing him whispering them in my ear almost made me cry. In pure happiness or in pure frustration. Or maybe both. I felt something pressing against my lower stomach just as he pulled back.

I looked confused and realized that he just got a boner. I blushed hard and looked in his eyes. He was embarassed and I'm sure his cheeks were just as red as mine.

"I'm sorry, I-I think I should let... you get ready... I- we will be downstairs..." he said and stormed out off my room.

I stood there dumbfounded. Andy Biersack just got a boner when he hugged me. Damn! I really am good!!

'Wait! What am I thinking here?!! My posibly future manager would be here in any minute and I am thinking about...'

I just stopped thinking and got dressed. I got in my underwear as fast as I could and I pulled out some ripped blue jeans, a BMTH shirt and I slid my jacket on. I took my cowboy boots in a rush while I blow dryed my hair. I decided not straighten it leaving it wavy. I applied my make-up just like yesterday while doing my vocal exercises and I checked the clock. Damn! 15 minutes?!! I'd better get a reward for that.

I walked out of my room and ran downstairs. Everybody was in the kitchen, eating and drinking their coffees. They greeted me but I was too pumped up to care.

”Did you call Ryan and Troy?” I asked Kaylie who was sipping her coffee.

”Yes, I did. They will be here in any minute.” she answered calmly.

”Did you checked your guitar chords?!!”

”Yes, I did”

”Did you do your vocals?”

”Yes, I did.”

”Jesus, Nikki calm down. Everything is going to be fine.” Jinxx said rubbing my back.

”I don't know that yet, Daddy Jinxx.” I said looking desperately in his eyes.

”But I do. All of us do.” CC said wrapping an arm around Kaylie's neck and he whispered something in her ear. She burst into laughter and high fived him.

”Why the fuck are you laughing?” I said pissed.

”They placed a bet. Who would it be easier to calm down. I won.” she said smirking.

”Really, Kaylie? You're thinking about placing bets when I'm dangerously close to having a heart attack?!”

She laughed harder and I glared at her.

Ashley came from behind me and wrapped an arm around my waist. He handed me a huge mug of coffee and looked at me.

”Calm down, Tiger. Everything will be fine. Just sing like no one is listening.” he said smiling at me.

I smiled back and I felt a little calmer. My shoulders weren't so tensed anymore and my head stopped spinning. We just stared at each other, his hand still on my waist until someone cleared his throat.

”Can we stop this staring contest please?” Jake whined.

”Just order yourself some pizza and let me be, Jacob!” I said and his eyes widened.

”Not gonna say no!” He yelled excited grabbing the pizza flyers.

”Dude, you just ate 4 pancakes!” CC said.

”So? I'll never refuse pizza.” Jake answered making everybody laugh.

Ashley kissed my forehead and I felt a little weird that he did that in front of everybody. Andy turned his gaze away and Kaylie noticed him. She shot me a glare and I shrugged. I really needed to talk to her.

”We're here!!!” Troy shouted.

”In the kitchen!” Kaylie responded.

They came inside and they looked perfect. Ryan winked at me and kissed my cheek.

”Morning, sunshine! Who calmed her?!” he asked knowingly looking at everybody.

”Shut up, Ryan. I'm still nervous.” I said and I punched his arm hard.

”Ow!! That hurt, bitch!” he answered rubbing his arm and I knew he wasn't lying.

”Remind that the next time you piss me off, Ashley!” I said pointing to Ryan.

His eyes widened and he nodded quickly. I drank my coffee and I felt a little better. Kaylie washed the dishes while the BVB guys went to get changed.

”Wanna tell me what happened between you and Andy last night?” Kaylie asked pissed.

I looked at her a little surprised. Why was she so different all of a sudden?

”He told me about Juliet and he kissed me.” I said bluntly.

She almost dropped the dishes and looked at me shocked. Troy's jaw was dropped and Ryan looked surprised.

”You did what?” she snapped.

”I kissed him back.”

”He is hurt, for fuck's sake, Nikki!! You can't mess up with his head too!”

”I am not messing with anyone's head, Kaylie. And I didn't start! He did!” I shouted back.

”You could've pulled back! You took advantage of him!”

”he is a big boy, Kaylie! He can take his own decisions!”

”What's going on?” Andy asked as he entered the kitchen.

I shrugged and stormed out off the kitchen really pissed. I bumped into Ashley .

”Whoaaa! Who pissed you off?” he said holding my arms.

”No one.” I said and walked past him to the basement.

I couldn't believe that out of all people, Kaylie would judge me. I knew she had a crush on Andy but I thought that he turned her attention to CC, who obviously likes her. My thoughts were interrupted my Andy, who clearedhis throat just as I was about to pour myself a whiskey.

”What?!” I asked as I downed the glass in one gulp.

”Why do I have the feeling that this was about me?” he asked leaning against the door frame.

”Because it was. Kaylie said I took advantage of you.” I said and he chuckled.

I glared at him.

”You think this is funny? I just fought with my best friend because I kissed you and she has a crush on you!” I snapped.

”Well, I didn't know that.” he said calmly.

I sighed and looked at him.

”Why did you kiss me, Andy?”

”Because I wanted to. And you didn't take advantage of me, it was the other way around. And I don't regret any second. I wanted to kiss you. I fucking desire you, Nikki and I'm tired of denying it.” he said coming to me.

He grabbed my cheeks forcefully and kissed me harshly. I dug my nails in his neck and kissed him just as harsh. It wasn't like anything I've ever experienced. This kiss was full of rage, passion, lust and pain. And it drove me insane. We fought for dominance, neither of us holding it back. I realized that I desired him just as badly as he desired me. But something was still holding me back in a way or another.

I heard the door open and I pulled back like he burned me. Andy gave me a hurt look that broke my heart just as Ashley and Kaylie walked in.

Notes

Again.... This chapter turned out in a way that I didn't expected. Apparently, when I write about Andy I tend to ”ignore my head and follow my heart”...

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