My Darkest Desire (Ashley Purdy/OC/Andy Biersack)

We got home pretty fast and I was glad that Ashley didn't said a thing so I could focuse on the road. I know it's not good to drive when you had some alcohol but, oh well, it wouldn't be the first time.

Kaylie drooped Troy and Ryan at their houses, so Ashley and I arrived first. I killed the engine and I took a deep breath. I wasn't drunk but my head was spinning. I wasn't a virgin but with Ashley I felt like one. He made me feel nervous in a way that I didn't understand. I felt something towards him. I don't know what it was. But it confused me.

"Are you OK?" he asked concerned.

"No! I mean yes! I, I don't know...." I said truthfully.

"Nikki, look at me."

And I did. I met his soft gaze and his genuine smile and I swear to God that I melted in an instant.

"I'm not going to push you. If you don't want this-"

"I never said that." I cut him off.

"But?...."

"I...I don't know. I just have the feeling that I might not be good enough." I whispered looking at my hands.

He bursted into laughter and that confused me even more.

"Nikki, you're right. You're not good enough. Actually, I think you might be the best. And that should mean something coming from me." he said lifting my chin up and looking at me.

Memories of what we did today came flooding back in my head and I blushed under his touch.

"You're lying." I said.

"I wish I would." he answered kissing me softly.

I remained still as he bit my lower lip making me open my mouth. He wrapped a hand over my neck while the other one was on my lower back. I kissed him back roughly as he pulled me on top of him. I was now on his lap, with my fingers entangled in his hair feeling his erection against my core. We kissed hungrily until I saw the lights of my BMW signaling that Kaylie and the guys arrived. I reluctantly pulled back and stared at Ashley. He was breathing hard and I could see the desire in his eyes even though there wasn't too much light.

"Continue to pretend that you're sick!" He said caressing my back.

"I can't. They'll figure out I lied when they'll hear us. Neither of us is quiet." I said chuckling.

He just pouted and we got out off the car. Kaylie shot me a knowing smirk noticing that I got out from the passenger seat and I just winked back. The guys took their luggage and we entered the house.I pointed to where they can take their stuff and decided that Ashley would share a room with me.

After the guys set their suitcases in their rooms we crashed in the living room.

"Nikki?" Jake asked.

"Pizza or Bacardi?" I asked.

"Damn! Can I call you my sister from another mister?" he said smiling widely.

"Yes you can. And that should mean you want both?" I answered smiling back.

"Yes, please!" He answered ruffling my hair.

"Oi! Everything but not my hair." I said smacking his arm.

"I swear to God, the more time we spent with her, my opinion of she being the female version of Ashley gets stronger." Jinxx laughed.

I just stuck my tongue at them as I went for the pizza flyers. I didn't order from Pizza Hut because I didn't know if Mike was at work. I ordered six pizza like last night even though I couldn't eat.

I got back and saw that Ashley was missing. I knew where he was by the look on Kaylie's face. I just wanted to save the appereances and I lit a cigarette from Andy's pack because I runned out of them.

"Out?" he asked smiling.

"Yeah, I'm sorry. I'll buy you another one."

"Calm down." he smirked as he pulled out another two full packs of Marlboro.

"Did I mention that I love you?" I said smiling back.

"You just did."

I slowly smoked my cigarette enjoying the way the smoke filled my lungs. I took my wallet and tossed it to Kaylie.

”Pay the pizza. I'm busy!” I said in a tone that no one could dare to say something.


I walked slowly, upstairs and entered my room. The lights were off and I felt excited. I closed my door and I tried to move to the bathroom.but an arm grabbed me and pushed me up against the door.

”Thought you changed your mind.” Ashley whispered kissing my neck.

”Why would I do that?” I moaned as he bit my sweet spot.

He didn't answer as he pulled my jacket off. I hungrily kissed him loving the feelings that I was experiencing. He picked me up and carried me to the bed, placing me softly on it. I imediately thought that something was wrong and I pulled back staring at him in the low light that the moon was offering through my window.

”Why are you so gentle all of a sudden?” I asked surprised.

”I don't know. I... I really don't know ” he answered truthfully.

I caressed his cheek and gave him a smile.

”Don't be! Just do whatever you want to do. I can feel that you're holding it back.” I whispered and Ashley nodded.

His lips came crashing down on mine and now I could feel that he was himself. I threw his shirt on the floor and I ran my hands all over his back. He lifted me up and slid off my shirt. He started kissing my neck and I couldn't help but moan. I felt him smirk as he unclasped my bra, painfully slowly and throwing it on the floor as well.

I switched places so now I was on top of him. I kissed his neck and his chest going down to the waistband of his jeans. I managed to undo his belt and took of his jeans, leaving him in his boxers. I kissed his lips again as I was pressing myself against his bulge. He moaned and grabbed my ass pulling me harder against him. He moved his hands in front of my jeans and undid them sliding them off.

I was only in my underwear and he was in his boxers as he switched places again, pinning me under him.

”You drive me crazy, Nikki.” he whispered bitting my earlobe.

”You do the same thing to me.” I answered as I was pulling his boxers off and grabbing his length.

He moaned and burried his head in the crock of my neck bitting it, I almost screamed at the feeling but I controled myself. He started kissing my left breast making me moan in pleasure. His hand found the waistband of my panties as he slid them off slowly. He started kissing my thigh, founding his way up.

I couldn't take it anymore and I pulled him on top of me, ravishing his lips.

”I can't take it anymore, Ash.” I whispered against his lips.

”Me neither. But I don't want you to feel like-”

”I'm fine! I trust you! Dammit, Ashley! I really do!” I almost yelled at him.

”You sure?” he asked again looking at me.

The desire that was present in his eyes drove me insane. He wanted me. And, God help me, I wanted him just as bad.

I reached to one of my nightstands and pulled out a condom and I slid it over his length. He pushed me back on my pillow as he slowly, opened my legs. He circled my clit with his thumb while he was kissing me roughly. He grabbed my hips and I could feel his tip against my entrance. I bit his lip motioning for him to continue. He entered in me, kissing my neck and I wanted to scream, so I bit my lip so hard that I tasted blood. he pushed himself untill his length was fully in me and I felt like I was in heaven.

”You OK?” he asked breathless.

”Yeah, just.... Move...” I whispered as he started thursting in me.

I was on cloud 9. I loved the feeling. Ashley was pushing himself slowly inside of me. I didn't know why was he still so gente but somehow I appreciate the gesture.

I moaned loudly and I heard him groan.

”Please, Ashley!” I begged.

”What?” He said kissing my collar bone.

”Go faster.”

It was like he waited for those words to leave my lips. He sped up his pace grabbing my hips hard. I dug my nails on his back, probably leaving marks but I didn't care and neither did he. He hit my spot and I gasped, arching my back.

I started kissing his neck, trying to held back my moans. He kept hitting my spot, making me want to scream so hard that it almost hurt.

”I'm close.” he whispered.

”Me too.” I managed to say.

He kept thursting harshly inside me and I felt the familiar feeling in my stomach. He groaned as his length twisted inside me. He kissed me as my walls clenched around him and I wanted to scream his name. We rode our orgasms, as we were still kissing each other, trying to cover our pleasure sounds.

Ashley's body collapsed on mine, shaking badly. I just stroked his hair trying to calm him as I was breathing hard.

He stood up and threw the condom in the bin and then took me in his arms, pulling a blanket over us. I wrapped an arm around his torso and rested my head on his chest.

”That was....-” I started but he cut me off.

”Perfect.”

”Thank you, Ashley.” I whispered kissing his chest.

He lifted my head and pressed his lips against mine.

”I thank you, Nikki.”

”For what?” I asked curiously.

”For trusting me.” He whispered.

”I don't know why I trust you. But I know that I feel it's right.”

He kissed the top of my head while I was smiling like an idiot.

Notes

Hyiaaaaaaaaaa!!! Hannnah!!! I love you!! Here is your chapter!

Comment people! I love to hear what you think about this story!

Love yaaaa xxxxxxx