The boy in the house opposite mine

As soon as I get home, I lock myself in my room. Mom has to go to work so I'm home alone. I scream into a pillow. First Mimi dies. Then I get bullied at school. Then I meet someone I love who loves someone else. Then dad chokes on glass. Then I get stabbed in the back by Andy and Angeline. I love Andy more than I could ever believe but I guess it doesn't work both ways.
I lose it. I can't stand around watching myself breakdown anymore. I go insane. I run to the bathroom and grab a razor. A voice in my head tells me not to do it. It's Andy's voice. I ignore it. I press the razor to my arm and slice it. It begins to sting. Blood pours out of the wound.
"Wow." I whisper.
I do it again, over and over. My arm aches by the end of my meltdown. Blood drips onto the floor. I grab a piece of tissue and wrap it around my arm. Blood begins to seep through the tissue.
I hear voices in my head screaming at me. Thoughts begin popping into my head.
You deserve to die. No one loves you, no one cares about you. No one would care if you were dead. You were an accident. Your parents didn't want you. Your parents don't care about you. Andy doesn't care about you. Why are you even alive? You'd be better off dead. die. Die. DIE.
I lose my mind. I run to the window and open it. I climb out onto the roof. I'm about to jump when I notice Andy in his room crying. He looks up and sees me standing there crying my eyes out with a bloody tissue wrapped around my arms. I was about to commit suicide. What happened to me? I scream into my hands. I hear noises behind me in my room. I look behind me to see Andy climbing out with a blanket in his hands.
"Don't do this Emma!" Andy says desperately, tears rolling down his cheeks. He puts his arms around me. "You have such a great life in front of you."
"Leave me alone!" I shout tearfully. "I have to stop the voices! I have to stop the thoughts!"
"I can't let you do that." I step forward. I'm about to jump. "You wanna know why? Because I love you!"
"Really?" I smile. "I love you too, Andy. God, I love you."
He pulls me backward and presses his lips to mine. I feel a spark of happiness racing through my veins. I feel like nothing could ever go wrong as long as I have Andy. I feel perfect. Like all my flaws have fallen off my body to reveal a beautiful angel. I feel like my scars have been healed. I feel like everything is right. The voices in my head stop. The thoughts clear to reveal a peacefully empty feeling. I feel like every fraction of my being is perfect. I feel like I'm in heaven.
He pulls away. I can see the happiness in his eyes.
"Wow." We say together. I kiss him again. I remember about my locker and the notes. I remember Angeline. I don't want to, but I pull away.
"The notes." I hope there is a good explanation.
"I have a notebook." Andy looks down at the floor. "In this notebook I write down all my thoughts. There is a page in there where I wrote down insults that I've heard. I'm guessing Angeline ripped that page out and ripped it up to make those notes. The one about staying away from me was from a page where I was describing the kind of person Angeline is. We're over by the way."
I smile.

Notes

Second to last chapter and then an epilogue xxx