Cross your heart
60
I am aware that I am an asshole
I really don’t care about all of that though
I’m living my life the way that I want to
And you can’t deny
That honestly I’m just like you.
~~~~~~
*2 months later*
Lexus kept asking me questions about her daddy, why we had to leave, what’s wrong and who is guilty…
Tomorrow is her birthday. And I really want her father to be here, but I don’t know how he’s handling life right now. Harry left a month ago because of the tour he’s about to go to. And I… I’m staying with Katherine. “Your baby sure does like to move,” Kath said while running after Lexus. My baby girl accidentally put sand in Katherine’s soup…
The baby was growing fast.. I don’t want to know the gender though. Probably it would be better to be a surprise. So now I’m 5 months pregnant and Kath is going with me to the doctor’s appointment.
***
The doctor was now putting that cold thingy on my stomach and we could finally see the baby… it was so… beautiful. I remember the day when I found out I was pregnant with Lexus. The ultrasound was amazing when I saw her little body floating in the pool. “It looks like the babies are fine, miss Richards.”
“Excuse me, did you say babies?” I ask concerned. “Yes, babies. Sweetie, you’re having triplets!” she cheered.
Oh.
My.
God.
Freaking triplets.
“A-Are you serious? T-Triplets?!” I try to keep my voice stable as possible. “Well yes! All of them are boys! Wait, no, wait, that’s… well yes, three boys!” my doctor says again.
Baby boys. All of them. THREE of them. TRIPLETS! Taking care of four kids on my own isn’t going to be the easiest job in the whole fucking world! How am I supposed to do this? And I can’t live with Katherine all my life, she can’t handle a whole circus family in her house! “Hey… don’t worry. You’ll be fine. And can’t you ask your British friends to maybe lend you some cash and you will live somewhere alone…” she admits. “On second thought, you’re right. I should move to England. I mean, they do love kids. And they’d love these three boys… just like they love Lexus,” I smiled.
My four year old kid is going to have brothers. She will be happy to play with them, I know it. “Lexus, what do you say about brothers?” I ask sweetly. “Boys? Why not girls…” she pouts in her sweetest way.
“One day sweetie, one day… come on, let’s go make a birthday party!”
~Next day~
“Um, I don’t think that goes there, Kath…” My hell of a sister was trying to hang the sign above the door, but it ended above her… “I give up! Can’t we just call someone?” Kath marched annoyingly towards the phone, but a certain person rang the bell.
“They better be help…” she mutters and opens the door. “OH MY GOD! THANK YOU LORD FOR SENDING ME HELP!” she shouted. Soon, the Black Veil Brides entered her house. All of the, except Andy…
“We’re here to help, Christina. CC will help hanging the balloons and that sign you’ve been struggling with, Jinxx and Jake will get the food ready while I, Ashley Purdy, will keep an eye on you!” Ash said. Wow, I didn’t think I need a babysitter in this situation. “Why can’t I be on the food arranging!” CC whines.
Now, that we have help, I can rest…
When I was about to close my eyes, the devil called. “Hello?” I answered my phone.
“Hi! How are you Chris?!” a feminine voice says from the other side. “Who is this?”
“Are you that dumb? It’s me, Vicky!”
“Oh god, we haven’t seen each other in years! You left the night when you sent me to the dance! Where are you?!” I shout in happiness. “I’m at your doorstep, I mean, Kath’s doorstep. “Hold on, I’m going to open the door,” I giggle and end the call.
Since I can’t run, we’d say I needed about 2 minutes to get to the door. “Hello C-What the hell is that?” Vick points to my stomach. “It’s called a pregnancy bump… come in.”
“Is there something else I don’t know about?” she narrows her eyebrows. “Yup… LEXUS! Come here girl!” I say. Victoria probably thought it’s a female dog… “Mommy?” I see my daughter peeking from the corner. Vic just hung her mouth open and eyes wide. Yes, I never told her about Lex… “I-Is this your kid?” she asked. I nod and reach my hand out to Lexus.
“Lexi, this is aunty Vic!” because of my girl’s shyness, she was hiding behind my leg. “Hi Lexus…” Vicky bent down and smiled. “Where’s the dad? Wait, who is the dad?” Vick asks. Before I was able to speak, my daughter, which has speaks English excellently and correctly (by what I’m surprised), answered her. “Daddy is a singer! Black Veil Brides!” Lexus smiled.
My cheeks flushed because Vic knew who that singer was. She is actually a singer herself and goes to Warped. Not to perform, but hang out with famous stars. “Andy Fucking Sex God Biersack?!” she whispered/yelled. “Please do not say the dirty words in front of my child, Victoria… that’s disrespectful,” I playfully punch her arm.
“STILL! IT’S HIM! HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL ME!?”
“Well… you’re the one who changed numbers, not me. And if you’re wondering, yes, he is also the father of these triplets I’m having right now. So, if you’re gonna eat, make me a meal for four people please,” I smile.
Lexus went back to play with her dolls as I sat down on the couch. “Where is he?”
“He… I don’t know. Today’s Lexus’ birthday and she doesn’t really know it is. I lied it’s Katherine’s. Andy and I had a little fight and he’s not here at the moment…” I wipe away a small tear that slipped down my cheek.
“Oh gosh… I’m sorry to hear that. If you need my help with the babies, feel free to call, ok?” Vicky said. I smile and hug her tightly. All I need right now is support.
*******************************
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!” we shouted in unison when Lexus realized it’s her birthday. Before we started, Vic quickly bought her a lot of gifts. “IT’S MY BIRTHDAY!” she screamed and jumped around the room like a little monkey. She wanted the cake so… here’s the problem; we didn’t have a cake. CC kind of ate it… all of it…
“Excuse me?” we all turned around to see a person who was needed to show up. “If I’m not too late, I want to join the party. And I brought cake…” he trailed off. “DADDY!” Lexus shouts and runs towards him. “Happy birthday baby!” he hugged her and handed her a BIG box, while he whispered something in her ear and snuck something in her pocket. “Mommy! I want cake!”
So you know what’s it like. I sliced the cake and I wasn’t in the mood to eat it. I was craving a burger… a big, tasty burger… “I thought you’d like something else than a cake so I brought you a burger…” I saw Andy handing the burger in front of me as we were outside. “Thanks… how’d you know?”
“It was in the handbook…” he smiled. “I… I’d like to say I’m sorry for my behavior. I was just pissed at myself. I didn’t want it to end like this,” he said as I took bites in my burger. “And now I see you’re big, five months huh... What’s the gender?”
“They are boys,” I manage to get out while chewing the delicious food in my mouth. “They?”
“Triplets. All boys.”
“Are you kidding me?! TRIPLETS?!” he was so surprised, just like I was when I found out. “Don’t freak out like I did… It will be hard to raise four kids. I am really scared though.” Now I finished my burger. Wait, that wasn’t enough… I want more!
He hugged me and kissed my forehead. “I am willing to be there. I am willing to fight for us to get back together. I swear. And I will try to control myself. Just for you and Lexus to come back where you belong,” Andy whispered.
“We’ll see Andy, we’ll see…”
I really don’t care about all of that though
I’m living my life the way that I want to
And you can’t deny
That honestly I’m just like you.
~~~~~~
*2 months later*
Lexus kept asking me questions about her daddy, why we had to leave, what’s wrong and who is guilty…
Tomorrow is her birthday. And I really want her father to be here, but I don’t know how he’s handling life right now. Harry left a month ago because of the tour he’s about to go to. And I… I’m staying with Katherine. “Your baby sure does like to move,” Kath said while running after Lexus. My baby girl accidentally put sand in Katherine’s soup…
The baby was growing fast.. I don’t want to know the gender though. Probably it would be better to be a surprise. So now I’m 5 months pregnant and Kath is going with me to the doctor’s appointment.
***
The doctor was now putting that cold thingy on my stomach and we could finally see the baby… it was so… beautiful. I remember the day when I found out I was pregnant with Lexus. The ultrasound was amazing when I saw her little body floating in the pool. “It looks like the babies are fine, miss Richards.”
“Excuse me, did you say babies?” I ask concerned. “Yes, babies. Sweetie, you’re having triplets!” she cheered.
Oh.
My.
God.
Freaking triplets.
“A-Are you serious? T-Triplets?!” I try to keep my voice stable as possible. “Well yes! All of them are boys! Wait, no, wait, that’s… well yes, three boys!” my doctor says again.
Baby boys. All of them. THREE of them. TRIPLETS! Taking care of four kids on my own isn’t going to be the easiest job in the whole fucking world! How am I supposed to do this? And I can’t live with Katherine all my life, she can’t handle a whole circus family in her house! “Hey… don’t worry. You’ll be fine. And can’t you ask your British friends to maybe lend you some cash and you will live somewhere alone…” she admits. “On second thought, you’re right. I should move to England. I mean, they do love kids. And they’d love these three boys… just like they love Lexus,” I smiled.
My four year old kid is going to have brothers. She will be happy to play with them, I know it. “Lexus, what do you say about brothers?” I ask sweetly. “Boys? Why not girls…” she pouts in her sweetest way.
“One day sweetie, one day… come on, let’s go make a birthday party!”
~Next day~
“Um, I don’t think that goes there, Kath…” My hell of a sister was trying to hang the sign above the door, but it ended above her… “I give up! Can’t we just call someone?” Kath marched annoyingly towards the phone, but a certain person rang the bell.
“They better be help…” she mutters and opens the door. “OH MY GOD! THANK YOU LORD FOR SENDING ME HELP!” she shouted. Soon, the Black Veil Brides entered her house. All of the, except Andy…
“We’re here to help, Christina. CC will help hanging the balloons and that sign you’ve been struggling with, Jinxx and Jake will get the food ready while I, Ashley Purdy, will keep an eye on you!” Ash said. Wow, I didn’t think I need a babysitter in this situation. “Why can’t I be on the food arranging!” CC whines.
Now, that we have help, I can rest…
When I was about to close my eyes, the devil called. “Hello?” I answered my phone.
“Hi! How are you Chris?!” a feminine voice says from the other side. “Who is this?”
“Are you that dumb? It’s me, Vicky!”
“Oh god, we haven’t seen each other in years! You left the night when you sent me to the dance! Where are you?!” I shout in happiness. “I’m at your doorstep, I mean, Kath’s doorstep. “Hold on, I’m going to open the door,” I giggle and end the call.
Since I can’t run, we’d say I needed about 2 minutes to get to the door. “Hello C-What the hell is that?” Vick points to my stomach. “It’s called a pregnancy bump… come in.”
“Is there something else I don’t know about?” she narrows her eyebrows. “Yup… LEXUS! Come here girl!” I say. Victoria probably thought it’s a female dog… “Mommy?” I see my daughter peeking from the corner. Vic just hung her mouth open and eyes wide. Yes, I never told her about Lex… “I-Is this your kid?” she asked. I nod and reach my hand out to Lexus.
“Lexi, this is aunty Vic!” because of my girl’s shyness, she was hiding behind my leg. “Hi Lexus…” Vicky bent down and smiled. “Where’s the dad? Wait, who is the dad?” Vick asks. Before I was able to speak, my daughter, which has speaks English excellently and correctly (by what I’m surprised), answered her. “Daddy is a singer! Black Veil Brides!” Lexus smiled.
My cheeks flushed because Vic knew who that singer was. She is actually a singer herself and goes to Warped. Not to perform, but hang out with famous stars. “Andy Fucking Sex God Biersack?!” she whispered/yelled. “Please do not say the dirty words in front of my child, Victoria… that’s disrespectful,” I playfully punch her arm.
“STILL! IT’S HIM! HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL ME!?”
“Well… you’re the one who changed numbers, not me. And if you’re wondering, yes, he is also the father of these triplets I’m having right now. So, if you’re gonna eat, make me a meal for four people please,” I smile.
Lexus went back to play with her dolls as I sat down on the couch. “Where is he?”
“He… I don’t know. Today’s Lexus’ birthday and she doesn’t really know it is. I lied it’s Katherine’s. Andy and I had a little fight and he’s not here at the moment…” I wipe away a small tear that slipped down my cheek.
“Oh gosh… I’m sorry to hear that. If you need my help with the babies, feel free to call, ok?” Vicky said. I smile and hug her tightly. All I need right now is support.
*******************************
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!” we shouted in unison when Lexus realized it’s her birthday. Before we started, Vic quickly bought her a lot of gifts. “IT’S MY BIRTHDAY!” she screamed and jumped around the room like a little monkey. She wanted the cake so… here’s the problem; we didn’t have a cake. CC kind of ate it… all of it…
“Excuse me?” we all turned around to see a person who was needed to show up. “If I’m not too late, I want to join the party. And I brought cake…” he trailed off. “DADDY!” Lexus shouts and runs towards him. “Happy birthday baby!” he hugged her and handed her a BIG box, while he whispered something in her ear and snuck something in her pocket. “Mommy! I want cake!”
So you know what’s it like. I sliced the cake and I wasn’t in the mood to eat it. I was craving a burger… a big, tasty burger… “I thought you’d like something else than a cake so I brought you a burger…” I saw Andy handing the burger in front of me as we were outside. “Thanks… how’d you know?”
“It was in the handbook…” he smiled. “I… I’d like to say I’m sorry for my behavior. I was just pissed at myself. I didn’t want it to end like this,” he said as I took bites in my burger. “And now I see you’re big, five months huh... What’s the gender?”
“They are boys,” I manage to get out while chewing the delicious food in my mouth. “They?”
“Triplets. All boys.”
“Are you kidding me?! TRIPLETS?!” he was so surprised, just like I was when I found out. “Don’t freak out like I did… It will be hard to raise four kids. I am really scared though.” Now I finished my burger. Wait, that wasn’t enough… I want more!
He hugged me and kissed my forehead. “I am willing to be there. I am willing to fight for us to get back together. I swear. And I will try to control myself. Just for you and Lexus to come back where you belong,” Andy whispered.
“We’ll see Andy, we’ll see…”
Notes
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Awe so cute
6/21/15