Cross your heart

Oh shit. Fuckin’ shit. SHIT. NO! FUCK NO! “Christina? Please, be wrong!
Katherine and Dani kept barging the door but I stared at the results. It was positive. Like, POSITIVE. Like, pregnant positive! I slowly unlocked the door and the girls jumped at me, while I stood like a rock. Danielle looked at the test and knew what was wrong. “Christina, don’t worry. I’ll tell my brother that you got raped when he was gone… he will believe,” Dani said. Of course he’ll believe.


“Who’s is it?” Seriously, Katherine? “I think you already know…” I whispered. Danielle’s eyes turned wide and I nodded. “T-That guy? Andy, or something like that?” Who else could it be? “Yes.”


Should I tell him? Or should I forget about it?

No, first we need to check if this is true. Or not. Whatever it is. “I need to go to a doctor… what is this is false?” I asked. “Yeah, you’re right… c’mon, let’s go. We are not wasting any more time,” smart Katherine.

~after the doctor’s appointment~

“It seems that you’re pregnant, huh? How do you think Andy will react?” Danielle asked me as we got back in there. I was depressed. Well, not really but… I was confused. Sad. Surprised… and I kept holding my tummy. There’s something in me. IN me. Not a fucking penis but a fucking baby which won’t get out any time soon. “I… don’t know.”
Kath handed me the phone and motioned me to call Andy, also tell him about this. I’m not sure about this… Ok, I dialed his number… one beep… another beep… another beep…. “Hello?” Oh fuck. “H-Hey… it’s Christina. Can we please meet at the hotel?” I quickly said. “Woah, calm down. Sure, I’ll be there in 10. See ya,” the line said. And he hung up. The next minutes of my life were horrible.


My sis gave me a hug and asked: “Are you ok?” Does it look like I’m ok?! “Y-Yeah… let’s just go.”

~at the hotel~

“Hey! You’re here! I thought you left,” Andy said with a smile and tried to hug me but I stiffened when he did. “What’s wrong?” I looked him in the eyes and I felt such a big sin. I don’t know why. But it just felt like that. “Can we talk inside?” I asked quietly. Danielle and Katherine decided to wait outside, so Andy and I would have some privacy. Not to use it in the way where we include a bad.

We sat down on the couch and I couldn’t find a way to tell him. So many questions ran through my head. Like, what will he do? What’s he going to say? Well he leave?

He placed his hand on my leg and that sent shivers down my spine. Andy noticed and removed it. “What’s wrong? Did something happen?” I nodded and covered my face. This was too hard for me to tell him. “I… am…” “You are what?” he asked nicely, smiling at me. “I am pregnant. With your child…” I whispered. The blue eyes that were staring at me were surprised and shocked. HE got up and walked around the room, leaving loud noises while making steps. And it made me angry. “STOP! Just stop walking like that! Tell me what you’re thinking!” I yelled. “I can’t do this. I never wanted this!” No shit Sherlock, me too! “This is all your fault. This is all YOUR fault!” he yelled back. Wait, it’s my fault? “Excuse me?! Who told me to pretend we’re fucking each other and in the end we actually did it!” Ok, this was getting worse.


“Don’t blame it on me! You’re the one who didn’t have a fucking condom in your room!” Ok that’s enough. “Why the fuck would I have it?! Did I know that you were going to fuck me?! What was I? A one night stand?!” and then we froze. I didn’t regret yelling at him, and I think he didn’t either.

“Yes. You were a one night stand! And everything that happened between us was a lie! A fucking lie! I never cared for you! You’re nothing to me! And that baby will never be mine! Now go fuck your stupid husband and don’t even bother calling me. Goodbye, Christina,” he said as he slammed the door behind him.


I-I was a one night stand? H-He lied?!


Basically, I broke down on my knees and started crying my heart out. But then I thought of my baby. Then I remembered my mom. She would want me to keep the baby and be by it’s side. I know it. She’s not the kind of mom who would make her daughter a burden. I hugged my tummy again. “I will never leave you… I’ll be your mom and your dad… Kevin is not going to be there for you, I know this… and Andy will never touch you. I swear.”

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