A New Beginning
Chapter 15
I grab my purse off the table and stand up. I sigh and point to the clock. "I guess we better get going. I have to call home real quick." They sigh and stand up. "I don't want you to leave." Andy groans. "Me either." Ashley says with a pouty lip. I lean on the kitchen counter as mom picks up. "Hey mom, I'm leaving right now." I hold back my laughter as I see Ashley start to dance. There are so many things wrong with that guy. "Oh, alright honey, see you then." We say our goodbyes then I hang up. Andy stands by my side and looks down at me. "Ready?" I smile and nod my head. "Ashley why don't you come, too?" He shakes his head. "Sorry, but I just remembered I got to take care of something. It's a bit urgent." The first thing that pops into my mind of course is dirty, because I know Ashley is a pretty dirty bird. I look down at his pants and sure enough he has a boner, too! Oh my God I thinks he's going to go masturbate. "ASHLEY! Oh my Lord, the first close guy friends I get are sexually attracted to me! Calm that thing down dude!" Andy and Ashley start laughing as I stand there with my jaw practically on the ground, and my eyes bigger then an owls. "We're guys Kara, we can't help it." I roll my eyes at Ashley. "Ugh, that's a terrible excuse." I quickly walk over to him and give him a light hug. "Bye, Ashley." He smirks. "Later, Kara."
Andy and I head out the door and on to the side walk. He intertwines his fingers in mine. I look up at him, puzzled. "You know my hands are wetter than water. You probably don't want to hold my hands, it's pretty gro-" But before I can finish he kisses my hand. "I think your hands are lovely. Nothing wrong with two friends holding hands." I can see the playfulness glisten in his eyes. A soft smile spreads across his face as he looks away from me. I can feel a blush creep across my face. Wow, no ones ever said they liked my hands. Everyone I know, even my friends, have said that they're gross or abnormal. What really means a lot to me is that he hasn't let go of my hand, even though I can feel the sweat dripping. "Um, thank you. You know, you have to be one of the kindest friends I know. Even though I've only known you for a week I have a feeling we'll be the best of friends." I look over at him to catch him gazing at me. Oh wow, I didn't even notice we're here already. His eyes look so blue under the porch light. I feel as though I could just swim in them. He smiles at me. "I think we will, and should, as well. I hope you had a fun time. Sweet dreams Kara." He lets go of my hand and starts walking towards the stop sign. "Sweet dreams Andy." I call out to him. I open the door and take one last look at him. I catch him staring at me. He quickly turns away and keeps walking. I sigh with happiness. I actually have someone other than my best-friend/mother who cares about me.
I walk into the living room to see mom asleep on the couch. I knew she sounded kind of sleepy on the phone. I cover her up with a blanket from the closet and turn off all the lights in the house. As I do so I have one of my legendary Kara's thoughts on life moments. And this time I don't break out into tears thinking about life. Normally I think of life as a waste, something with no particular point. Something that only causes pain and that I should just kill myself, get the suffering over with. But tonight, I think I have a different perspective on life. But the thought only lasts a few moments. The thought is that, maybe we as humans use this lifetime in order to find ourselves. Our true beings. Before we pass into whatever life we believe we will go. Either heaven, or hell, or maybe even another life. Everyone, every person, I believe sees they're next life differently. I believe in God, so I also believe in heaven. I believe God's quest for us is to let us find our true selves before we enter his kingdom. I have random moments ware my brain feels like actually working and having very intelligent thoughts. So, to end my very intelligent thoughts I think God, or whatever others may believe in, wants us to find what real happiness is like on earth, so that we may live it as an eternity in his kingdom. Didn't think I was so smart did ya'? I have a feeling I'll find this true happiness through these new friends of mine. And maybe even through the rest of the gang. I have a feeling this is truly a new beginning for me. A new beginning for the life of Kara... That's a pretty damn good name for a book...
I turn off the TV mom was watching and head up the stairs. I open the door to my room and strip off my clothes. I slip my oh-so comfrey pajamas on and get under my warm cover. I open my purse and take out the pillow case I stole from Andy's bed when they weren't in the room. I slip it on my pillow and lay my tired head in it. I take a big sniff of it. Yep, officially turned on. I nuzzle my face into it. This is heaven. Yeah I know, I'm strange, but I don't care. I have a feeling I'll have sweet dreams tonight. And, Andy will be wondering ware one of his pillow cases is. I giggle at the thought.
Andy and I head out the door and on to the side walk. He intertwines his fingers in mine. I look up at him, puzzled. "You know my hands are wetter than water. You probably don't want to hold my hands, it's pretty gro-" But before I can finish he kisses my hand. "I think your hands are lovely. Nothing wrong with two friends holding hands." I can see the playfulness glisten in his eyes. A soft smile spreads across his face as he looks away from me. I can feel a blush creep across my face. Wow, no ones ever said they liked my hands. Everyone I know, even my friends, have said that they're gross or abnormal. What really means a lot to me is that he hasn't let go of my hand, even though I can feel the sweat dripping. "Um, thank you. You know, you have to be one of the kindest friends I know. Even though I've only known you for a week I have a feeling we'll be the best of friends." I look over at him to catch him gazing at me. Oh wow, I didn't even notice we're here already. His eyes look so blue under the porch light. I feel as though I could just swim in them. He smiles at me. "I think we will, and should, as well. I hope you had a fun time. Sweet dreams Kara." He lets go of my hand and starts walking towards the stop sign. "Sweet dreams Andy." I call out to him. I open the door and take one last look at him. I catch him staring at me. He quickly turns away and keeps walking. I sigh with happiness. I actually have someone other than my best-friend/mother who cares about me.
I walk into the living room to see mom asleep on the couch. I knew she sounded kind of sleepy on the phone. I cover her up with a blanket from the closet and turn off all the lights in the house. As I do so I have one of my legendary Kara's thoughts on life moments. And this time I don't break out into tears thinking about life. Normally I think of life as a waste, something with no particular point. Something that only causes pain and that I should just kill myself, get the suffering over with. But tonight, I think I have a different perspective on life. But the thought only lasts a few moments. The thought is that, maybe we as humans use this lifetime in order to find ourselves. Our true beings. Before we pass into whatever life we believe we will go. Either heaven, or hell, or maybe even another life. Everyone, every person, I believe sees they're next life differently. I believe in God, so I also believe in heaven. I believe God's quest for us is to let us find our true selves before we enter his kingdom. I have random moments ware my brain feels like actually working and having very intelligent thoughts. So, to end my very intelligent thoughts I think God, or whatever others may believe in, wants us to find what real happiness is like on earth, so that we may live it as an eternity in his kingdom. Didn't think I was so smart did ya'? I have a feeling I'll find this true happiness through these new friends of mine. And maybe even through the rest of the gang. I have a feeling this is truly a new beginning for me. A new beginning for the life of Kara... That's a pretty damn good name for a book...
I turn off the TV mom was watching and head up the stairs. I open the door to my room and strip off my clothes. I slip my oh-so comfrey pajamas on and get under my warm cover. I open my purse and take out the pillow case I stole from Andy's bed when they weren't in the room. I slip it on my pillow and lay my tired head in it. I take a big sniff of it. Yep, officially turned on. I nuzzle my face into it. This is heaven. Yeah I know, I'm strange, but I don't care. I have a feeling I'll have sweet dreams tonight. And, Andy will be wondering ware one of his pillow cases is. I giggle at the thought.
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3/12/14