What Not All See

Today was fantastic tonight not so much I got my room today and I hate it. I discovered that FEAR can enter my dreams. He took all my bad memories and made them worse. I woke up screaming and went back to bed. Then he said here's where you ear your life he killed Andy, Jake, Jinxx, CC, then Ashley slowly and painfully. I tried not to cry but silent sears fell hot and full of pain and misery. Hate that's all I felt I don't fear anyone or thi g fear is an illusion of the mind created by your doubts. I don't doubt myself doubt gets you and others killed. I woke up screaming bloody murder covered in sweat. I ran to the guys they were all bleeding like in my dream. I'm a dreamwalker. If u get hurt in my dreams real life it happens too idk why they aren't dead. I went to them and healed then in order of being hurt in my dream. Ashley took longer. Thats when I realized I was falling for him. I found them now I needed to run before they got hurt. Or worse, dead. Ash dead I'd die of a broken heart. I cried. He chuckled and said now what's my beautiful angel doing crying over my spilled blood hmm??? I showed him my dreams and he gasped BC my last thought slipped in there too without my permission. Or knowing at the time. He hugged me and said I was sleeping in his bed from now on. I crushed him I think I broke some ribs but he healed them. I cried and cried and cried. All the guys group hugged me till I stopped. I offered to make pancakes but Andy said he was cooking breakfast BC I was so upset about them being hurt. I hugged and kissed his cheek. Ash was mad for a sec. He realized I needed to show affection because of my family being slaughtered in front of me. He hugged me and apologized for the anger. I hugged and kissed him too but on the lips. Soft I smiled when I pulled away but he pulled me back only stopped when I was out of breath. Happy tears fell and he kissed them away.

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