“why didn't you tell him?” Andy whispered, almost everyone in the plane was asleep.
“i couldn't tell him over the phone” that was true, but i also couldn't speak the words. cause when i did, i would become real. when i said it, Luann would be really dead.
“Luann was the closest thing to a mother for us, i couldn't do it” i continued myself.
“was it the irish?” i saw the question in his eyes, not really if it where the irish, but what i was gonna do next.
“no, green had nothing to do with it, it was some porn business”
“how about revenge” he looked worried at me, and i just felt like i was broken, more than ever.
“i promised Jax to lay low” i mumbled this, more than i did whisper. somewhere it made me angry that i promised to lay low, on the Irish and this porn bastard. but somewhere, i knew it was the best thing to do.
“i think thats wise” he locked his hands around mine, and when i finally looked at him, my eyes filled themselves with tears.
“just save me from that dark place” i mumbled, my words got stuck in my tears.
“always” he pulled me into a hug.
“we’ll get out of this mess” he mumbled.

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“RAVEN! ANDY!” CC yelled as soon as he spotted us from across the hall at the airport. Ashley, Jinxx, Jake and CC stood there, well CC was waving like an idiot to catch our attention. and before we we’re even halfway through he decided it took to long and runes towards us. “how he gets all that energy?” Andy asked before he reached us.
“he makes his coffee with red bull instead of water” i joked right before CC reached us and locked my face between his hands. he stopped his face right before mine and looked closely just above my eyes. “CC what the hell you’re doing?” i asked confused. never realised how weird it was when somebody was that close to you and didn't look in your eyes, but just above them.
“counting your lashes” he answered like it was completely normal.
“counting what?”
“your lashes, shhht your distracting me”
“why are you counting her lashes”
“cause Ashley treated to kill me if she missed one of them, cause i slept through the whole you two leaving thingy”
“like you even know how many i have”
“yeah i counted them last year, at that party at the university”
“you did?”
“you said i couldn't, so i did”
“how many do i have”
“i don't remember” he said, looking like a soaked kitten. and it kinda made me laugh, CC was the one weirdest persons i had ever met.
“how are you?” Ashley interrupted CC, pushing him away.
“we should talk” i almost whispered the words, hating the fact i had to tell him this. to tell him the woman that came closest to a mother for us both was beaten to death.
“what happend?” he locked his eyes on mine, saw the tears in them.
“is Chibs alright? did something happen? was it Ope, did he kiss you again” i hated the fact Ashley always jumped to conclusions.
“Ope did nothing” i said irritated.
“you sure, cause if any guy did something, i will..”
“Its Luann Ashley” i interrupted him, there was no good way to tell him this.
“Luann?”
“she is dead” i cried during this words, it was a wonder Ashley could even understand them.
“no” i saw the disbelieve in his eyes, the tears.
“beaten to death” Andy filled me in, i couldn't say it and he knew that. i felt my brothers arms around me, supporting me to not fall down, supporting us both.

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