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A Warrior Of Youth

Chapter Thirty: "I just want to be me again"

Lissas POV

Returning home didn't shake my good mood. Seeing Tara again had given me new hope of coming home.
My mom picked me up from the airport and a smile spread across her face when she saw me.
"Hey sweetie. How was Philly?" She asked giving me a hopeful look.
"Amazing! Tara said hi. It was so good to see her again and everyone else. It almost felt like we never left" I said buckling my belt and sinking into the seat.
"Well I'm glad you had fun. You ready to back to school tomorrow?"
My face dropped when she said that. "Do I have to go? I'm miserable there! Please don't make me go!" I pleaded.
"Melissa, you're lucky we let you go to Philly for the break. Besides, you're doing so much better. No more cutting, you're eating better. I think you're fine."
I was outraged. My face was twitching from trying to hold in a scream. She thinks that those feelings just disappear?
"That's what you think? That I'm fine? That, because I've stopped physically hurting myself that I'm not hurting?! This week was the first time in a year that I have felt like myself! You're taking that away from me! Please, please, please, let me go back for senior year! I can't stay here any longer!"
"Melissa! The answer is no! We're not going back!" She shouted in my face.
I sunk down into my seat and tried to hold in tears. We were silent for the rest of the way home.
My dad greeted us at the door, but I walked right passed him, grabbing the keys to my car.
"Mel? Where are you going? What's wrong?" He asked.
"If you guys don't want to come back with me to Philly, I will go on my own. You can't say that moving here was the brightest idea dad. I hate it! That's what's wrong" I said as I walked out the front door and slamming it in their face.
I raced out to my car before they could catch me and quickly sped off around the corner to Sandra's house.
I killed the engine when I pulled up to her house and sharply knocked on the door. Sandra answered the door, looking shocked when she saw me.
"You're back! Oh my God! How was Philly?!" She said, moving out of the way to let me in.
"Philly was ammmmmaaaazing!" I said stumbling over the threshold.
"Really?"
"Really. It was like I never left. All I wanna do is move back!" I complained.
"Then move. If you're that unhappy here."
"My parents are being so fucking annoying about it! I seriously just wanna go back on my own, but I have no money!" I whined.
"I have some money..." Sandra said slowly.
"What are you saying...?"
"We could both go and get out of the hell hole! It's what you want it's what I want. We can stay together. We can be together" she said emphasizing on the be.
"...We can be together...?" I said unsure of what she meant.
Sandra gave me a nervous smile and took my hand to lead me up to her room.
"Dude...?" I trailed off, struggling to find the right words.
We reached her room and she closed the door. She stood in front of me, looking deep into my eyes. Next thing I knew he lips were on mine. Her hands grabbed mine to pull me closer and lengthen to kiss. I kissed momentarily, but my eyes snapped open when I realised what was happening.
"What the hell Sandra?!" I said pushing her away.
I could tell I had hurt her feelings, but I was too shocked to be rational.
"Well... I have been having these feelings lately and all your drama with Jake and Jinxx seemed to dull down and I felt like we were getting closer" she said reaching out to take my hand. I gently tugged my hand away and gave her a nervous smile.
"Listen Sandra. I've been through so much and I don't think this is the best idea when I know I would only hurt you. I should go" I said reaching for the door knob.
I felt Sandra's glare as I exited her room. I heard mutter something under her breath.
"What was that?" I said almost angrily.
"Bitch. You just used me. This whole time! And now you're just going to leave?!" She shouted as she came to stand in front of me again.
"I hardly used you! You were happy to be used! And this whole time I have been unhappy here, surely you could figure out that I would choose Philly over this dump any day!" I shouted back.
"You didn't even try! You were your brother before you came here" she spat.
I could hardly believe her words. She knew I hated it when people mentioned my brother like that.
"Fuck you Sandra. Fuck. You!" I said storming away from her, trying to get out of her house as fast as I could.
Exiting her house I practically ripped my car door open and slammed it shut. I felt like crying, but I was too angry.
What had I done? The one actual friend I had and I had even driven her away.
Once I had calmed myself, I slid the key in the ignition and drove back round the corner to my own house.
The walk of shame back into my house was dreadful. My parents were sitting in the kitchen, watching me as I walked through the door.
"Come back to apologise?" My mom said smugly.
"I have nothing to apologise for. You guys wanted me to tell you how I feel and that is how I feel. I hate it here. I want nothing more than to go back home" I said calmly, giving each of them eye contact. "I just want to be me again."
My parents shared a look, having a silent conversation.
"We'll think about it Mel" my dad said, giving me a small smile.
I knew that was the best I was going to get from them so I simply said thank you and went upstairs to unpack.
I threw my travel bag on my bed and just stared at it. I didn't want to unpack it, it should stay packed so I can jet off to Philly and see Tara again.
Just as her name popped into my thoughts, my phone started to ring and Tara's name came up on the caller ID. I instantly smiled.
"Hello my lovely Tara" I answered jokingly.
"Hello my lovely Lissa" she said in a posh tone. "I just wanted to check that you got home safe."
"I did. Flight was smooth. Car ride home, not so much."
"Oh no, what happened?" She said sounding worried.
"I was just saying about how much fun I was having in Philly and that I didn't want to go back to school cause I hated it. So she's all like 'oh, but you're doing so much better, you'll be fine' I'm just like, I'm not! All I want to do is go back. Then she just said straight out no" I said puffing at the end of my rant.
"Just come here. Forget your parents, you can live with me! My parents won't mind, we have a spare bedroom since my brother went to collage. So long as you try and pitch in or something, I'm sure they'll be fine with it" I could practically see her smiling.
"You think?" I said, my voice full of hope.
"Hell yeah! I miss you Boo! If I whine enough they'll let you" she said giggling at the nickname we would sometimes call each other.
"I miss you too Boo! I can't believe you would do that for me!"
"If you're that miserable there, I'm bringing you back!"
"You don't understand how happy that makes me!" I said feeling tears well in my eyes.
"Let the whining commence" she said evilly.
I just laughed at her insanity.

Notes

Okay, a couple more chapters to go. I think I know what I'm gonna do to wrap up the story.

I'm literally already thinking up another story, but for my other stories. It will be a spin off story, still featuring Ashley and Riley, but following CC and Kimber. Let me know if you read those ones as well.
I hope you have enjoyed this story!
Comment what you think!
-Tina xx

Comments

Hello everyone!
Not sure if you will read this, but here goes.
My account fucked up so I started on a new one. My stories will remain here, but Before The Angels Fell will continue on my other account 'tinamoli'
I'm so sorry about this. It is a massive in convience to us all.

tinamoli tinamoli
4/22/15

this was akwardly very expected that she would die in a car accident. the last chapter made me feel like that was gonna happen. sad tho..

WolfieSkyes WolfieSkyes
12/26/14

@Ravens tail 7
I hate endings too, but all stories must end somewhere. I know it was sad and all that shiz :P but I just thought not all stories have a happy ending. And thank you so much! I'm glad you still like it and dont hate me for killing Lissa. That was hard. I had originally thought for her to commit suicide, but then thought, what if she gets what she wants and goes home, but something as simple and common as a car crash seemed to kind of fit better with the whole being insignificant issue.

@bvbangel81
@dead_on_the_inside
I know guys. You probably hate for doing that, but yeah.. if you read above in the other reply I explain my reasons. It just fit. I really wanted to kind of show that the Gandhi quote may be true in a way, but everything you do creates a ripple effect.

@TheOutlawAndAndy!! @bvbchika
Awwwww thank you! I was getting really sad when I wrote the part where Jake finds out.. They had just declared their love for each other again and the most horrific accident happens. I'm glad you like my last bit. I wanted to contradict the Gandhi quote cause not everything is insignificant.

It's weird when all you guys say I'm a good writer. I just get ideas. I don't know how or why, I just do. This is just a creative outlet for me that I love to do.
You guys can read my other stories if you haven't already.. My next story will be a spin off about CC and Kimber.... Already have ideas for them hahah
Thank you so much for commenting guys! I was freaking out when I saw 7 new comments and reading them makes me so happy! So literally, thank you so fucking much! I love you guys :) <3


tina tina
12/13/14

Crying because this ending is so good!!!!! holy crap you are an amazing writer

bvbchika bvbchika
12/13/14

Brought tears to my eyes.. The last sentence.. That was beautiful..