A Warrior Of Youth
Chapter Twenty Four: Flirtationship
Lissas POV
I was crying by the time I reached the car. I knew this wouldn't go down well, but... That went horribly.
I climbed in my car and just sat there. I couldn't think, I couldn't breathe. All I wanted to do was cut. My fingers were twitching, I needed the release, but I didn't have my razor on me.
I started scratching my wrists, trying to mimic the effects of a blade, with little success.
Once I had made both my wrists raw I grabbed my phone and quickly dialed Jinxx's number.
He answered on the third ring.
"Hello?"
"Hey Jinxx, are you home?" I asked sniffling.
"Yeah, what's up?"
"Do you mind if I come over for a bit? I really need to talk to someone" I said still scratching at my wrist.
"Sure, of course."
"Thanks. I'll be there in a few minutes" I said hanging up and starting my car.
As soon as Jinxx opened the front door I threw my arms around him.
"Hey Liss, what's up?" He asked with concern in his voice.
"Jake dumped me" I said simply.
"What?! Why?!" He demanded, almost angry.
"I'll tell you inside" I said letting go of him and walking through his house to his bedroom.
I climbed onto his bed as he shut the door and he joined me.
"Okay, what happened between you too? You guys were fine the other day."
"We were. It was something that happened recently" I said stalling.
"Well spill it."
"You have to promise me you won't say anything. Not that it will matter cause who knows what Jake will do."
"I promise. This is just between you and me."
I sigh deeply and closed my eyes as the words escaped my lips.
"I'm pregnant."
When Jinxx didn't reply right away I opened my eyes to see him staring at me.
"Jinxx, baby, please say something" I said starting to choke up again.
Jinxx snapped out of his daze and focused on me. His face soften as he just came closer to me and wrapped his arms around me.
"It's okay. I'm here for you" he said simply.
I relaxed into his arms and just let him hold me. "Thanks Jinxx."
"So what are you going to do?" He asked.
"Probably get an abortion. I even said to Jake that I would, but he lashed out at me and was all like, I'll kill it if you don't."
"Really?! Is that why you have a red mark on your face?!"
"Yeah... Jake kind of slapped me."
I felt Jinxx's arms tighten around me and kissed my forehead. "I won't let him hurt you."
"Will you drive me to the clinic when I make the appointment? I'm not meant to drive myself."
"Of course Liss. Anything you need, I'm here."
Whenever me and Jinxx got like this, it always made me grateful to have him as a friend. The kiss we shared many months ago didn't happen again, but the attraction was there. We just clicked in a different way than me and Jake did.
"Liss, you don't still cut do you?" I heard Jinxx say.
I was completely distracted in my thoughts that I didn't realise that Jinxx's hand had traveled under the waistband of my jeans and was touching my cuts.
"Umm, I thought we weren't going to bring this up."
"Lissa!"
"Look, I don't do it as much. Majority of the scars have healed."
"Promise me you won't cut" Jinxx said sitting up so he could see my face.
"I can't promise that. With everything happening right now, I-I can't. I just can't."
Jinxx's clear blue eyes seemed to melt into mine as he lied down again.
"No more cutting" he whispered. I felt his breath on the back of my neck and it made me shiver. He was making it really hard to not just turn around and kiss him.
I knew it was wrong, but I hadn't planned for Jake to react that way and break up with me. Otherwise I would be with him, but Jinxx. Jinxx was here and I knew he liked me and I liked him. Our friendship was more like a flirtationship.
I felt his hand start gently caressing my side. Over my shoulder, across my ribs and resting on my hip bone. I felt his lips press against the back of my neck, which sent shivers through my body.
"Jinxx..."
"Yes" he said against my skin.
"As much as I would like this to continue, we know we can't" I said sitting up.
"Well you know I'm always here for you. No matter what you need."
I smiled at him and gently kissed his lips. "I better go. I need to make this appointment without my parents knowing, so this will be interesting."
"Okay, well text me if you need anything. Don't you dare start cutting" he said sitting up as well.
"I will" I said hugging him.
I let go of him and made my way out to my car. I couldn't help think about what would happen at school tomorrow. If Jake had gone around and told everyone or if he kept quiet and pretended that we never happened. Either way, I had a bad feeling.
Notes
Short, fillierish chapter... I haven't had a shit tone of time to write, but I'll try and get more in :)
please comment guys!!
-Tina xx
Hello everyone!
Not sure if you will read this, but here goes.
My account fucked up so I started on a new one. My stories will remain here, but Before The Angels Fell will continue on my other account 'tinamoli'
I'm so sorry about this. It is a massive in convience to us all.
4/22/15