A Warrior Of Youth
Chapter Twenty Three: Late
Lissas POV
I was never late. Not ever.
But nothing.
All month I had been waiting for it to be that time, but I was still waiting.
I knew I would get it around the middle of the month cause I got it two weeks before new years. It was nearly the end of January and I was starting to worry.
I had just dropped Sandra off home and decided I would go to a drug store and get a pregnancy test.
Pregnancy test.
I hated those words. They were the words that put everyone on edge.
I hadn't told Jake about my concerns. I didn't want to worry him if it was a false alarm and my body was just fucking with me. I know if you get underweight your cycle fucks up, but better to just rule this out.
I awkwardly searched for the maternity aisle and grabbed the first pregnancy test I could find.
I was hesitant to go up to the counter. An older man in his forties was serving and I knew he would judge me for buying one.
I swallowed my pride and placed the box on the counter.
"Hi, just that today?" he asked politely.
"Yep" I said immediately back.
I noticed him look up at me and narrow his eyes. I awkwardly smiled and gave him the money and left. Not bothering to wait for my change.
I hid the box in my backpack and headed home.
As I drove I started to panic. What if it was positive? What was I going to do? I couldn't keep it. God no. Should I tell Jake? I'd have to. He'll surely be supportive and help me... Get rid of it I mean. I was 17 for crying out loud. I was not going to mother a child. Not with the way I am at the moment. I barely eat everything I need to, I cut on a regular basis and people beat me up almost all the time. Yeah, not a great environment for a growing baby.
When I got home I raced for the bathroom, ignoring my parents. Not that they cared anymore. This was almost my daily routine. Get home and go to my room.
I locked the bathroom door and ripped the box open.
I had never been so nervous in my life.
A grueling ten minutes later, I finally got the courage to look at the result.
I covered the result with my finger and brought into my bedroom. I was sweating bullets. Hopefully this wouldn't change anything.
I took a deep breath and removed my finger.
Jakes POV
I was softly playing my guitar when my phone buzz in my pocket. Lissa's picture showed up on the caller ID and I pressed talk.
"Hey Liss."
"Jake! I need to come over right now! I need to talk to you!" She said in hysterics. Like she was on the verge of crying.
"Liss, whats wrong? Why do you need to come over?"
"I can't tell you this over the phone" she said nervously.
"Okay. Come over."
"See you soon" then the line went dead.
When she arrived she went straight up to my bedroom, only saying a quick hello to my parents.
"Lock the door" she instructed as she walked in. Her faced was composed, but I could see worry in her eyes.
"Okay, what is so important that you couldn't tell me over the phone?" I asked, taking her in my arms.
"I'm late" she choked out.
It took me a minute to fully register what she said. What did she mean she was late... Late for what?
Then it clicked.
Realisation covered my face and I backed away from her. I couldn't say anything. I felt so many mixed emotions. I was angry, so angry. How the fuck could this have happened?!
I ran my fingers through my hair, wanting to pull it out in frustration.
"Jake, please say something" she said trying not to cry.
"How could you have let this happen?!" I said angrily.
Her eyes scanned my face, looking for any sign of comfort that I was not giving.
"I thought you could be more understanding. Things like this happen. I swear, I'm not keeping it!" She almost yelled. Her eyes now filling with tears.
"You're damn fucking right you're not keeping it! I'll kill it before that happens!" I yelled back.
She looked shocked. I realised the harshness of my words and tried to soften my face.
"Liss, I'm sorry, that was out of line."
Her eyes were ice blue with fear. Her hands were covering her mouth as she leaned against the wall.
I slowly walked towards her, but she moved away from me.
"Don't come near me!" She said holding her palms up towards me.
"Liss, I said I'm sorry" I pleaded.
"You just threatened to kill your child while it was still inside me. Did you not think about hurting me?! Do I mean anything to you?! I said I would get rid of it, but no! You had to take it that step further!" She fumed as she walked around my room. "You're just like the others" she muttered.
"Excuse me?! 'I'm just like the others' am I? Who gave up everything to be friends with you?! Who gets beat up by my former friends?! Who broke up with their girlfriend to be with you?!" I yelled.
"NO ONE ASKED YOU TO!" She screamed in my face.
My fists were clenching and unclenching. My anger was taking over. Before I knew it, my palm was colliding with her face, forcing her to stumble back and fall to the floor.
She looked up at me, gently touching her lip where a recent cut had reopened and started bleeding.
"Congratulations. You get your life back" she said getting up and unlocking my bedroom door.
"Where do you think you're going?!" I said as I followed her out of my room and downstairs.
"Why do you care?! It doesn't matter anymore! Go rejoin the fuckheads you call friends!" She yelled as she walked out the front door.
My parents were nearby and overheard the last bit of our conversation.
"Whats going on Jake? Why are you guys yelling?" My mom asked.
"Looks like we just broke up" I said with no emotion.
My mom didn't say anything further so I just went back upstairs. I wasn't sure how I felt about any of this. For the time being, I was completely numb.
Notes
Ohhh, twist..
What will happen now?
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-Tina xx
Hello everyone!
Not sure if you will read this, but here goes.
My account fucked up so I started on a new one. My stories will remain here, but Before The Angels Fell will continue on my other account 'tinamoli'
I'm so sorry about this. It is a massive in convience to us all.
4/22/15