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A Warrior Of Youth

Chapter Thirteen: Just lie

Lissas POV

I sat in the front office waiting for the counselor to be ready for me.
I couldn't get everyone's faces out of my head. Jake and Scout's shock. Sandra's sorrow. Mr Evans horror. It's like they didn't believe this happened...
"Lissa, you can come in now" the counselor said from the doorway.
She looked to be in her mid forties, with light brown hair and wearing slacks and purple shirt.
She sat behind her desk and I hesitantly took a chair in front of her.
"Lissa, Mr Evans told me that you purge yourself. Why's that?" She asked curiously.
"Because I feel sick whenever I eat."
"When did this start?"
"Ummm..." I was gonna say when I became friends with Jake, but that would cause me to spill a whole bunch of other stuff. "When I moved here. It's just not the same" I said morbidly. Hopefully she would buy it.
"Do you think this is a reaction to your brother committing suicide?" She asked calmly.
My eyes widened at the question. "This has nothing to do with him. I never wanted to move here. I'm miserable, I've made other peoples lives miserable. It would be better if I weren't here."
"How have you made other peoples lives miserable?" She asked raising an eyebrow.
Shit... I shouldn't have let that slip. Just lie.
"I can tell people don't like me, but I'm fine with it cause I don't plan on hanging around."
She was silent for a moment taking in my words. I spoke again before she could respond.
"Look umm, I've got to get back to class, I don't need to be here" I said getting up and walking out before she could protest.
I hated counselors. My parents wanted me to see one back home, but I refused. If I talked about it like it was nothing, my guilt would over take me.
I started to walk back towards my music class when I saw Andy and Ashley in the student parking lot. Andy's face looked a little bruised, but nothing compared to me.
I stormed up to them, not exactly sure why.
"Well look what the emo coughed up" Ashley said mockingly.
"Back for round two? You make it too easy, with you not eating and all. Your bones will be easier to break" Andy said, blowing smoke from his cigarette.
"Oh shut up!" I yelled, already regretting this decision. "I didn't lie for you! I lied because you didn't need another reason to beat up Jake. That's all I wanted you to know" I said turning away from them.
"But you didn't lie. Not really anyways" Andy called.
"I had to! Your fucking girlfriend blurted it out to everyone. I had to go along with it!"
"But it's true. You do purge yourself. I know it when I see it" he said flicking some ash towards me.
"Trust me. I don't" I said lying about the lie. This was going to get complicated if I wasn't careful.
"Say what you want sweetheart! I know the truth! And maybe you should tell Jake, before I do" he said evilly as I turned away from them.
I continued walking away from them. I couldn't give into the thought. I would stick to the lie, Jake wouldn't believe Andy anyways.
By now my music class would have ended and biology would have started. Might as well go. Jake will probably want an explanation.

Jakes POV


Where the hell was she? There was no away she was still with the counselor.
The next moment, Lissa walked in, slightly out of breath.
"Nice of you to join us miss Harper" Mr Tucker said sarcastically.
Lissa just waved him off and sat down next to me.
"What took you so long? I've been worried about you" I said quietly.
"I'm fine. You know Scout was lying right? I don't really do that. It was just an easy excuse."
"Are you sure? Cause for some reason I don't believe you" I said, not exactly sure what I believed.
"Jake, I'm fine. You have nothing to worry about. Scout shouldn't give me any problems since I didn't rat out her boyfriend and neither should Andy."
"I'd hope not"
We sat quietly for the rest of the class, listening to Mr Tucker rant about different kinds of cells. The final bell rung and I decided to walk Lissa to her locker.
"You don't have to walk me" she whined.
"Yeah, I do. It seems to be the source of all your problems. One day I'm going to find you in your locker."
"Yeah probably" she giggled.
Afterwards, we headed out for the parking lot and as we walked our arms touched and I so badly just wanted to hold her hand.
So many feelings flooded over me when I was with her. The need to protect her and care for her. I wanted to be with her all the time. I couldn't understand why though. She had turned my life upside down, but I still wanted to be with her.
We reach her car and I couldn't stop myself.
"Liss..." I said gently touching her face with one hand and placing the other on her waist.
Our lips almost touched, but not yet. Her eyes were filled with worry, but I knew she wanted this too.
I pressed my lips to hers and kissed her gently. I felt her melt into me a little, but to tense up again when we heard Ella's voice.
"You fucking dickhead!" She said then stormed off. She must have been walking past and saw us.
Lissa's face went sad as she opened her car door and threw her bag in.
"Whats wrong?" I said trying to calm her.
"Jake, you know what this means right?"
"So what? They hated us anyways" I said knowing what she meant.
"Jake, it'll get worse now. Ella will make Andy treat you the way he treats me and Sandra. I can't have that. I never wanted anyone to get hurt in all this. This is all my fault!" She said as her eyes glazed over.
"Hey, shh, it's not! Everything's going to be okay" I said hugging her head to my chest. Her arms wrapped around my waist tightly. I didn't want to let her go.

Lissas POV

Later that night I was pacing in my room, trying to figure out everything that had happened today.
This was getting too much, how was I meant to deal with this? I felt like screaming. I needed some kind of outlet otherwise my mind would explode.
My thoughts went to the razor blade I had.
No. I couldn't. That wasn't going to help me.
Would it?

Notes

Keep up the comments! Let me know what you think! Hope you're liking it :)
-Tina xx

Comments

Hello everyone!
Not sure if you will read this, but here goes.
My account fucked up so I started on a new one. My stories will remain here, but Before The Angels Fell will continue on my other account 'tinamoli'
I'm so sorry about this. It is a massive in convience to us all.

tinamoli tinamoli
4/22/15

this was akwardly very expected that she would die in a car accident. the last chapter made me feel like that was gonna happen. sad tho..

WolfieSkyes WolfieSkyes
12/26/14

@Ravens tail 7
I hate endings too, but all stories must end somewhere. I know it was sad and all that shiz :P but I just thought not all stories have a happy ending. And thank you so much! I'm glad you still like it and dont hate me for killing Lissa. That was hard. I had originally thought for her to commit suicide, but then thought, what if she gets what she wants and goes home, but something as simple and common as a car crash seemed to kind of fit better with the whole being insignificant issue.

@bvbangel81
@dead_on_the_inside
I know guys. You probably hate for doing that, but yeah.. if you read above in the other reply I explain my reasons. It just fit. I really wanted to kind of show that the Gandhi quote may be true in a way, but everything you do creates a ripple effect.

@TheOutlawAndAndy!! @bvbchika
Awwwww thank you! I was getting really sad when I wrote the part where Jake finds out.. They had just declared their love for each other again and the most horrific accident happens. I'm glad you like my last bit. I wanted to contradict the Gandhi quote cause not everything is insignificant.

It's weird when all you guys say I'm a good writer. I just get ideas. I don't know how or why, I just do. This is just a creative outlet for me that I love to do.
You guys can read my other stories if you haven't already.. My next story will be a spin off about CC and Kimber.... Already have ideas for them hahah
Thank you so much for commenting guys! I was freaking out when I saw 7 new comments and reading them makes me so happy! So literally, thank you so fucking much! I love you guys :) <3


tina tina
12/13/14

Crying because this ending is so good!!!!! holy crap you are an amazing writer

bvbchika bvbchika
12/13/14

Brought tears to my eyes.. The last sentence.. That was beautiful..