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Courtney's POV:

As we neared my house, I explained everything to Andy, going over the parts about Xavier multiple times even though I strongly wanted to erase the memory from my mind forever. Andy remained calm and intently listened throughout my tale, and offered me lines of comfort and small gestures of kindness whenever I got to a especially tough part. His jaw remained clenched and his eyes hard as I quickly went over the few times he touched me, and I actually felt bad for Xavier, considering the state Andy was in, and it was obvious he was trying his hardest to control his emotions.

When we reached Ash's house, I desperately wanted to rush out of the vehicle, and fling myself into familiar territory, but my body wasn't as quick as my mind at the moment and still sore from my distance of running. So I gave Andy a pleading look, which he immediately understood, and he dashed over to my side, opening the car door, and he swept me gently into his strong arms. He then carefully walked towards the front door, while I grasped onto his shirt, burying my head into his chest. He was my rock right now, the only thing I felt that was holding me together at the moment.

When we entered my house we were greeted by my family, all who were pacing about the room while Ash threatened to pull his hair out, which he would complain about later. But when Andy walked in, or rather knocked, they all jumped up, rushing to greet me. They swarmed around me hugging me and comforting me, checking me for signs of damage, which there were.

Andy set me down gently on my swollen and bloody feet, setting a comforting hand on my shoulder, more for stability than anything else. I scanned the small group and locked my bloodshot eyes with my brother's, whose appearance wasn't far off my own, and then I collapsed into his arms, heaving and sobbing into his shirt. He soothed me and helped me to the couch, where I sat down, curling myself into a little ball as they asked me questions, and I answered. Andy helped me during hard parts, like the parts where he angrily explained how Xavier had touched me and forced me against a tree. They all were furious but none showed it as much as my brother and Andy.

Sammi was there, and at some point int eh night, she led me away from the fuming group of men, and helped me undress and bathe. She then helped me into my bed, soothing me even more with her kindness, then the guys came up, and surrounded my bed.

Ash dropped to his knees beside my bed, telling me how he was so sorry I went through that, how he was sorry for our argument earlier, and how he was going to discuss things with the police. Then he and the others went on to comfort me, but all I really wanted was to sleep off this catastrophic night.

Eventually, everyone retired from my room, all except my brother and saviour. Ashley kissed my forehead, saying that they'd be downstairs if I needed anything, and that Sammi was staying over too. Then he too left, leaving me and Andy alone.

He sighed and sat down beside me, running a hand through his messy hair, which I ached to smooth out.

"that was a really stupid thing you did there."

I snap my attention away from his soft hair and focus on his dark gaze, "excuse me? Whatever do yo mean by that Biersack?" I spit back making him smile slightly.

"There's the Courtney we all know and love. Not this quiet, shy person. But yeah, what you did was so stupid I'm tempted to yell at you for it. But I'm too happy that you're safe to care about it for the moment. Just never pull a stunt like that gain, and I mean it."

I sigh and cross my arms over my chest, "I didn't expect to almost get raped and kidnapped you know?" He flinches at that but I go on, "I was looking for an escape rout, and I needed a distraction from my protective brother. I'm a fucking teenage girl, I'm supposed to rebel."

"I was a teenager you know, i know that. But leaving because of an argument with your brother... not a reason to scare the living shit out of everyone that cares about you. Not cool."

"Nobody cares about me, I'm simply a liability, a promise to keep, nothing important." I state flatly, sinking into my bed.

Andy grabs my wrists and pulls my forwards so that I'm forced to look into his ocean-like eyes. His grip on my marked wrists hurts, but I choose to ignore the pain.

"Don't you dare say that Courtney. That's not true, so many people love you, so many people. Ash, your grandparents, Jake, Jinxx, CC, Sammi, me. We all do. So don't you dare do anything like that again, because we can't lose you, I can't lose you." He finishes slowly, leaning in.

I don't know where he's going with this, but I ignore it as well. I lie back down on my bed, turning away from him as tears build in my eyes. He's wrong, nobody gives a damn about me, they're just lying, trying to trick me into thinking that people care. It's happened before. It will happen again.

Andy sighs and stands up, kissing my forehead, he walks towards me door, and shuts the lights off.

I think he's gone and I let out my sobs and I cry into my pillow, my dark hair covering my face.

Then I hear a voice, "why can't you see how much I care about you?" So softly I'm not even sure I heard it.

Notes

So MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY HANUKKAH, HAPPY KWANZAA and every other holiday that you may celebrate!!

Sorry for my absence over the week, I had the flu, and was out of commission for a little, but now I"M BACK!!!

So what'd you think of the chappie?? Like? Not like?
I LOVED writing it, and yeah, hopefully another chapter in the works as we speak.

On a side note, I just want to say that to anyone currently feeling alone, or unwanted, I understand. I used to say to my friend that people care about them , and it may be true, but having gone through what I did, I can safely say that there are times where you feel like nobody cares at all. And I hope that you all get through it, because I believe in you all.

also I want to say, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADNY!!!!!