The Wretched And Divine
Hearts Race The Moment Gone
ALEX'S POV
I smiled to myself as i reminisced on the events that took place this evening the entire car ride home. Dinner must have cost Andy a lot of money and the necklace he gave me was stunning. Even though i already knew, tonight proved to me just how much Andy loves me. His speech played throughout my head over and over again, a blush never leaving my face. I smiled one last time as Andy's car pulled into the driveway. We got out simultaneously, interlocking our fingers. Once he opened the front door, i tossed my heels to the side.
"Hey guys! How was the date?" Jinxx greeted as we walked into the living room where the four were sat. I scanned the group, my eyes lingering over Ashley the longest. He was the only one that wasn't grinning madly. Sure, he had a smile on his face, but it's obvious that it was forced.
I suddenly felt guilt wash over me. Just this afternoon i was making out with my boyfriend's best friend. My entire demeanor changed in a matter of seconds. I was no longer radiating excitement, the smile on my face turning into a slight frown.
"Great, couldn't have gone better." Andy beamed. We left the doorway of the living room and sat down on the love seat. I started fiddling with the hem of my dress, contemplating whether or not to tell Andy. I couldn't bring myself to keep this a secret, it's already tearing me apart!
"Come on! Tell us all about it!" CC exclaimed. I would have giggled at CC's overenthusiastic behaviour, but i was way to stressed out to enjoy anything right now.
"You wanna tell them?" Andy asked me, a happy grin on his face. That i was about to ruin...
"No, you can." I mumbled.
Andy just got done explaining our entire date, not leaving one single detail out. Jinxx and Jake smiled happily but remained quiet while CC couldn't stop letting out aw's. Ashley's expression remained blank, his eyes flickering over to me constantly. Of course, when Andy would look over to him he'd act like he was interested and happy but in reality, i knew he wasn't. I mean, how can you be? Knowing you made out with your best friend's mate isn't something to be happy about. Considering both Ash and i regret it, we were the complete opposite of happy. It's definite that Ashley's thinking about the same thing that i am.
~"You can't tell Andy."
My eyes widened at the sudden voice in my head. But i knew who that was... Ashley.
~"I have to Ashley! I can't lie to him! He's my mate and i love him, and nothing is going to stop me."
~"Don't. It'll hurt him. Do you want that?"
~"It will hurt him worse finding out in the future and knowing we kept it from him all that time! What's gonna stop him from thinking we had a relationship behind his back?"
It was silent for a few moments, meaning i was right. As much as i wanted to forget the kiss ever happened, i owed it to Andy. He's was always honest with me and now i have to be honest with him. Even if it does end badly... Oh please God, don't let it end badly.
~"Just....Don't."
I shook my head slightly, the only one to take notice being Ash. The other four were too engrossed in a conversation about the date to notice. I looked up at Ashley and saw his almost pleading expression. He didn't bother invading my thoughts again, his face said enough. With a big deep breathe, i slowly rose from my seat. The conversation stopped. All eyes were now on me.
"I have to confess something..."
I smiled to myself as i reminisced on the events that took place this evening the entire car ride home. Dinner must have cost Andy a lot of money and the necklace he gave me was stunning. Even though i already knew, tonight proved to me just how much Andy loves me. His speech played throughout my head over and over again, a blush never leaving my face. I smiled one last time as Andy's car pulled into the driveway. We got out simultaneously, interlocking our fingers. Once he opened the front door, i tossed my heels to the side.
"Hey guys! How was the date?" Jinxx greeted as we walked into the living room where the four were sat. I scanned the group, my eyes lingering over Ashley the longest. He was the only one that wasn't grinning madly. Sure, he had a smile on his face, but it's obvious that it was forced.
I suddenly felt guilt wash over me. Just this afternoon i was making out with my boyfriend's best friend. My entire demeanor changed in a matter of seconds. I was no longer radiating excitement, the smile on my face turning into a slight frown.
"Great, couldn't have gone better." Andy beamed. We left the doorway of the living room and sat down on the love seat. I started fiddling with the hem of my dress, contemplating whether or not to tell Andy. I couldn't bring myself to keep this a secret, it's already tearing me apart!
"Come on! Tell us all about it!" CC exclaimed. I would have giggled at CC's overenthusiastic behaviour, but i was way to stressed out to enjoy anything right now.
"You wanna tell them?" Andy asked me, a happy grin on his face. That i was about to ruin...
"No, you can." I mumbled.
Andy just got done explaining our entire date, not leaving one single detail out. Jinxx and Jake smiled happily but remained quiet while CC couldn't stop letting out aw's. Ashley's expression remained blank, his eyes flickering over to me constantly. Of course, when Andy would look over to him he'd act like he was interested and happy but in reality, i knew he wasn't. I mean, how can you be? Knowing you made out with your best friend's mate isn't something to be happy about. Considering both Ash and i regret it, we were the complete opposite of happy. It's definite that Ashley's thinking about the same thing that i am.
~"You can't tell Andy."
My eyes widened at the sudden voice in my head. But i knew who that was... Ashley.
~"I have to Ashley! I can't lie to him! He's my mate and i love him, and nothing is going to stop me."
~"Don't. It'll hurt him. Do you want that?"
~"It will hurt him worse finding out in the future and knowing we kept it from him all that time! What's gonna stop him from thinking we had a relationship behind his back?"
It was silent for a few moments, meaning i was right. As much as i wanted to forget the kiss ever happened, i owed it to Andy. He's was always honest with me and now i have to be honest with him. Even if it does end badly... Oh please God, don't let it end badly.
~"Just....Don't."
I shook my head slightly, the only one to take notice being Ash. The other four were too engrossed in a conversation about the date to notice. I looked up at Ashley and saw his almost pleading expression. He didn't bother invading my thoughts again, his face said enough. With a big deep breathe, i slowly rose from my seat. The conversation stopped. All eyes were now on me.
"I have to confess something..."
@Red Phoenix77 i wrote this back when i was about 13 (im 18 now) but i assume that my thought process was that vampires weren't undead, they were very much alive. also, i was very inexperienced when writing this story so i didn't put too much thought into things. maybe i'll re-write it one day! :)
9/20/17