The Wretched And Divine
Your Burdens Lifted
ALEX'S POV
The school day came to an end fairly quickly, to my liking. I gathered my things with Andy at my side before exiting the building and going to his car. The guys were standing around it talking, and when we approached, they stopped as if to keep it a secret. Do they not want us to hear? I mentally shrugged it off, not really caring what they had to say anyways.
"So what are we doing today?" I asked, curiously.
"We're all going to my house. So get in." I nodded and waited for Ashley to get in the passangers seat so i could sit on his lap, as usual. He wrapped his arms around me, but only because the seatbelt wouldn't fit around us both.
We arrived at Andy's house soon after and all piled out of the car. His parents weren't home so we decided to just chill in their massive living room.
"Babe, you hungry?" Andy asked. I felt my heart race pick up and shook my head rapidly.
"No." I spat out.
"You sure? You haven't eaten all day."
"Actually Andy, the guys and i wanna talk to you and Lex about something." Ashley spoke up. My face twisted in confusion, along with Andy's.
"Shoot." Andy said.
"Well, we wanted to voice a concern of ours." Ashley started before sighing. "We've all noticed how we haven't seen Alex eat once since we've known her. It worries us because she's looking extremely skinny. We don't want her getting sick from lack of nutrition." I let my mouth drop open slightly as tears threatened to spill from my eyes.
"Baby, is this true?" Andy asked with a saddened expression on his face. All eyes were on me now, and i couldn't help the rage that bubbled up inside me.
"How dare you embarrass me in front of everyone, Ashley!" I pointed at Ashley. "It's my body, i can do whatever the fuck i want with it so just butt out!" I shouted as tears streamed down my face. I don't know why i yelled at him. I guess i was just embarrassed that everyone, especially Andy, now knew my biggest secret. And he didn't even come to me first!
"Lex, i'm just worried about you. I don't want you killing yourself!" He argued, standing up as well.
"WELL MAYBE I DO!" I screamed. I heard gasps come from all around me as i fell to the ground as a sob racked through my body.
"I do.." I whispered between sobs. I felt a pair of strong yet delicate arms wrap around me and automatically knew it was Andy. He pulled me onto his lap and rocked me. I looked up to see the guys with stunned expressions on their faces. CC's eyes were filled with tears and Ashley actually had some slipping down his face. I slowly looked up, and what i saw shattered my heart into a million pieces. Andy had tears pouring down his face, almost as bad as me.
"Y-you wanna k-kill yourself?" Andy asked with a shaky voice that was slightly drowned out by his sobs. I looked up at him and nodded before burrying my face into his chest and crying/screaming. Andy pulled me so i was facing him.
"Please don't ever kill yourself. I love you so much, i don't know what i'd do without you. I wouldn't be able to live without you. If you kill yourself, then i'm coming with you 'cause my world is nothing without you in it. Promise?" Andy's words shot through me like bullets. Was he serious about commiting suicide if did? I couldn't imagine putting Andy through that kind of pain.
"P-promise.." I said shakily. I felt grief wash through and quickly turned around to see Ashley's saddened and tear stained face.
"Ashy...I'm so fucking sorry for snapping at you. Do you hate me?" I asked, crying a little harder out of fear that he might hate me now. God i'm so stupid!
"It's okay, love. You don't need to apologize. I don't hate you! I could never hate you!" His reassuring words stopped the ongoing flow of tears and put a slight smile on my face.
"Will you try to get better?" CC asked, hopefully. I sighed, knowing it was going to be extremely hard to eat a regular 3 meals a day without wanting to throw it all up. But, i know i have 5 amazing guys to help me get through it. I nodded, smiling.
"If you guys help me."
"Of course we will!" Jake announced, smiling.
"Babe?" Andy asked. I turned around to face him, again. Hmming in response.
"Do you make yourself throw up?" He asked with concern in his voice and worry on his face.
"I'm sorry.." I apologized before crying again, but not as hard. Andy wrapped his arms around me once again.
"Don't worry, we're gonna get through this together. You're not alone, okay? We'll brave this storm." I nodded, smiling.
I love you guys, sooo much." I said while getting up. I was squished in between a vampire sandwhich and i could barely breathe.
"We love you too!" The guys shouted in unison causing a wave of laughter to crash throughout the room. When they pulled away to let me breathe, an idea came to my head.
"Movie night?" I questioned, grinning? The guys cheered in response.
Movie night was a blast, as usual. I found myself thinking more about how lucky i was to have these guys in my life, than actually watching the movie.
"Need to borrow some clothes?" Andy asked, as we got ready for bed.
"Yes please!" He handed me a pair of boxers and a black tank top. Andy stripped down into his breifs, causing a blush to make its way onto my face before starting to turn his back to me.
"Wait! You don't have to turn around."
"You sure?" He asked, turning back to face me. I nodded before slowly sliding off my shirt and shorts. The entire time i was taking my clothes off, Andy was taking in the new sight. He licked his lips seductively before walking over to me and gently pushing me onto the bed.
Andy got on top of me and crashed his lips to mine. I was a little shocked at first, but soon responded. A moan escaped my lips when he squeezed my butt, allowing Andy to slip his tongue into my mouth. We explored each others mouths for a while before he started to attack my neck with kisses. He rubbed himself up against me, creating sweet friction. Between the kisses and the "grinding", Andy left me a moaning mess.
"A-andy." I moaned. His hand drifted down my stomach, leading to my panties. As much as i was enjoying this, i didn't want to go any further. I just wasn't ready yet. I grabbed his hand and pulled it back up. i put my hands on his upper chest and gently pushed him up from my neck.
"I'm not ready.. Sorry." I apologized.
"It's alright, i'm not rushing you." He said with a slight laugh. "I just couldn't help myself you look so sexy in your underwear." I saw the lust in his eyes and it made a blush creep it's way onto my face.
"T-thanks." I said before yawning.
"Lets go to bed." Andy announced before rolling off me and pulling the covers over us. I was a little confused as to why he left us both in our underwear but my sleepiness pushed that thought to the back of my mind.
"I love you, beautiful. You're gonna get better. I promise." He said before giving me one more gentle kiss on the lips and wrapping his arm around me.
"I know i am. And i love you too." I thought about how lucky i am to have this man in my life until i drifted into a peaceful sleep.
The school day came to an end fairly quickly, to my liking. I gathered my things with Andy at my side before exiting the building and going to his car. The guys were standing around it talking, and when we approached, they stopped as if to keep it a secret. Do they not want us to hear? I mentally shrugged it off, not really caring what they had to say anyways.
"So what are we doing today?" I asked, curiously.
"We're all going to my house. So get in." I nodded and waited for Ashley to get in the passangers seat so i could sit on his lap, as usual. He wrapped his arms around me, but only because the seatbelt wouldn't fit around us both.
We arrived at Andy's house soon after and all piled out of the car. His parents weren't home so we decided to just chill in their massive living room.
"Babe, you hungry?" Andy asked. I felt my heart race pick up and shook my head rapidly.
"No." I spat out.
"You sure? You haven't eaten all day."
"Actually Andy, the guys and i wanna talk to you and Lex about something." Ashley spoke up. My face twisted in confusion, along with Andy's.
"Shoot." Andy said.
"Well, we wanted to voice a concern of ours." Ashley started before sighing. "We've all noticed how we haven't seen Alex eat once since we've known her. It worries us because she's looking extremely skinny. We don't want her getting sick from lack of nutrition." I let my mouth drop open slightly as tears threatened to spill from my eyes.
"Baby, is this true?" Andy asked with a saddened expression on his face. All eyes were on me now, and i couldn't help the rage that bubbled up inside me.
"How dare you embarrass me in front of everyone, Ashley!" I pointed at Ashley. "It's my body, i can do whatever the fuck i want with it so just butt out!" I shouted as tears streamed down my face. I don't know why i yelled at him. I guess i was just embarrassed that everyone, especially Andy, now knew my biggest secret. And he didn't even come to me first!
"Lex, i'm just worried about you. I don't want you killing yourself!" He argued, standing up as well.
"WELL MAYBE I DO!" I screamed. I heard gasps come from all around me as i fell to the ground as a sob racked through my body.
"I do.." I whispered between sobs. I felt a pair of strong yet delicate arms wrap around me and automatically knew it was Andy. He pulled me onto his lap and rocked me. I looked up to see the guys with stunned expressions on their faces. CC's eyes were filled with tears and Ashley actually had some slipping down his face. I slowly looked up, and what i saw shattered my heart into a million pieces. Andy had tears pouring down his face, almost as bad as me.
"Y-you wanna k-kill yourself?" Andy asked with a shaky voice that was slightly drowned out by his sobs. I looked up at him and nodded before burrying my face into his chest and crying/screaming. Andy pulled me so i was facing him.
"Please don't ever kill yourself. I love you so much, i don't know what i'd do without you. I wouldn't be able to live without you. If you kill yourself, then i'm coming with you 'cause my world is nothing without you in it. Promise?" Andy's words shot through me like bullets. Was he serious about commiting suicide if did? I couldn't imagine putting Andy through that kind of pain.
"P-promise.." I said shakily. I felt grief wash through and quickly turned around to see Ashley's saddened and tear stained face.
"Ashy...I'm so fucking sorry for snapping at you. Do you hate me?" I asked, crying a little harder out of fear that he might hate me now. God i'm so stupid!
"It's okay, love. You don't need to apologize. I don't hate you! I could never hate you!" His reassuring words stopped the ongoing flow of tears and put a slight smile on my face.
"Will you try to get better?" CC asked, hopefully. I sighed, knowing it was going to be extremely hard to eat a regular 3 meals a day without wanting to throw it all up. But, i know i have 5 amazing guys to help me get through it. I nodded, smiling.
"If you guys help me."
"Of course we will!" Jake announced, smiling.
"Babe?" Andy asked. I turned around to face him, again. Hmming in response.
"Do you make yourself throw up?" He asked with concern in his voice and worry on his face.
"I'm sorry.." I apologized before crying again, but not as hard. Andy wrapped his arms around me once again.
"Don't worry, we're gonna get through this together. You're not alone, okay? We'll brave this storm." I nodded, smiling.
I love you guys, sooo much." I said while getting up. I was squished in between a vampire sandwhich and i could barely breathe.
"We love you too!" The guys shouted in unison causing a wave of laughter to crash throughout the room. When they pulled away to let me breathe, an idea came to my head.
"Movie night?" I questioned, grinning? The guys cheered in response.
Movie night was a blast, as usual. I found myself thinking more about how lucky i was to have these guys in my life, than actually watching the movie.
"Need to borrow some clothes?" Andy asked, as we got ready for bed.
"Yes please!" He handed me a pair of boxers and a black tank top. Andy stripped down into his breifs, causing a blush to make its way onto my face before starting to turn his back to me.
"Wait! You don't have to turn around."
"You sure?" He asked, turning back to face me. I nodded before slowly sliding off my shirt and shorts. The entire time i was taking my clothes off, Andy was taking in the new sight. He licked his lips seductively before walking over to me and gently pushing me onto the bed.
Andy got on top of me and crashed his lips to mine. I was a little shocked at first, but soon responded. A moan escaped my lips when he squeezed my butt, allowing Andy to slip his tongue into my mouth. We explored each others mouths for a while before he started to attack my neck with kisses. He rubbed himself up against me, creating sweet friction. Between the kisses and the "grinding", Andy left me a moaning mess.
"A-andy." I moaned. His hand drifted down my stomach, leading to my panties. As much as i was enjoying this, i didn't want to go any further. I just wasn't ready yet. I grabbed his hand and pulled it back up. i put my hands on his upper chest and gently pushed him up from my neck.
"I'm not ready.. Sorry." I apologized.
"It's alright, i'm not rushing you." He said with a slight laugh. "I just couldn't help myself you look so sexy in your underwear." I saw the lust in his eyes and it made a blush creep it's way onto my face.
"T-thanks." I said before yawning.
"Lets go to bed." Andy announced before rolling off me and pulling the covers over us. I was a little confused as to why he left us both in our underwear but my sleepiness pushed that thought to the back of my mind.
"I love you, beautiful. You're gonna get better. I promise." He said before giving me one more gentle kiss on the lips and wrapping his arm around me.
"I know i am. And i love you too." I thought about how lucky i am to have this man in my life until i drifted into a peaceful sleep.
@Red Phoenix77 i wrote this back when i was about 13 (im 18 now) but i assume that my thought process was that vampires weren't undead, they were very much alive. also, i was very inexperienced when writing this story so i didn't put too much thought into things. maybe i'll re-write it one day! :)
9/20/17