My Eternal Bleeding Heart

This mall is huge!!! no wonder he lkes it so much. I run around with him laughing behind me till I find hot topic, Spencers, foot locker, rue 21, and Ragstock because they have the cutes dresses in my size for once. I try to pay each time but Jeffree lifts me up hand the cashier his card and hauls me out then goes back for my stuff.
"now we are getting hair, mani, pedi's and make up done."

" But I like my hair. its long wavy and a lovely brown with natural red highlights in the sun..."

"you have been through hell. you need a change."

"can we stop and get my lip pierced and some tattoos done as well?"

"Of course we can sugar"

"YAY!!! your the best friend a girl could ask for Love, I really do love you" I kissed his cheek he deserves it he puts up with me enough. my nails are black with pain and loss on em. Love was confused I told him I'd explain later. my hair is now donated to locks of luv, and colored red with a blonde streak in the front and back so when its in a high ponytail you can see it. its a bob cut. I like it Love has a good eye. He did my make up for me. a silver and black smokey eye and black and red lipstick. its really pretty. he bought me an outfit I live. its a black short tutu styled skirt a Lawless tank and a leather sleeveless vest with chains hanging on it. my tattoos are awesome and already healed. Special abilities for the win woo!.
"what do I look so nice? what are we doing?"

"Clubbing, ever been?"

"no the guys make me stay at home. I guess they are afraid ill get hurt or something'

"awe well ill take you when I go and when you need a night out ok?"

"really thanks Love!" I jumped up and hugged him and kissed his cheek again. I love his hugs he squeezes me back. Its like he's trying to take all my broken pieces and put em back together again. he's the best glue ever.


~~~Loves home~~~

So sugar spill the beans. why pain & loss across your nails.'
"because its all I ever feel and get." he looked so sad when I said that. he came over picked me up and put us on the couch. I was on his lap. he was hugging me. I felt safe. he was my rock and I needed to cry. I finally found my shoulder. I told him everything. all my troubles. the times I was raped. physically, mentally, emotionally abused, when I was hit by a speeding drunk driver, when I was shot in the head bullied, attacked nearly killed countless times, the times I dies. everything. in the end, he was crying too. he sad we will go clubbing
tomorrow instead. he said Jacuzzi was better for how we were right now and I agreed. I mentioned not having a suit. he laughed. he bought me one. I wasn't shocked. hes a sneaky one. we watched movies and were I the Jacuzzi a lot. I want one so bad. I was getting tired he was carrying me to the guest room. I almost freaked. He noticed my breath hitched. of course! he always does!!!
"whats wrong?"

"I-I c-cant s-sleep-p a-aalone"

"no problem sugar" he chuckled. its so cute too. his bed is really comphy. I wore a shirt of his. it smells likehim, I like it, and I snuggled up to him. he seemed uncomphy with it so I sighed rolled over, and curled up into a ball. he chuckled and said "hey get back here its not every day I get to sleep with a gorgeous angel like yourself sugar."
"but it makes you uncomphy. ill stay over here so you sleep better and more comphy.'

"awe. see how can I be uncomphy when you say that? come here its much warmer" didn't move. "I know all your tickle spots" I stiffened wide eyed I rolled over.

"you wouldn't dare!"

"wanna risk it?" I quickly scooted back over under his arm so I was on his chest hearing his heart. they always sooth me the rhythmic ba-bum ba-bum ba-bum. was nice and calming. "that's what I thought." I decided to see if it was only me whos tickleish. I wasn't. he squirmed and laughed. "oh your gonna get it now!" he tickled me till my giggles turned to laughter and till I couldn't breath any more. he had pinned my arms down together so I couldn't get him back. he hovered over me and got really close. he said. I got you, now what are you going to do?"
"well, if you weren't gay I would kiss you. but you are so we are just stuck. oh I see was all he said. he was looking a me funny. like the way Ash looks at a girl he likes. it looks funny only cause Love is gay and Ash well duh. it looks really cute on him and I was already horny to begin with. I think he does this to me just to have fun. he knows I'm a nympho. And how I am all the time. He exploits it often, too often really. it sucks., really sucks. I pecked his lips once to shut him up from shock. it worked rather well...hmm...perhaps I should do it again but a little more....that should get him off me right??? Go for it. the worst that could happen is he kisses back and that's totally fine. so I did.
To my shock the worst actually happened. he smirked, rolled over, turned off the light and said "that was okay, night sugar" see here's the thing. hes' gay, so did I try? no! do I want to now? hell yes! no one says it was only all right. ever.
"you honestly think that's the best I can do?"
"of course not" his tone I was unhappy with it. it held secrets. I like knowing them. so I kissed him again. like I always kiss a guy I love and care for. I put al my emotions, thoughts, fears, hopes, everything. I give it my all. because I never know if I will be able to ever again. needless to say he was breathless. there was enough light from the window to see his face. I loved it and pecked his lips because of it. he growled. I was shocked. my expression was showing it as well. Im still exceedingly lost as to what occured next.

Notes

Well what do you guys want to occur???I have a few ideas. input beasties!!!!!!!!!!!!!! muah love you all.