My Eternal Bleeding Heart

"AAHHHHHH!!!!!! SHANIA SHANIA SHANIA!!!!!! HELP ME THERES SO MUCH OF MY BLOOD!!!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!"
Sweetie I am right fucking here please refrain from making me go deaf. I am soooo damn sorry this is all my fault!!!"
"You warned me and I didn't heed it you are worth it okay. Plus now I get to go to heaven and meet your family and warn an prepare them for your arrival!"
So much joy in that voice glad I taught her about heaven and all that jazz. God and Jesus are in for a treat bombarded with hugs all day everyday, ha my family too especially my sissy Lizzy(Elizabeth) she would be ten now If I wasn't such a fuck up. Sammy better be good to em both or Ill hurt him when I get there...well If I do...long story stay tuned. I watched her emerald eyes as the life faded ever so slowly from them. Like the sun setting at the end of the day. This sun I would never see again. Holding back tears is so fucking hard shes like my sister. I almost did right by her, almost.
God and Jesus say hi and love you. Dying is painless, easier than living. I think its because I have you with me. Thank you for making my life fun, standing up for me, beating my bullies up and being the mom and sister I was never born into with. Blood makes you related, but trust respect and most importantly love makes you family. Promise me you will Never give in, Never back down and Never go harm yourself?"

"Cross my broken bleeding heart till the day I naturally die." don't cry don't you break and fucking cry!!!

"Good by my beautiful mother and sister" and like the wind dying on a beautiful day she was gone. Riley Rae, my little girl was gone...cold and limp I finally let her go the ambulance finally here, cops too. They all loved me. I'm a fighter, always hurt and angery. I take it out on the thugs, gangs, and other idiot law breakers. I do bend laws...more on that later. They all hugged me said they loved me. I said don't come find me. They looked sad but understood and agreed they all had my number said they would keep in touch I nodded in response.

Miss Samson tried to comfort me to no avail or success, or want really. She hates me her aura is ugly around me and fucking reeks. Don't know or care what I did. I thanked her for making all the others shut up for Riley while we talked and I made her laugh. It was nice of her, It was for my Rae of sun not me so there's why. I told her I was leaving. I turn 18 next week. Don't bother looking I'm running till I can't anymore. We both knew all that fucking paperwork was what she hates she agreed. Didn't say no stay just nodded and left me to pack. I ate and went upstairs to find all my stuff was neatly packed. BVB, SWS, AA,BOTDF, FIR, ETF, ect posters and CDs clothes towles blankets toiletries too. With a note saying I don't know what. Read it later maybe. Grabbed both bags and left. But I stopped in..her room grabbed my guitar and her favorite outfit and our cuddle buddy blanket packed em and left. AS soon as my skin hit the cali air I ran and ran it was dark I didn't know where I was. Finally her death hit me. It was a quiet neighborhood...till I droped my shit and screamed like no tomorrow. In pain then guttural then like Andy, Chris, Danny,ect. Till I couldn't breath I screamed for a solid hour. I got a few looks till they saw the tears and blood stains, then they looked at me pity and ran. Closed my eyes after that. I was gasping for air. Then I heard clapping. I started to run but I was too tired to care to do as such. So I got my boxer stance ready. Glad I didn't run because when I looked up I saw my heros, damn near all of em clapping...for me??? what the fuck did I get shot and die too??? "That doll face was impressive. I can't scream that long. Bet you sing too." I just nodded. "Instrumetally gifted?" nother nod...I was mentally fangirling. I was calm and cool on the outside. Andy just complimented me worthless little me...woah..."Are you drunk Andy?"...not my original choice of words when I planned to go to warped....oh well shit happens..hehe I earned a laugh from MIW BVB SWS FIR ETF BOTDF AA and BTMF. good night so far...

"What happened why are you covered in blood?" asked Jinxx Andy was still shocked
"Friend\daughter\sister died. she was my whole world. now shes dead shot at point blank and its all my fucking fault. so I ran away from the orphanage. I forgot about my shirt sorry I'll fix it". I striped off my clothes and changed. They all stared at me funny..."What you all think that im fat and ugly too?"
Ashley, shocker there *sarcasm intended*, said no fucking way you have abs, boobs and hips fat is not a category you are remotely close to.At.ALL!!!"
AWWEEE!!! Thanks Ashie!!!" I rann and full body hugged him you know run jump leg wrap around and shit. he blushed. I made ASHELY ABROCKET PURDY BLUSH why aren't you happy dancing with me? ok ok pretend it was you, better? see!!! and yess, I teased him, like a boss. "okay..so I did have a friend die in my arms but...that's not gonna acurve my love of food...so....OFF to-" "our house!" shouted BVB I shit you not all at the same fucking time. Cool right? I laughed and said ok whos carrying my shit and whose my noble steed my feet hurt I walked more than five miles today!!! CC in his hyperness beat Chris to the punch, I hugged him like Ashie got hugged and said no worries theres always next time and kissed him on the cheek, he was crimson red, damn I was on role I jumped for joy Ash was like "Hey why doesn't he get teased....rebel?"

My response? at the top of my lungs like a beast I shouted, " BECAUSE HES NOT A MOTHERTRUCKING MAN WHORE WHOSE USED TO HAVING WOMEN AND STRIPERS FALL AT HIS FEET FANGIRLS ARE WAAAY DIFFERENT FOR HIM THAN YOURS ARE ASHLEY FUCKING ABROCKET PURDY!!!" with that he shut up and didn't sat shit again..he was pouting!...duh I boob hugged him to help him out he smiled and said thanks an apologized for questioning my logic and will try to refrain from it again. I laughed welcomed and accepted his response and pulled out my mom tone and said "You bet your sexy ass you will or there will be consequences young man!" lots of shock and awe occurred. I hopped on my nobel steed saying "onward my nobel steed at dawn we ride to batte best we hurry afuel up and rest!" he laughed I laughed we all did and we were a their house soon like three blocks away. No wonder they all came bet I was fucking loud too hehehe yay! I got a tour, wellll sorta I stopped at the kitchen, Andy was about to go upstairs when he notied. He cussed and said he shoulda known. then he, like all the rest of the gang were speechless at my food cooking and eating skills. let me tell you, I cooked enough food for like thirty people, I ate like half and all who wanded to eat were fed, and there were left overs, needless to say I won the food eating contest and won 500 bucks a band "woo! neva doubt my skillzz bitches!" they all about fucking died I swear. stuck the money in my boobs stripper style Ash noticed and looked at me funny. he was my regular I was a lill offended wig or not I mean really come on!!!
Momma Jinxx asked me lots of questions I said he was to relay em to all cause I was lazy so you know theres that. he understood and agreed.
" 5'4, n yes this is my natural hair color. saw family die when I was 13. still an A+ student, I sleep in all my classes minus art and music, I do have glasses hate em, im Irish german and native American, bullied all day everyday, can kick box, know karate kung fu, tai chi, and yoga, will have my piercing and tattoo license next week that's my birthday, the 24th, no I never get parties or happy birthdays or gifts, I never been loved, or happy, music is my escape and my passion, I play guitar, bass, drums and can sing, know a little flute violin, chello, trumpet and tuba. no almost never smile genuinely. EVER. That all? oh and HI my name is Shania Marie thank you for being you savior is my alarm tone every week day, yes thers more you need to know but I'll tell you when I tru...when Im ready." I never trust people that wouldn't of been fair. Turns out rockstars are eaves droppers and Jinxx didn't have to repeat too much really. CC bone crushingly hugged me, all else hugged my like well normal people hug, gently. it was nice. I looked at the time 11:06 and was heading to the door when they all, yeah ALL said "where do you think you are going?"

"um, leaving?

That is when Ashley walked over and picked me up bridal style and said, "nu uh there is no escaping from us once your excepted your ours forever", his eyes flashed,"Is that understood my rebel?" I nodded I didn't know what else to do. the tension cleared and we partied they tried to get me drunk to no avail and they were plastered despite the fact of me drinking three times as much as Ashley. Jinxx was sober as well, not a drinker he said he was the designated cleaner, Danny puked on the rug, made sence to me I oohhed and asked him a question that had the answer shock the want of sex outta me, well almost. Why did Ashies eyes flash turquoise when he was...sternly telling me I had to stay?"
"you wont like the answer."
Tell me anyways, pleeeaasse Momma Jinxx!", earning a smile and a hug woo!

"Hes a special kind of werewolf" head me- WHAT THE MOTHERFUCKING HELL!!!!!!! IM IN DEEP ASS SHIZA RUN BITCH RUN WHILE YOU CAN HE HASNT BOUND YOU YET! then I remembered the eye flach and me agreeing. FUCKING HELL HIM AND HIS DAMN SEXINESS!!!! "he can read minds as well" Fuck my life. oh cool me too on the mind reading thing. I remembered I keep my shield upat all times woo saved!
"he can't he read yours"
"I am an impath I can do lots of things anything I want to do is possible for me. Um...heh... Sammi wishes she ever cheated on you she was drunk but now she hates you call her in exactly three weeks and a day and say hi babe. she will crumble trust me, please?" he just nodded "Andy says the same date as well so..." I knew I was right! on both counts!
Ashley was instantly sober came ovef half wolfed? And said we need to talk now!!! he growled, I cowered and shrieked he went normal and apologized profusely and carried me to his room.

Notes

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sorry its so long hope you like it. Please comment. Thanks hope you like it. There will be some plot twists. THERES REVISIONS AND REWRITES.