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I sighed and went backstage. We had just finished our gig for the night. Andy called after me but I ignored him. I went straight to our dressing room and sat down, holding my head in my hands. I had too much stress at the moment. Relationships, family, band. I didn't know how to keep it up anymore. Jake came in and sat next to me.
"We are all here if you need to talk you know."
I nodded. "I don't want to talk. Talking about it makes it real."
"I don't know what you're going through, Ash. None of us do. We want to help you."
I started crying. "Please, Jake. Just leave it."
He nodded and handed me some tissues before he left. I curled up on the couch and stared at the ceiling. I dozed for a few minutes before standing up and sorting my face out. I reapplied my stage make up and went back out to see the guys. They were laughing with another band. I recognized Danny, one of Andy's exs, but I only knew him. Andy saw me.
"Ash! Come on over. These guys are Asking Alexandria. Danny's band."
One of the guys scoffed. Danny chuckled.
"This is Ben, the original founder of the band, so it's technically his." I stared at Ben and swallowed heavily. All thoughts about my problems with Kina dissolved from my mind. He nodded at me.
"Hi."
"H-Hi." I bit my lip and kicked myself inwardly for stuttering. Andy stared at me and then glanced at his watch.
"Guys we have to get going."
Jake and Jinxx cheered and sprinted off for the tour bus. Andy sighed.
"Don't take offence at them. They just want to sleep."
CC murmured goodbye and then disappeared off in the same direction. Danny sighed.
"We should be going too."
Andy went to leave and looked at me. "Ash?"
Ben seemed hesitant to leave.
"I'll catch up, Andy."
Ben was having a conversation with Danny and they were both talking quickly. Danny nodded and Ben walked over.
"How are you?"
"I'm ok. Yourself?"
He nodded. "Tired."
"So am I."
"I think we all are."
He smiled and I found myself smiling back.
"So, uh, how long have you played bass for?"
"About seventeen years. How long have you played guitar for?"
"About fifteen years."
I nodded and my phone vibrated. Andy wanted me to get a move on. I sighed.
"You gotta go?"
I nodded. He smiled and sighed. "I guess we'll meet again. Especially if Danny and Andy know each other. I nodded. I turned to leave.
"Ash, wait."
I turned again. "Yes?"
The next thing I registered was the feel of Ben's lips on mine. I whimpered before kissing him back. The kiss felt good and a shiver ran down my spine. He pulled away and I released the air from my lungs. He was smiling.
"I'll see you later, Ashley."
I nodded and turned to walk back to my tour bus, my head full of thoughts. I couldn't focus.

I managed to find the tour bus and I walked on. Andy and the guys were staring at me. Jake chuckled.
"Is he a good kisser?"
I stared at him. "How did you know?"
"Danny tweeted a picture and Andy showed us."
I blushed. Andy sighed.
"Ash, what about Kina?"
"He just kissed me you know, I didn't mean it to happen."
"Just think about it all, Ash."
I walked off to my bunk and fell asleep with thoughts of Ben in my mind.