My Romeo

"What's wrong doll face?" Nicole asks with open arms. She pulls me into a hug. She knows me too well. "Why have you been crying?" "Nothing we can't talk about later." I tell her and she nods. "So where are we going?" "To my house. The guys are already there being greeted by my sister. And Kellin's new to the school and said he wanted to hear us play so, let's go." Says Oliver. "What's the name of your band?" Asks Ricky. "We're called Bring me the Horizon." Says Oliver. "Why'd you call yourselves that?" Asks Kellin. "Why not?" Asks Oliver. "So why did Biersack hold you back?" "He ah asked me to be the um lead for the school musical." I lie, the last thing I need is for the coolest guy in school to think I'm a, ah, I don't know what I am. "Wow, that's awesome. What is this year's musical?" He asks. "I forget the name of it, something to do with a guy and a girl, and love, and stuff." I respond, I honestly have no idea what it is this year. "Okay?" He says, just as confused as everyone else. "Well, we're here!" He says, opening the big garage door. Four guys other than Oliver stood in front of us in the garage. "You ready guys?" "Just five more minutes." Says the guy at the drums with Oliver's sister on his lap. I've only met her once and she ended up pushing me into some lockers, so can't say we were ever friends. "Fine." Says Oliver, walking back to me. "You want to come meet them or would you prefer to meet them one on one?" I look at him confused. "I know about your anxiety, so which do you prefer?" "Not to sound offensive, but one on one." I whisper, biting my bottom lip. "It's not offensive, it's just more comfortable." I give him a small smile. "How'd you know about that?" "Scar, I've known you since I moved here in grade one, I'm bound to notice. I actually think it's adorable." "Then why wait till this year to be nice to me?" Oliver puts on a frown and waits a second before answering. "There's no excuse for the things I did to you, but I want to make it up to you. I like you a lot Scarlet and if you don't feel the same way then I understand." He says looking to the ground. I tilt his head up so his eyes stare into mine. "I do like you, I've always liked you." I tell him the truth, it's all true. I have always had a crush on this guy. He just has never noticed. Even though I'm starting this odd relationship with Andy, it doesn't mean I can't try things out with Oliver. "Scarlet Kanes, will you go on a date with me?" "Why yes, Oliver Sykes." "Please call me Oli." "Okay Oli, so what kind of music do you guys play?" "Metal-core, though you might call it something else." "Well then go get started." "You guys ready?" Oli asks and they all nod, Oli's sister goes back into the house. Then they begin to play. "Can you hear the silence? Can you see the dark? Can you fix the broken? Can you feel... can you feel my heart?" Wow, Oliver's really good. The whole band is but my eyes never left Oli. I guess I have had a little crush on him, but I want Andy. I physically yearn for him and only him. Oli is a pretty face but Andy is more, I know it. I don't know how I know it, but I do. "I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone. I long for that feeling to not feel at all. The higher I get, the lower I'll sink. I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim." His actual singing voice is adorable, god what's wrong with me? My phone vibrates in my pocket, I look to see it's a text from Nicole's mom. *I'm sorry but the cops showed up and it's not safe to come to this house tonight* With that, my heart sank. Tears rushing down my warm cheeks. I feel as if I'm gonna throw up. They're looking for me and they aren't gonna stop till they find me. They'll bring me home and do their worse to me. I can't have this happen, not again. I curl up into the fetus position and drown my sobs in my lap. I hear the music stop and feel arms around me. My eyes are still tearful and puffy, so I can't really see, but I know the three pairs of arms around me. Kellin, Oliver, and Nicole. The band was just finishing as I got the text, but Oli had completely stopped when he saw me like that. Where am I going to sleep tonight? "What's wrong sweetie?" Nicole asks in a soft tone. "It's not safe to go back there Nicki." I say, it hurts to even get a word out. "What do you mean?" "They're at your house looking for me, I can't stay with you anymore." I release from their hug and curl up on the couch again, hiding my face. "I don't understand, what's happening?" Asks Kellin. "It doesn't matter, I just can't go home and I can't stay at Nicole's house." I say. I don't want them to know and then call me a freak. "I would love for you to stay here, but I don't think my parents would allow it." Says Oli. "I would suggest my house, but my mom says it's full already." Says Kellin. I give them both a small smile. But now I have nowhere to go. My phone goes off, it's Andy. Maybe he could be my saviour. *Hey beautiful, just checking on you.*-A *Hey, not doing so good, I'm kinda homeless at the moment.* -S Then my phone rings, Andy calls of course. I love how much he cares. "What's wrong babe?" He asks. He kind of catches me off guard with the babe thing, I will never be use to this. "I told you what's wrong, I have no where to stay." I say, choking on my tears. "Stay with me, tell me everything, we'll take care of this together." "What about Juliet?" "She won't mind you staying with us, don't worry about it. Where are you right now?" "I'll meet you at the back of the school." "Okay, see you soon." "Bye." I hang up the phone. "I have to go." I tell my friends. "Where are you going? Who was that on the phone?" Nicki asks. "Don't worry about it, I'll see you tomorrow okay?" She nods her head and I start making my way down to the school. "Hey, wait up." Says Kellin running to catch up with me. "Sorry to kinda spoil the mood." I say. "You didn't spoil anything, and whatever happened, I'm sure it isn't your fault." "No it's not, but it's my fault for not speaking up earlier." "Hey don't go crying again." Kellin says as a tear rushes down my cheek. "You want me to sing to you, will that calm you down?" I nod because speaking hurts. "And I'd give up forever to touch you 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't wanna go home right now And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life When sooner or later it's over I just don't wanna miss you tonight And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming Or the moment of truth in your lies When everything feels like the movies Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am" Kellin sings. His voice is amazing, it's high and sweet and soothing. "Thank you Kellin, you're really awesome." I say hugging him. "Anything for you and sorry about earlier and asking you for your number, I didn't know about you and Oliver." "Don't be sorry at all, besides if I wasn't seeing anyone right now I would have given it to you." I say and that puts a big grin on his face. "Anyways, see ya tomorrow." "Bye Iris." "Did you really just call me Iris?" "Come on, you know you love it." I giggle as he walks away. I go back into the school seeing as it's still open, and walk down to Andy's classroom. I look through the window to see Andy talking to Taylor, the hottest girl in school. He sits at his desk, laid back in his seat, while she sits at the end of her seat with crossed legs. She bats her eyelashes and flips her hair, I catch a glimpse of Andrew licking his lips. She gets up and sits on his desk. He rises from his seat as well, and meets her eyes. Their lips are less than an inch away and I can't watch anymore, I knock on the door like I would knock his teeth out. He flings himself back and opens his door. "Scar, when did you get here?" He asks, trying to play it cool, it's not working though. "A second ago." I lie, best not to speak about it in the school. "Ready?" "Yeah, just let me finish up with Miss Grace and I'll be right out." "Okay, I'll go wait at the front of the school." I say. He closes the door and I make my way down the hallway trying not to make myself feel worse. But I should have known. I should have known that Andy could never have true feelings for me, that's why he will never leave Juliet, and that's what makes me a fool. Well, not a complete fool, it's not like I fucked him. Even though I really want to, shit he's coming, don't be mad. "Scar?" Andy shouted for me, I came out from under the stairs, my usual hangout. "Hey." I say softly. "Come here, tell me everything. And don't leave out anything, I care too much to let something else bad happen to you." Ha, as if he cares. "Come, sit down, I think it's best if you're sitting to hear this." I say sitting with my back against the wall. He sits next to me, holding my hands. "It all started from the age of six, that was the first time I disobeyed, and they... They beat me for it. So I learned to obey but the beatings didn't stop, no it just got worse. Black eyes, bruised arms, broken ribs. At the age of ten, I didn't think they could do worse, but they did, well at least my father did." "He touched you?" "Yes," I say gulping down the tears. "He took the one piece of innocence left in me and threw it away. I left that house last night, that's why I was in the diner, I was waiting for Nicole to pick me up. I stayed at her house last night, but my parents have the cops monitoring Nicole's family very closely. I'm not going home Andy, I never will again. Those people left scars on me, both physically, mentally, and emotionally. Please don't let them take me." I ask softly. Every day I cry and I can't cry anymore. I look up at Andy and he's pissed. "They're gonna wish they never laid a hand on you when I'm done with them. How dare they? How dare the treat you like garbage? Why can't they see the beauty I see right in front of me? And how dare he take away your flower? That's my job! Fuck I'm calling the cops!" Andy yells. I've never seen someone so angry, it makes me feel all warm inside. "Andrew please don't, I want all my worries to be pushed to tomorrow. Please, tomorrow morning I'll talk to the cops, but right now I just want to spend the night in your arms." I say, he wraps his arms around my cold body, loving me when I need him .

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