Things Aren't Always As They Seem

I hate myself. You hear this sentence often, right? Well, unlike the majority of attention-seeking assholes out there..I actually mean it. People hate me, too, so it's obviously a true statement that my life is meaningless and should be ended asap. However...when I listen to music...I'm immediately engulfed in the feeling of love and want. It's not something that can simply be explained, one has to experience this love for themselves to truly understand. But..what I'm talking about isn't just any 'ole tune that happens to grace the radio station, or other music playing devices, with its' presence. No, what I'm talking about is the kind of music that would be played at, say, Warped Tour..or through the speakers of the outcasts' headphones. Music, that is often looked down upon for being "different". This type of music, though, can be one of the most accepting kind if given the chance.

I cannot tell you how many times music has saved my life. It helps me calm down, and clear my mind of any possible future-regretting decisions...like, combining the rest of my prescription meds with a bit of alcohol, and blood stained tears falling from my skin. I just can't help it, though. This is who I am, and what I will most likely always be tempted to do.

So many people ask me why I'm the way I am. Well, that my friend..is a very long story that can be explained in time. I say "can"..for the simple fact that I don't know for sure if you will continue reading past this intro. I won't blame you if you stop reading my story, it's rather..bad, if I'm being honest.

However, if you've made it this far, I'd like to take the time to thank you for going against your better judgement with finding another story to read, one that's tons better than this one. Maybe some of you have gone, or are still going through similar things. If so, I am truly sorry. And, I'd like to bring forward the fact that even if you don't continue reading, you're not alone. That being said, please feel free to venture on into my own little piece of Hell...at your own risk. And remember, things aren't always as they seem..and there's always a light at the end of every darkness.

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