He Has My Heart

Rileys POV

Me and Ash finally set a date for the wedding. Only problem was that it was only a few months away. I had planned most of it, but still a few minor details, well not so minor... More like my dress.
I brought Kimber with me to come search for my dress.
"Why have you left it so late? Do you know how long it takes for them to alter your dress?" Kimber said, while I drove her over to the store.
"I've had other things on my mind Kimmie. I haven't had the time. The dress takes the least amount of time, compared to flowers and venue, the dress is last on my list" I could feel my frustration brimming.
"Okay, okay, I get it. I know its been a hard couple of months, but Riley! You're getting married! You should be happy!" Kimber squealed, trying to lift my spirits.
"I am happy. I just have a lot on my mind" I said parking round the back of the store.
"Like what?"
"I guess I'm just scared."
"Sweetie, what are you scared of? Is it being married to Ashley? Are you doubting him?!"
"No, not at all. I'm just worried cause what if we decide on wanting a family and I can't do that for him?" I said as we walked into the store.
"Maybe he won't want a family... Or maybe your fine and you'll be able to get pregnant again" she said trying to calm my nerves.
"Maybe, but lets not talk about this right now and look at that dress!" I said beaming at the gorgeous dress on the mannequin.
"Oh my God Riley, that is so you!"
The dress was strapless with a sweetheart neckline. It was tight around the bust, all the way down to about the knees and then flared out. But what I loved was that it was covered in lace. A delicate lace that I fell in love with.
"I don't think I need to look at any others. That is my dream dress!" I said, completely forgetting what we just talking about.
I asked the assistant to let me try it on and make sure it looked good on.
I came out of the dressing room and Kimbers face lit up.
"That dress was made for you Riley! Please tell me you are going to buy it!"
"Of course I am! It's all me. How can I not?" I said going back in the dressing room and taking it off.
We finalised the details on the dress and they would do all the alterations it needed in time for the wedding.
"What about the bridesmaids dresses?" Kimber asked as we got back into the car.
"I organised that for next week. Hope your excited for it!" I said starting the car.
"Very! What colour are we wearing?" She asked keenly.
"You're gonna have to wait to find out" I said smirking.
"Always so secretive" she said shaking her head at me.
I dropped her off back home and went to my doctors appointment.
I hadn't told anyone I was going in for another check up. I was just really nervous about not being able to have kids.
I reached the doctors office and signed it.
The receptionist looked up at me and smiled. "The doctor shouldn't be too long."
I smiled back at her, but I wasn't feeling right about this.
10 minutes later Dr. Roberts came out of the examination room and beckon me to follow him in.
"Hello again Ms. James. How have you been feeling?" He motioning me to get onto the bed.
"I've been feeling okay. I don't know. Since everything happened my body has felt off."
Dr. Roberts treated me when we came back from Vegas, so he knew what I was talking about.
"Well, from the tests we took last time, it seems the lining in your uterus took a lot of the damage. The problem with that is that the egg needs to attach itself to the lining. Are you still regular?" He asked, not even blinking.
"Umm kind of. It feels different."
"Hmm. I think it is still possible that you can conceive, but it might take a while. Your body is still healing and the situation could change. Don't be discouraged if it doesn't happen straight away, but at this point in time, the likelihood of you falling pregnant is very low."
I felt like crying. What if I didn't get any better? What if it got worse?
"Thanks doc" I said standing and leaving the examination room.
I bolted for the door and headed for my car.
I didn't really think about it much before, but now it has clouded my mind.
I didn't want to go home. I couldn't face Ashley like this. Instead I went to our house in Malibu. I just wanted to be alone.
As soon as I got there I grabbed the bottle of whiskey and planted myself on one of the deck chairs.
I'm not sure how long I was staring out at the ocean, but it calmed me, that and the whiskey.
I watched the sunset and felt myself dosing off when I felt my phone vibrate.
Shit, it was Ashley.
"Hello?" I said, sounding croaky.
"Riley, where the hell are you?! We were meant to meet Andy and Juliet for dinner 30 minutes ago!" He yelled.
"Oh shit, I'm so sorry, I completely forgot. I just got wrapped up in something" I hadn't even thought about it.
"Well there's no point going now. I told them something came up. Where are you?"
I didn't want to tell him, but he would worry if I didn't. "I'm in Malibu."
"Why are you there?"
"Because I just needed to be alone for a bit, okay?"
"Whats wrong? What happened?" I could hear the worry in his voice.
"Nothing."
"I don't believe you."
"Well I'm not going to tell you over the phone. Look, I'll come home in the morning. It will be easier to explain in person."
"Riley, you can't do this to me. I'm coming up there now."
"No, Ash, please. Can you just wait!" I pleaded with him.
"No Riley, it can't! You always do this! You shut me out! I'm in this relationship too! I'm coming there now and you are going to talk to me. It will just be us. I'm not asking you to tell everyone, but please, Riley, please! You have to tell me. Okay? I'll be there in 30" and he hung up.
I was hoping I wouldn't have to say anything.

Notes

Sorry for the late update. Been a busy couple of days. Hope you like :) Let me know what you think :P xx