Too Much
Chapter Twenty
Alex POV
I'm nervous when I get up to the front of the room. I'm so scared of what everyone is going to think about my song, which is very personal to me. Andy gives me a reasuring smile and I say,"Hey everyone. This song is very close to me I hope you like it." Someone in the back yells out faggots, and before Andy and I could come up with a comeback, Kellin, who is usually so shy, says,"The only faggot in here is you." Everybody stares at him in shock including Vic. He smiles at him and whispers something in his ear that makes Kellin blush like crazy. The same person yelled out,"Oh yeah I forgot that Fagskarth and Gaysack aren't the only fags in here." Mr. Givens sends the guy out. He was Jasey's fuck of the week. I don't even know the dudes name. Once the room got settled Mr.Givens told us to continue so I took a breath and started singing as Andy started to play guitar.
"Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye -it could be for the last time and it`s not right.
"Don`t let yourself get in over your head," he said.
Alone and far from home i``ll find you...
Dead - Like a candle you burned out;
spill the wax over the spaces left in place of angry words.
Scream - To be heard, like you needed any more attention;
throw the bottle, break the door, and disappear.
Sing me to sleep, I`ll see you in my dreams,
waiting to say, "I miss you. I`m so sorry."
Forever`s never seemed so long as when you`re not around
it`s like a piece of me is missing.
I could have learned so much from you but what`s left now?
Don`t you realize you shot this family a world of pain?
Can`t you see there should have been a happy ending we let go?
Sing me to sleep, I`ll see you in my dreams,
waiting to say, "I miss you. I`m so sorry."
Sing me to sleep.
Sing me to sleep.
Sing me to sleep.
Sing me to s...
Sing me to sleep (You`ve taken so much with you...)
I`ll see you in my dreams, (But left the worst with me...),
waiting to say, "I miss you. I`m so sorry."
I`m sorry, I`m sorry."
I'm shocked to find tears falling down my face at the end of the song. Andy comes up to me and kisses them away, ignoring all the people yelling insults, and pulls me into his arms. He rubs my back and whispers how brave I am into my ear, and I feel whole for the first time in a long time.
I'm nervous when I get up to the front of the room. I'm so scared of what everyone is going to think about my song, which is very personal to me. Andy gives me a reasuring smile and I say,"Hey everyone. This song is very close to me I hope you like it." Someone in the back yells out faggots, and before Andy and I could come up with a comeback, Kellin, who is usually so shy, says,"The only faggot in here is you." Everybody stares at him in shock including Vic. He smiles at him and whispers something in his ear that makes Kellin blush like crazy. The same person yelled out,"Oh yeah I forgot that Fagskarth and Gaysack aren't the only fags in here." Mr. Givens sends the guy out. He was Jasey's fuck of the week. I don't even know the dudes name. Once the room got settled Mr.Givens told us to continue so I took a breath and started singing as Andy started to play guitar.
"Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye -it could be for the last time and it`s not right.
"Don`t let yourself get in over your head," he said.
Alone and far from home i``ll find you...
Dead - Like a candle you burned out;
spill the wax over the spaces left in place of angry words.
Scream - To be heard, like you needed any more attention;
throw the bottle, break the door, and disappear.
Sing me to sleep, I`ll see you in my dreams,
waiting to say, "I miss you. I`m so sorry."
Forever`s never seemed so long as when you`re not around
it`s like a piece of me is missing.
I could have learned so much from you but what`s left now?
Don`t you realize you shot this family a world of pain?
Can`t you see there should have been a happy ending we let go?
Sing me to sleep, I`ll see you in my dreams,
waiting to say, "I miss you. I`m so sorry."
Sing me to sleep.
Sing me to sleep.
Sing me to sleep.
Sing me to s...
Sing me to sleep (You`ve taken so much with you...)
I`ll see you in my dreams, (But left the worst with me...),
waiting to say, "I miss you. I`m so sorry."
I`m sorry, I`m sorry."
I'm shocked to find tears falling down my face at the end of the song. Andy comes up to me and kisses them away, ignoring all the people yelling insults, and pulls me into his arms. He rubs my back and whispers how brave I am into my ear, and I feel whole for the first time in a long time.
5/19/13