Too Much
Chapter Eighteen
Andy POV
I'm just laying on my bed happy and sad. I've got my Alex back, but he cuts himself. I understand why he started, but I just wish he had told me. Hell I should have noticed. If I was a good boyfriend I would have. I sigh. I hope I can help him stop. My phone rings then. It's my ringtone for pictures. It does that five times before I can get to it and when I do I'm shocked. Alex sent me pictures of the two of us outside the school this afternoon when I had been kissing my way to his lips. WTF is going on?!?! I call Alex and he picks up right away. "What is this? Where did you get these pictures?"I ask him frantically. "My slutty bitch of an ex Jasey saw us this afternoon, and well I guess you can see what happened next,"he said in a calm voice that shocked me. "Why are you so calm. I thought you'd be freaking out about this,"I ask him. "I am. On the inside I am freaking out, worried about going to school tomorrow. I'm just trying to control it so I don't cut,"he said. I gasp as pride fills me,"You're really trying not to cut?" "Yes Andy I am. I know how much it hurts you, and to tell the truth, I needed to stop anyway. I don't want to accidently cut too deep one day and be gone." "I am so proud of you,"I say. "Oh I have some good news,"he tells me, happiness evident in his voice,"I told my parents about us. They were so cool about it. They didn't freak out or anything." I smiled so big after hearing that great news. "Oh Alex, baby, now I'm really proud of you. I am so happy you told them. I don't think you needed to tell your mom though. God those looks she was giving us during dinner." We both laugh at the thought of the looks Mrs. Gaskarth had given us during dinner. We continued to talk about stupid little things until close to midnight when we decided we'd better be going to bed. I fell asleep with a smile on my face thinking about the wonderful man that I'm in love with.
The next day Andy POV
I got to school and the first thing I did was text Alex asking where he was. His response was look up, which I did, only to see him standing right beside my door smiling and waving. I laugh at his silliness and get out of the car. We kind of looked at each other confused at what to do when he said,"Fuck it everyone already knows and kissed me in the middle of the parking lot. I kiss him back and put my arms around him. We stayed like that until someone through a Dr. Pepper bottle at us and yelled,"Go get a room you disgusting fags." I look at Alex, worried, but he just shook it off and flipped off the asshole who yelled it and told them to go fuck themselves. I am so worried about Alex. Before this he was a normal guy who no one messed with. He doesn't really know how to handle all this teasing and bullying. I go on through the whole day worried about him. He said he was fine when we ate lunch with Jennifer and Jack, who were all over each other by the way, but I didn't believe him. He didn't sound okay, and later Jack told me that people had been talking shit about him all day and pushing him around. God this is awful. I mean I went through the same thing, but it different when it's happening to someone you love. I somehow made it to seventh, my only class with Alex. I was exited about seeing him. We met by the door and walked in together holding hands. It was only when I heard a loud voice make some stupid gay joke that I'd heard a thousand times today alone that I remembered that Jasey was in this class too. FML.
I'm just laying on my bed happy and sad. I've got my Alex back, but he cuts himself. I understand why he started, but I just wish he had told me. Hell I should have noticed. If I was a good boyfriend I would have. I sigh. I hope I can help him stop. My phone rings then. It's my ringtone for pictures. It does that five times before I can get to it and when I do I'm shocked. Alex sent me pictures of the two of us outside the school this afternoon when I had been kissing my way to his lips. WTF is going on?!?! I call Alex and he picks up right away. "What is this? Where did you get these pictures?"I ask him frantically. "My slutty bitch of an ex Jasey saw us this afternoon, and well I guess you can see what happened next,"he said in a calm voice that shocked me. "Why are you so calm. I thought you'd be freaking out about this,"I ask him. "I am. On the inside I am freaking out, worried about going to school tomorrow. I'm just trying to control it so I don't cut,"he said. I gasp as pride fills me,"You're really trying not to cut?" "Yes Andy I am. I know how much it hurts you, and to tell the truth, I needed to stop anyway. I don't want to accidently cut too deep one day and be gone." "I am so proud of you,"I say. "Oh I have some good news,"he tells me, happiness evident in his voice,"I told my parents about us. They were so cool about it. They didn't freak out or anything." I smiled so big after hearing that great news. "Oh Alex, baby, now I'm really proud of you. I am so happy you told them. I don't think you needed to tell your mom though. God those looks she was giving us during dinner." We both laugh at the thought of the looks Mrs. Gaskarth had given us during dinner. We continued to talk about stupid little things until close to midnight when we decided we'd better be going to bed. I fell asleep with a smile on my face thinking about the wonderful man that I'm in love with.
The next day Andy POV
I got to school and the first thing I did was text Alex asking where he was. His response was look up, which I did, only to see him standing right beside my door smiling and waving. I laugh at his silliness and get out of the car. We kind of looked at each other confused at what to do when he said,"Fuck it everyone already knows and kissed me in the middle of the parking lot. I kiss him back and put my arms around him. We stayed like that until someone through a Dr. Pepper bottle at us and yelled,"Go get a room you disgusting fags." I look at Alex, worried, but he just shook it off and flipped off the asshole who yelled it and told them to go fuck themselves. I am so worried about Alex. Before this he was a normal guy who no one messed with. He doesn't really know how to handle all this teasing and bullying. I go on through the whole day worried about him. He said he was fine when we ate lunch with Jennifer and Jack, who were all over each other by the way, but I didn't believe him. He didn't sound okay, and later Jack told me that people had been talking shit about him all day and pushing him around. God this is awful. I mean I went through the same thing, but it different when it's happening to someone you love. I somehow made it to seventh, my only class with Alex. I was exited about seeing him. We met by the door and walked in together holding hands. It was only when I heard a loud voice make some stupid gay joke that I'd heard a thousand times today alone that I remembered that Jasey was in this class too. FML.
5/19/13